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Part 2 of how to manage BPD and take a rebirth! Once you start talk therapy (important) and consider your whole life story, you will see patterns emerging from childhood. Now, the core of BPD is "emotional instability". It is very hard to understand but I hope it makes sense. At first the pwBPD will be in denial. Reliving the past will feel so bad. Nothing makes any sense at all. But persevere. Recall the actions and behaviors of your parents and near ones, your classmates and everyone who was there in your life. I did talk therapy via writing in notebooks and electronic docs. See what fits for you. Venting is the first step.

Recall the BEHAVIOUR of your parents and other family in your childhood-> its effect on you WHAT DID IT MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE(embarrassed/humiliated/ashamed/insulted/ego hurt/worthless/dirty) -> how similar life circumstances are TRIGGERING those deep seated EMOTIONS now. This is identification and labeling the emotion. It is not easy. You will be confused so much. But look out for solutions. Write it all down in whatever way (offline or online) seems best to you.

Google "self concept". You have to work on your self esteem, self image, self confidence, who you are - who you are not, inner calling, your work, hobbies, everything. The first step is to read and understand what these things even mean. Then make notes out of that. Then write down what it means to YOU. Then find out your qualities that fit your self concept. It is not easy too.

Recovery from BPD does not mean loss of personality. Borderline Personality Disorder sounds like you have to change your personality. No. You have to understand your emotions, your behaviour, find coping mechanisms and give it time. It never completely goes away, you just learn to manage it.

Mindfulness matters. I stopped listening to songs and music. Rumination, obsession, compulsions are hallmark of BPD. I hate that crap. With mindfulness you will be aware of exactly what you are feeling minute to minute and its correlation with your childhood.

You will realize that when you were young, your emotions were invalidated, ignored, neglected, shamed, insulted. It varies from person to person. You have to self reflect and find out who said what and how did it make you feel. Not everyone with BPD has similar life situations, but they all have similar manifestations.

It is a messy process. You will run in circles for months. Then 3 steps forward 2 steps back. Relapse of dysfunction. It is messy.

I also had Maladaptive Daydreaming. It was all interconnected. Once you start treating your internal problems, your external problems will take care of themselves. I no longer daydream or have the urge to. I dont even remember doing it and I was the same person daydreaming 7-8hours DAILY since childhood. I daydreamed at least 6 hours DAILY since my childhood. That's how messed up it was. It was my safe heaven. It was a part of my life like eating sleeping breathing. Now it is gone. I am relieved. 🙂

A pwBPD goes through at least one romantic relationship or situation for sure before diagnosis. It will show all your dysfunctions: intensity, fear of abandonment, fear of rejection, oversharing everything, love sick, not being able to eat/sleep/do anything other than obsess about love, I also did maladaptive daydreaming, push pull cycles, all perfect/all bad view, sudden breakups, highest of highs and lowest of lows, validation seeking, attention seeking, wanting reassurance all the time, fear of engulfment and boredom, put my whole life on hold other than the relationship. That's all I can remember as of now.

My BPD ruined my education. I dreaded studies like anything. I was literally scared of sitting down and studying. I recalled that when i was young ever since i started school, my family was extremely strict demanding controlling insulting invalidating humiliating about studies. They called me names, shamed me for being average student and asked me 100s of questions. It was so bad. I dont remember anything in my childhood other than study study study and the trauma related to it. I hated studying. It was a torture. It was hell.

Next comes, psyche. BPD is inter psychic. You cannot have BPD without all these mental images in your mind's eye. I used to see pictures of people and their expressions in my head. I knew it was wrong but didn't know it was related to BPD. For eg, I was extremely envious of other girls. Whenever i was triggered, my mind would show me mental images of girls having fun, more fun, prettier than me, smarter than me, cooler than me. It would ruin my self esteem so bad.

I was hypersensitive to voice tones, words, body language, text messages. I used to replay the same conversation in my head 1000 times an hour and try to feel the emotion of the other person. I wanted to feel what other people feel about me so I would replay the conversations many times. It was so exhausting and frustrating. I did it compulsively without awareness. My mind was on auto pilot.

Next comes sex. I am virgin. But I have been addicted to porn, hypersexual, desperate and ashamed of my sexuality. I still have a high libido but I am not desperate. Working on my self esteem fixed it.

Next comes cognitive distortion. I used to do mind reading. Sometimes it worked really well. But I dont do it now because it takes too much energy and I dont feel the urge anymore.

lack of object permanence and forgetfulness: my memory is chef's kiss. I forget everything about my self concept everyday. No matter how much you tell me, as soon as I am alone I feel like nothing was real, like I was never loved, it was all a lie. I forget people and ny relationship with them. I would forget my career goals and could not stick to anything more than 6 hours. I would dissociate under stress and feel like I am seeing myself from behind my body. It fixed with sleeping, self concept and clear self image.

Next comes dissociation, hallucinations, nightmares, fear of ghosts. I have suffered a lot with these things especially during my childhood. It happens because of extreme anxiety. So either take medicine or meditate.

Next comes FEELINGS. My feelings were so complex that my head would feel like exploding. I would sleep 14 to 16 hours a day during my therapy period. My feelings were so intense that I would just sleep to shut them up. It was as if I had ants crawling under my skin. How did it fix? I dont know. Sleeping fixed it probably.

Contd in part 3.

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I live in Australia too and do not know where I would be without universal healthcare.

I have a number of mental health conditions, and cannot live at home due to a combination of my uni degree not being offered closer to home, and the simple fact I don’t get along with my parents very well when I have to share space with them.

