I Hate My Brain - Tumblr Posts
When you were waiting for your friend to come back from a meeting, but fall asleep instead
I love them okay?
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TW: Ana
I literally don't care what are your preference in looks for women. Or if you think my weight is "perfectly normal" (I'm BMI 23.3 btw, so gimme a break, you're just stupid), or even if you think that my metabolism "shouldn't" get fixed 'because it's proportional" or some shit you've just invented in the middle of the conversation because you are a stupid moron who thinks everyone's disorder gets healed when you compliment/consolate them.
I literally hate myself, so the more you try to comfort me, the worse I get, for your inconvenience ^_^ Destroying my body is fun, and one of the reasons I do that is because I want to see people actually worried and concerned about me. It doesn't matter if it's a relative or a stranger, if it's in the internet or not, I NEED TO GET WORRIED ABOUT!!!! And, yes. — I still want to look pretty, because it's the only way I can purge the bad memories my head still holds, because time can't wash it off.
I am terrible person, even though you think I am not, I am.
I deserve no love or attention, because of how ugly and gross my simple presence is, and even the air I breathe is no longer breathable. I give myself no value psicologically, but even though I really hate myself, I won't let you exploit my emotional weakness, because I do not hate myself to that point.
I want to destroy my insides out, but even if I want to be always at my worst, I'd never cut myself so yeah,, I'm a faker and I deserve no mercy because there are people who have it worse and I'm just a stupid teenage girl (obvi not in a kink way, you fucking dunce)
i might just be an art blog until writing doesn’t make me wanna perish anymore
Why do I always feel so bad after communicating my feelings...
Like the heck I hate being me...
I fucking hate myself so fucking bad.
I hate how I am so open even to complete strangers
Now I have to live with the knowledge of that person know personal shit
I'm going to sh tonight fr
Please tell me this doesn't just happen to me, these temporary and stupid flashes of questioning your entire personality and being got you doubting your purpose?
Actually wait, they suck
Please tell me no one else has this happen to them
You're at the top of the emotional world, you love and trust your friends completely, and then they say something that shakes you up to the point you can't even talk about it
They wouldn't do that to you?
Of course not, they care about you, that's so crazy to ever think such a thing
But they'd do it someone, and they don't see it as wrong, cause if they saw it as wrong they wouldn't have told you
God I'm going to be sick
I absolutely DESPISE the way my brain works because here I am, actually trying to finish a ten-thousand-plus one-shot and then it just fuckin throws a new idea at me from left field like a toddler that demands my attention. But lOOK AT THIS!! ISN’T THIS COOL??!!! YOU SHOULD WRITE IT LOOK LOOK LOOOOKKKK ISN’T IT PRETTY??!!!! Like noooohooooo pleaaaseeee I just want to finish one project that’s all I ask
put in the tags the first thing that comes up when u type “i am,” “i’m not,” “i love,” “i hate,” and “i wish”
This is something I think a lot of people need to hear <3
drinking a can of soda is better than not drinking anything at all. “junk” food is better than no food at all. just rinsing your mouth out with mouthwash is better than no oral hygiene at all. changing into a different set of pyjamas is better than not changing at all. getting up just to sit down on the chair across the room for a bit is better than not getting up at all. changing just your pillowcase is better than not changing your bedding at all. cracking a window open is better than getting no fresh air at all.
if you don’t have enough spoons for full tasks, smaller adaptations are better than nothing at all. it’s okay if you don’t have the energy to actively fight today. just staying afloat is enough. you are enough.
This is something I think a lot of people need to hear <3
drinking a can of soda is better than not drinking anything at all. “junk” food is better than no food at all. just rinsing your mouth out with mouthwash is better than no oral hygiene at all. changing into a different set of pyjamas is better than not changing at all. getting up just to sit down on the chair across the room for a bit is better than not getting up at all. changing just your pillowcase is better than not changing your bedding at all. cracking a window open is better than getting no fresh air at all.
if you don’t have enough spoons for full tasks, smaller adaptations are better than nothing at all. it’s okay if you don’t have the energy to actively fight today. just staying afloat is enough. you are enough.
put in the tags the first thing that comes up when u type “i am,” “i’m not,” “i love,” “i hate,” and “i wish”
aaarrrgh i HATE when im out having fun and the second i step back home i feel like im the unfunniest ugliest worst person in the world
like OMG can i have at least ONE DAY of happiness??????????
thinking makes me want to die
"I'm by default a tea person. With coffee it's head empty no thoughts. But with tea it's head full, thoughts about mass genocide."
I'm going crazy with how I forgot the content of ONE WIP on my phone
Oh boy, 3 am...
just another unproductive night in my own personal purgatory. I promise, I really do make stuff.
reblog and type ‘I miss’, ‘I love’ and ‘I hate’ in the tags and let your secrets be revealed!
No puedes seguir esperando a que el ego de aquella persona se reduzca y decida arreglar todas las situaciones por las que te torturas
Nunca lo va a ser!!