Selfharrrm - Tumblr Posts
*bashes my head against the wall because its all i deserve, even the wall will give me more comfort and physical touch than a person, and thats all i want because it'll ruin me even more, but atleast i can feel comfort for just those moments, more so than i ever will before someone else ruins me.*
sh/tw
can someone get me a knew blade? i used to use this one all the time and went back to it bc my others were sharper, and now their all dull so i have to use this for the time being
i cut because the sting of the blade slicing through my soft flesh is better than the sting of abandonment, it feels like the razor blades in my pocket have been there for me longer than anything/anyone else.
i cut because watching the blood seep through a wound and run down my supple skin evokes euphoria like none other, and the release of the tears i cannot cry, the release i so desperately need other than that of demise.
i cut because i cant risk being seen as a bad person, because i cant stand being scolded for something i couldnt help, such as lashing out and bringing a person to whatever lay between life and death all because i couldnt control my anger, my words or fists.
i cut because i can imagine its someone elses skin, i dont do it for the pain nor for the relief of being seen as mentally ill for it - no - i do it for the pure elation i receive from watching it trickle its bitter crimson tears, and to prevent myself from fulfilling my sadistic, violent fantasies.
and you know i deserve happiness, you know i deserve to bleed.
ooooooh poor me
sh/tw
fresh ones plus a healing one from yesterday that i did on my stomach (below this text)
CLICKED OFF THIS TAB FOR 5 MINUTES AND CAME BACK TO 81 NOTIFICATIONS? DAYUMN YALL BOUNCIN ON MY D
I'm a bloody mess (not a joke) haha I'm so stoopid.
I fucking hate myself so fucking bad.
I hate how I am so open even to complete strangers
Now I have to live with the knowledge of that person know personal shit
I'm going to sh tonight fr
tw bl00d, sh
sfx
block don't report
ughhh wish i could cut deeper TvT
"my child is fine"
your child relates to i deserve to bleed by sushi soucy
tw bl00d sh
practicing sfx for halloween
block, don't report
styro is so yummy
i love love love the look of blood pooling
sorry for shitty photo quality lol
wish i could go deeper :(
ugh i wish i wasn't such a fucking pussy :(
tw fake blood sh
block, don't report
sfx practice
useless bitch.
i actually feel okay! 😊 *random wave of depression* oh wait nvm im a shit person and i should mutilate myself beyond recognition ok
i genuinely hate myself so much- why the fuck am i like this???
i should really carve out this worthless taint upon the world
whats the fucking point anymore?
Today (or yesterday at 11 pm technically) I reached a hundred days clean of my self-harm addiction.
I don’t know what anything will hold in store
I’m not too scared about that or even stressed
I still believe I’ll get worse again but at the moment, I’m okay
Not sure if I love or hate the burning after cat scratches.
Getting admitted into the hospital again fml
I’m on a trip to a church thing rn. Really wanna cut but I don’t have the tools.
Life sucks here
THERE IS ALSO ONE CALLED CLEAR FEAR AND IT'S FOR ANXIETY!!!
Listen up. There is literally an app that can help you avoid self harm and I don’t know why we aren’t talking about it.
Calm Harm can be tailored to your needs and will provide strategies to help you get past those crucial moments of wanting to harm.
It’s also totally FREE.
once again, it’s called CALM HARM