Under the current system in Australia I get 6 subsidied sessions with a clinical psychologist, and a further 4 if deemed necessary by my GP. My appointments with my GP are also subsidised. Any appointments with a psychiatrist are also subsidised by our healthcare system.

Now while this isn’t perfect and I would love to have more sessions covered, and they would be especially useful for anyone with more serious issues than me, without this I would not have gotten my diagnosis when I started university, and I definitely would not have been able to afford treatment.

I am lucky in that I have been able to access my treatment through my university who offer bulk-billing meaning that I have had no out-of-pocket costs for my treatment outside the sessions with my psychologist after I ran out of subsidised allowance.

The ability to access this basic level of care, for a reasonable price, should be available to everyone, everywhere. The fact that there are people out there who are happy to pay taxes that go towards paying for pointless wars, yet refuse to support giving access to affordable healthcare to anyone who needs it is ridiculous.

So it's not exactly a free healthcare, but more like a discount to the real cost, and the discount is from people's taxes?

In Australia, if it’s a necessary procedure, it’s generally free. 

I had a bad reaction to some medication once and went into anaphylactic shock. I don’t remember too much about that day TBH, but there was an ambulance ride, a stay in the emergency ward, then a transfer to a general ward for observation–and god knows exactly what medications I got pumped into me over the course of those hours, but I’m sure it all added up. And I didn’t have to pay a cent for any of it. 

My mother’s cancer treatment–because some of it was through a private clinic–cost her $50 out of her own pocket every few weeks. 

For elective stuff, or cosmetic stuff, you will pay for it unless you also have private health insurance to cover it. 

And it’s not a perfect system–there are some things that aren’t covered, and there are still gaps that some people fall through–but generally speaking, hospital care is free. 

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its probably because to be fair they do get some people who just want drugs or have Munchhausen (illness faker) or are Hypochondriacs (has health paranoia/anxiety).

but that should absolutely not make it harder to get medicine/diagnosis for the average person.

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Catharsis

Yesterday I finally confirmed what I’d always known, that there was an illness brewing within me.  Instead of just knowing I’m sick, I have my enemy’s name.  Cushing’s Syndrome.

This syndrome is fairly rare, clocking in at about 200,000 cases per year in the US.  It is caused by an excess of cortisol resulting from dysfunction of the pituitary gland, usually due to a benign tumor.  It causes a range of symptoms, such as:

-Severe depression

-Unusual stretch marks

-Fatigue

-Weight gain, mostly around the midsection, upper back, shoulder blades and face

-Acne

-Cognitive dysfunction

While I’d really rather not have my pituitary fucking me up it’s nice to know I was right.  I wasn’t imagining these things.  And I implore everybody to never give up.  If you know something is wrong, keep at it, you know when you’re sick.  Fight for your health, don’t let something eat away at you.

I’ll be keeping a log of my progress to ease my mind a little.  Perhaps it will be interesting.   

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Reclaiming My Energy Levels: A Review of Magnesium Breakthrough

A Lifelong Struggle with Fatigue

I've battled fatigue for as long as I can remember. Waking up drained, dragging myself through the day, and hitting a wall by early evening was my norm. I tried everything: more sleep, a healthy diet, even cutting out caffeine entirely. While these efforts offered some improvement, the exhaustion remained a persistent shadow.

Discovering Magnesium Breakthrough

During a conversation with a friend about her newfound energy levels, the topic of magnesium deficiency came up. She mentioned a supplement called Magnesium Breakthrough and its positive impact on her fatigue. Intrigued, I decided to do some research.

Understanding the Benefits

Magnesium is a vital mineral involved in hundreds of bodily functions, including energy production, muscle function, and even sleep regulation [1]. A deficiency in magnesium can manifest as fatigue, muscle cramps, and trouble sleeping [2]. Reading testimonials from others who experienced similar benefits to my friend solidified my decision to give it a try.

First Impressions and Dosage

Magnesium Breakthrough comes in easy-to-swallow capsules and is recommended as a daily supplement. I started with the suggested dosage and noticed a subtle difference within a week. I wasn't suddenly bursting with energy, but a gentle shift occurred. I woke up feeling more refreshed, and the afternoon slump became less pronounced.

A Gradual Rise in Energ

Over the next few weeks, the improvement became more substantial. My workday felt more manageable, and I found myself having the energy for after-work activities I'd previously neglected. My workouts, which had dwindled due to fatigue, became more enjoyable. I even noticed an improvement in my sleep quality – falling asleep faster and waking up feeling more rested.

Beyond Fatigue: Additional Benefits

While increased energy was the most noticeable change, I believe Magnesium Breakthrough has offered other benefits. My muscle cramps, which used to plague me at night, have become a rare occurrence. Additionally, I feel calmer and less stressed throughout the day.

A Long-Term Solution

It's been several months since I started taking Magnesium Breakthrough, and the positive effects continue. It's become a staple in my daily routine. While everyone's experience may differ, for me, Magnesium Breakthrough has been a game-changer. It's helped me reclaim my energy levels and overall well-being.

Important Disclaimer

It's important to consult with your doctor before starting any new supplement, especially if you have any underlying health conditions or are taking medications.

Final Thoughts

If you're struggling with fatigue or suspect you might have a magnesium deficiency, I highly recommend giving Magnesium Breakthrough a try. It might just be the missing piece you've been searching for to reclaim your energy and feel your best.

Please note: While this review is based on my personal experience, it is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice.