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I might be sad forever But I can find beauty here Why should I have to be happy to find beauty and love Maybe I can’t I’m not going to wait around forever Sadness can be beautiful Especially when you’re lying on soft grass Under soft clouds pierced by stiff gristled trees Defiant of the gentle watercolor beauty I’m going to decorate my sadness until it sparkles And maybe this glitter will gleam My glitter gleams because I kissed it I’m surrounded by this shimmering sea Floating along this river until it carries me away It will take me away
A poem called fear it's under the cut :)
Fear
Is there a reason
You feel so empty?
Is there a reason
You feel so alone?
Surrounded by people
All the time
Yet the monsters in your mind
Just won't rest
You're locked in a prison
Made in your mind
Put on a smile
Don't let them know
Cause you can take this pain
Another day.
Focus on happy thoughts
You're convinced you'll end up fine
You're overreacting
Just calm down
Cause nobody else
Says anything about this
So keep your mouth shut,
You think,
And smile at the world
Can't focus on happy thoughts anymore
Can't pay attention
They're getting worried
Cause you can't breath quite right anymore
That smile of yours a bit askew
You're locked in a prison
Made in your mind
You can't let them know
You can't take this pain
Another day.
Take some medication,
You're sure you'll be fine
Keep your mouth shut,
You think,
Cause you can't tell them how it feels
Nobody else
Tells you anything about this
You're drowning in an ocean of silence
So you keep smiling
Not sure you're doing it right but
It's convincing enough.
Medication is failing
It hurts to even think
The monsters dug their claws in so deep
You're so sick of smiling
Cause there are no happy thoughts anymore
You're chained up in your own mind
Gagged by your own fear
You up the dose
Anything to feel alive
You feel like you're insane
Nobody else
Feels this way
You're so alone
Wishing you could
Just smile again
You don't know if you'll be fine
Silence hurts
Words hurt more
Anything
To end the pain
Thoughts fade to fuzzy haze
Your own heartbeat seems like a curse
They ask you if you're afraid of death
You can’t answer
You're not afraid of death
You're afraid of life
You're so scared
Of living another day
Anything to end the pain
It's all too much
Nothing is the same
You're jumping at every noise
You just want to feel free again!
The monsters have you hostage
In your own mind
There's nothing you can do!
You don't feel fixable
You feel like a shattered mess that ruins everything and everyone
You feel like you're ruined beyond redemption, like even your soul can't be saved
You feel afraid of this life when they ask if you're really giving up
But they don't understand
The living hell you suffer though!
They don't understand
How much you keep inside!
Your mind is breaking under the stress
You're so scared of feeling this any more
One more day seems like another year
Every moment of every day is a nightmare of pain you can't escape
Your mind might as well be a weapon
You can't take it any longer!
....
You're drowning.
A Coward's Guide To Being Brave
Bravery
A seven-letter word
And here’s a guide
Of seven parts
To teach us all
How to be brave
One
Fake it till you make it
Keep smiling till it’s real
Keep talking till you find
It’s getting easier
Two,
Give second chances
To those that you know
Compassion can change
And learn when
A second chance
Will only hurt you
Three,
Be honest
If only with yourself
About how you feel and
How you don’t
Discover what your passions are
And relearn yourself again
Four,
Keep both feet on the ground
You’re not meant
To be walked over
Or to keep falling down
Until your knees are bruised
Five
You are a work of art
Treat yourself like
You are holy and
You are in control
Even if you’re hurting and you’re bleeding
Your scars inside and out
Make you a canvas of the human life
Six,
Remind yourself you are worthy
You are cared for
And your experiences cannot
Define you forever
Because it’ll hurt
And forever is a long time
For you to forget
You are worthy
Seven,
Remember you’re not a coward
When it’s hard and you
Can’t remember what it’s like
For the sun to shine and the rain
To give you a break
Even when it’s hard to recall
When you loved yourself
And you just keep faking it
But you feel you
Will never make it
You are not a coward.
Bravery
A seven-letter word
And here’s a guide
Of seven parts
To teach us all
How to be brave.
-A coward
The Way I've Learned To Live
The way I’ve learned to live
Isn’t what I ever expected
When I was little and the world
Still held all the beauty I had needed.
I’ve learned about myself
In ways I hadn’t ever guessed
Were even possible for me.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is preservation above all
Keep my sanity and my life
My heart and my soul.
But oh, I’m losing it
I’m losing this careful hold
Every time I bite back words
I know I need to say.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is to stay silent when others think
That I am like them, because safety is in numbers
My hands are bleeding from the painful grip I have
The only thing suspending me
From falling down and down.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is preservation above all
Keep my heart and my soul
My sanity and this life
But oh, someone help
I can feel myself slipping
And now I tumble
Down and down
The way I’ve learned to live
Is the way I’ve learned to die
Someone help, someone help
But oh, I’m losing it.
The Way I've Learned To Live
The way I’ve learned to live
Isn’t what I ever expected
When I was little and the world
Still held all the beauty I had needed.
I’ve learned about myself
In ways I hadn’t ever guessed
Were even possible for me.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is preservation above all
Keep my sanity and my life
My heart and my soul.
