I Miss Something That I Can't Even Describe Yet.

I miss something that I can't even describe yet.

Maybe the feeling of belonging somewhere, anywhere, I do not think I was ever really a part of something.

Everyone seems further away than even the stars.

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burned0utstar

4 months ago

I'm getting tired of dying for you.

I can't stay up every night letting your sadness consume the both of us.

I will burn before I stop loving you but loving you can't mean destroying myself because of you.

Not even for you. Not even with passion or devotion.

Just destruction. Pure bloodshed for the sake of seeing it drip out of our bodies.

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burned0utstar

4 months ago

Someone I love tells me a story,

It reminds me of you,

Suddenly I am calling you good when you say you are bad.

Suddenly I am still in love with you.

And when I come back,

I am happy like it is now,

I see your name and smile,

My scars itch,

But I am getting better.

I am starting to heal.

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burned0utstar

4 months ago

Oh my fucking lord?

I just got asked about my special interest???

Holy fucking shit??

I am in love.

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burned0utstar

4 months ago

Ur wonderful ha. Few ppl deserve the shit you’ve gone through, and u r not one of them :) it’s hard to find some1 to support u. I totally get that. Me 2, my friend:/. U don’t know me, but I’m here for ya. Something’s that’s comforting ig. Idk. new follower :) <3

im silly smtimes

Aww, thank you so much, it really means a lot to me, we got this, and you can always dm me if you wanna vent or just chat a little :)

I hope it gets better for you <3

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burned0utstar

4 months ago

On topic of that ask by normanon aka me, your boyfriend also really is a toxic person to others except you

How should you know? My ex boyfriend (you obviously don't keep up) was kind to me and taught me a lot, I appreciate meeting him and he isn't toxic, he is actually still pretty cool.

But yeah, whatever???

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