Relationship Problems - Tumblr Posts
Possession
(1981)
I kinda miss the old Tumblr... When I was here 5 years ago I could write something like
“And I realized I didn't love you anymore when upon reaching my orgasm I called my name instead of yours...”
And people would have gone crazy. Now only I think this is good shit.
pretty sure my partner doesnt like me anymore,, any tips?? 😓😓
it's so humiliating when you gave so much from yourself, gave them endless chances, basically tried to understand why they have been treating you like shit, because your feelings were actually real and truly loved them unconditionally just it to end abruptly, because you finally found out what they have been doing behind your back the whole time...and the worst is that you was the one who HAD TO end it, because they gave you no other choice, because it could have been the same hamster wheel and you would have ended up even more broken than now..
And the feeling that they acted like they liked you, loved you and wanted to be with you when in reality they had no intention to do so is horrible. It makes you question EVERYTHING.
seeing them with someone else, finally getting the truth by that but... it's a feeling that can't be explained. It goes deep. You feel everything at once. Brutal heartache.
when you opened up for them even though you were terrified to do so and you finally believed someone actually likes you this time just to hear they moved on like you meant nothing while you were suffering in silence alone. And hearing from THEM hurts even more. Not sure they said in front of me to finally give me some clarity or just to hurt me one last time tho...
I got a very weird and interesting problem.
How do I figure out if I am dating a person?
The person I suspect to be dating has kissed me several times, we always cuddle when hanging out and hold hands in public. We also text every day, but that might be because I try so hard to always text because I know that he doesn't mind texting with me so I am less afraid to be annoying to him.
I know that I like him and that he is bi so he might be into me too.
But I also know that he would rather have a girlfriend then a boyfriend.
I keep finding myself in those cycles in my relationship. We meet at each other's levels. Therefore we fit perfectly. We're like a plant and a pot. I am a plant and they are a clay pot. I feel comfortable and secure in that pot. But then I slowly start to feel uneasy. I feel stuck. I feel like the perfectly fitting pot doesn't have enough room for me to grow. It feels uncofortable now but I'm terrified of living without my pot- without it, I feel uncomplete. I feel lonely. I don't want to leave it. But a clay pot, once molded, cannot unmold. Not when it doesn't decide to break in order to recycle itself. And usually, they don't want to. Even if they know it'd be better for both of us. But the roots need room to grow. If they don't have it, they slowly start to wither away. The plant will die. But it's hard to tell the beloved pot that it doesn't fit my roots anymore and I cannot stay. So I stay silent, letting my roots grow dense and weak. I know it's not good for both of us, but I'm a coward. I'm scared of being potless forever. I'm always waiting for life to take pity on me and repot me. "Everything I've ever let go of has claw mark on it" It hurts and I'm ashamed.
Nett(persona) belongs to me