You Ripped My Heart Out - Tumblr Posts

Monday 1932

You know, I can handle the thought of you not loving me anymore, when in really comes down to it. But it's the thought of you not needing me that tears me apart.

Wednesday 2155

I hurt myself today

Because she's with you right now

And it's the only way I can cope with it

Monday 2110

You play slow and I wonder if you are drinking tonight

If you have drank enough to kiss her the way you kissed me

If you have drank enough to tell me you love me one more time

Saturday 1523

I dreamed of you last night; interspersed with the nightmares, weaving in and out of different kinds of terror.

I dreamed of finding the messages I sent, all the things I've been holding back, all the things I think but never say, I dreamed of finding them sent in my sleep, oh beg your pardon for my slip of the finger but I can't take it back now.

I was secretly disappointed to realize it was only a dream.

I can hear your voice next to me, just to my right, soft and inquisitive "what are you feeling right now?"

Your regular check in the litmus test to my moods and stability.

I feel worthless lover, I feel empty and ugly and like a rejected heap of flesh.

I feel like everything that was good and light in me left with you and I'll never get it back.

I feel pains in my chest and a swelling in my fingertips and oh God I just want to lie with you and be worth something again.