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Tw: Ed
Tw: ed
I don't know if I'm getting sick or if it's the lack of food troubling my body.
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My sister and I are just scrolling through her instergram and I see someone I don't know and ask who is this?
And she answers with oh, I was in jail with him.
She is an activist btw, she didn't actually do anything.
I just woke up again, it's 2 pm now and I haven't done anything at all today.
I kinda wanna go.back to sleep again but I know I shouldn't, but I don't have any motivation to do anything at all.
Life is just exhausting.
We are on our challenge of don't text him again, wahoo!
Yeah, no, I feel like shit when I text him and bother him and I even mixed up two days and that was terrible I felt so bad.
But I also feel like shit when I am not checking in with him. I have no idea how he is doing?? He could have been kidnapped or be dying right now and I wouldn't know.
I talked to people form dbt (a type of group therapy) and they knew exactly what I was talking about which was really nice.
But I'm just gonna not text him because that seems less annoying?
I wish for something. Something like a hug and the feeling of being loved.
Tw: ed
The only good part about being sick is that noone is forcing me to eat.
I can just starve myself in peace without anyone saying anything.