But oh, I’m losing it
I’m losing this careful hold
Every time I bite back words
I know I need to say.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is to stay silent when others think
That I am like them, because safety is in numbers
My hands are bleeding from the painful grip I have
The only thing suspending me
From falling down and down.
The way I’ve learned to live
Is preservation above all
Keep my heart and my soul
My sanity and this life
But oh, someone help
I can feel myself slipping
And now I tumble
Down and down
The way I’ve learned to live
Is the way I’ve learned to die
Someone help, someone help
But oh, I’m losing it.
Fear, Part II
Is there a reason
You feel so alone
With all these people
Surrounding you?
The sun is shining
And the birds are out
Summer air against your skin
But it’s still winter inside.
You’re locked in a cage
Made up of your mind
The monsters are out
And they won’t rest.
Put on a smile
Don’t let them see
How many cracks
You have burning inside.
You can take another day
And your lungs will keep on moving
So focus on happy thoughts
And you’ll be fine.
But now the winter air is biting deep
And it’s getting hard to breathe
Through all this falling snow
And the beasts hunting you.
You’re pounding against the bars
In this cage you’ve made in your brain
But the howling wind and the blanket of snow
Are melding together and leaving you treading
This deepening water
An ocean of silence
That swallows your screams.
Take a deep breath
And paste the smile back on.
Focus on the happy thoughts
And take another pill.
If nobody wants to hear your words
That’s alright, you’ll be fine
Keep your mouth shut, you know,
Conform and don’t be crazy-
Others have it worse anyways.
You don’t remember when
Those pills began to stop
And now your heartbeat is racing
From the killers in your head.
It’s all so much
And now you must be insane
Because nobody else says a word
About suffering like this.
Your mask is far too much
A weight you can’t remove
You’re a bird with clipped wings
A flower with no stem.
You’re chained up in your own mind
Gagged by your own fear
Pills by the handful
Just to feel alive.
Time is fading to a fuzzy haze
The only constant this endless nightmare.
You just want to smile again
You just want to feel whole again!
Cause and effect but this is effect without a reason
What’s the cause, what’s the root
Of this sickened tree?
They ask if you’re afraid of death
Chastise you for these reckless thoughts
And tell you to just grow up.
So how do you tell them
That you’re not afraid of death anymore?
The hell in your head
Is so much worse
Than any hell a religion could offer.
You’re not afraid of the reaper
Or any judgmental god
You’re afraid
Of this life.
Silence is a blade
Cutting your skin
But words make the cuts
Sink all the deeper still.
Anything to end this pain
Anything to cut the chains
Holding you hostage to the demons inside
If heaven is real that’s not where you’ll go
Because this pit can’t be climbed out of
The walls are too sharp
And trying only broke your will.
Every moment of this hell
Is too much, it’s a crushing weight
Anything at all
To end this pain.
Life isn’t fair
And god, don’t you know it
You’re so tired
And the waters are deep
So maybe it’s time
To set you free.
Fear, Part II
Is there a reason
You feel so alone
With all these people
Surrounding you?
The sun is shining
And the birds are out
Summer air against your skin
But it’s still winter inside.
You’re locked in a cage
Made up of your mind
The monsters are out
And they won’t rest.
Put on a smile
Don’t let them see
How many cracks
You have burning inside.
You can take another day
And your lungs will keep on moving
So focus on happy thoughts
And you’ll be fine.
But now the winter air is biting deep
And it’s getting hard to breathe
Through all this falling snow
And the beasts hunting you.
You’re pounding against the bars
In this cage you’ve made in your brain
But the howling wind and the blanket of snow
Are melding together and leaving you treading
This deepening water
An ocean of silence
That swallows your screams.
Take a deep breath
And paste the smile back on.
Focus on the happy thoughts
And take another pill.
If nobody wants to hear your words
That’s alright, you’ll be fine
Keep your mouth shut, you know,
Conform and don’t be crazy-
Others have it worse anyways.
You don’t remember when
Those pills began to stop
And now your heartbeat is racing
From the killers in your head.
It’s all so much
And now you must be insane
Because nobody else says a word
About suffering like this.
Your mask is far too much
A weight you can’t remove
You’re a bird with clipped wings
A flower with no stem.
You’re chained up in your own mind
Gagged by your own fear
Pills by the handful
Just to feel alive.
Time is fading to a fuzzy haze
The only constant this endless nightmare.
You just want to smile again
You just want to feel whole again!
Cause and effect but this is effect without a reason
What’s the cause, what’s the root
Of this sickened tree?
They ask if you’re afraid of death
Chastise you for these reckless thoughts
And tell you to just grow up.
So how do you tell them
That you’re not afraid of death anymore?
The hell in your head
Is so much worse
Than any hell a religion could offer.
You’re not afraid of the reaper
Or any judgmental god
You’re afraid
Of this life.
Silence is a blade
Cutting your skin
But words make the cuts
Sink all the deeper still.
Anything to end this pain
Anything to cut the chains
Holding you hostage to the demons inside
If heaven is real that’s not where you’ll go
Because this pit can’t be climbed out of
The walls are too sharp
And trying only broke your will.
Every moment of this hell
Is too much, it’s a crushing weight
Anything at all
To end this pain.
Life isn’t fair
And god, don’t you know it
You’re so tired
And the waters are deep
So maybe it’s time
To set you free.