Sh Mention - Tumblr Posts
trigger warning: mention of sh
just noticed im almost 5 months clean!! yay!! ⁽⁽◝( •௰• )◜⁾⁾
Ngl iif u guys had a sys sona or had an idea of what u look liek I'd draw u guys sm u doont even knoow :33 (I've donne it w other ppl I've had a little obession over)
Also am sorry if make any of u uncomfy by saying stuff like in da laast ask /srs, ALSO I mighhhyt cut 4 u guyss.. When I get blades if ur comfy w dat >:33
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Wwe kinda wantto maske assyssona…
And yoiu d didnt makke annyone uncomfty ddknteorry! Soryr ffor ad spekling ppain andcold,,,
Hate it when my coworkers ask me how I’m doing. Like, fuck off. You don’t want an answer. You want an “I’m doing alright, how are you?” which is a fucking lie and makes me feel bad for being a liar. But you don’t want the truth. And when I tell you, you look at me like I’m the crazy one here for… *checks notes* being honest? If you didn’t want me to say, “I can’t tell if I wanna die, cut myself, try to get high off my meds, quit this job and disappear, or just go to sleep,” then you shouldn’t have fucking asked.
Also, loving how whenever my mood gets bad, my pain gets worse, and the other way around. It’s a cycle that I can’t escape from and all I wanna do is sleep all day. But I have fucking insomnia.
It’s been a bit more than a month, I’m back with my sh and ana bullshit on tumblr guys
guilt consumes me every second I’m awake
My rehabilitator made styros on my belly with just his fingernails
How the fuck?
Need someone to encourage my ed Or to cut more I need yo be someone’s toy to feel worthless but needdd I just want someone to make me worse
Is it okay if I ask for Billy Lenz from Black Christmas 1974 with top surgery scars? + SH scars on his arm(s), only if you're comfortable drawing that! It wasn't mentioned in your post so if you're uncomfortable with that feel free just forget it.
hi there! i hope you like how this turned out :>
Do you guys have a grounding box? What kinds of things do you use if so?
We do!! Though, we call it our sensory box. It's got a large mix of things we've collected over the years (and I do mean years.. we've got a baby rattle in here from childhood, lol)
essential oils and candles for scent based grounding
fidget toys: chewy things, pointy things, fidget spinners, fidget cubes, head scratcher, pop-it, putty
a kaleidoscope
stuffies: including three peas in a pod that we can throw at stuff without doing damage if someone's angry
puzzles: Rubik's Cube, one of those ball pushy things, and a couple metal puzzles
self harm alternatives: acupressure bracelets and rings, silicone slap bands, and some random keys haha
and a letter from my mum about how much she loves us (as a system)
and the box is decorated with things that make us happy!!
mentions of Eating Disorders / sh
Every time I think I've blocked all the pro SH and pro ED tags; another one pops up
it's a game of forbidden whack-a-mole
I use sexual relationships as self harm because,
if I just give my body away it won't be mine anymore. I won't have to deal with it anymore.
Is it bad that I really love how my sh looks? It's so pretty, fresh and with scabs.
Got into an argument with a girl 2day bc she showed me her FRESH sh 😨 I told her it was gross and she was like "So you hate me bcs I'm mentally ill?" No bitch I hate you bcs ur a prissy little cunt
