Fuck It. Spoiler Below For A A Star Is Born:

Fuck it. Spoiler below for a A Star is Born:

Tw - suicide and suicide baiting.

Streak Over

I was just thinking to myself the other day how it has been at least a month since I have cried properly. Yesterday I went to a movie and it triggered something fierce.

I wish I’d done what I normally do and read the plot ahead of time to be prepared.

I’m actually torn between sending a warning about it and spoiling the movie. .

When he kicked me out initially and I dragged my shamed, mortified, and heartbroken ass to my parents place, I spent days in bed with silent tears rolling down my face.

I don't remember going to work, but that doesn't mean it didn't happen. It's a blur.

But something broke up the monotony of misery. My dad knocked on the door and handed me a care package that had been dropped off. It had fuzzy socks, chocolate, and two movies.

I was basically inconsolable at this point and still very much under his spell. But this brought me a bit out of my fog. It was a thoughtful gesture that really meant the world to me.

I repeat, friendship is a vastly underrated relationship.

Friendship is a vastly underrated relationship.

When my phone rings, i get tense. If it's a number I don't recognize, I panic.

Another one of those things people think I should just be 'over.'

A year ago today was the day I started to want to feel better.

My phone is not working well. It's gone completely unuseable a few times today. I am annoyed and inconvenienced.

If I were with him, his inability to get ahold of me would render me panicked and concerned for my safety. He did not like when I did not answer my phone.

Puts things in... perspective.

He cut me off a year ago today.

Best thing he probably ever did for me.