Hi, I'm Nadia. I post my original poems and short stories. It would mean a lot to know that people care about what I have to say I also post a lot of art
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That night
That night you walked a few feet away from the others, knowing I would follow you
Knowing when I did we would be entirely alone
Just the two of us
I don't remember what we talked about
All I can remember is the feeling of your lips on mine
You kissed me that night
You kissed me so out of the blue
So out of nowhere
With such a hunger and need like you couldn't stop yourself from doing it
My eyes closed as our lips collided for the first time in months as if no time had passed
It all happened so fast I could feel my eyes widen in surprise when you pulled away
The shock that filled my body when you took the opportunity to kiss me
Not knowing how I'd react
And still doing it anyway
As if you would never get another chance
I could feel the involuntary smile too
The same one that appears everytime I replay that night
I replay it more than I'd ever admit
I can't get it out of my head and I probably blush every damn time
The night you kissed me
The memory repeats itself over and over
My mind went completely blank and I just looked at you
You told me I was blushing
I told you that it was too dark for you to tell if I was
I wonder if you knew I wanted to kiss you
I wonder if you knew I thought about doing it the entire time we were together that night
How badly I wanted to
I was too scared to do it
But you weren't
You let the love you had for me bubble over
And suddenly it didn't matter if it was wrong
Because how could it be wrong
When it felt so right
IM NOT SICK ENOUGH
IM NOT BAD ENOUGH
I NEED TO GET WORSE
I NEED TO BE MORE SICK
The scars
The blood
The sharpness of the blade dragging across your skin
The breath of release
The release of all the bad feelings
The pain
If you focus on the pain
You can't focus on the bad thoughts
You don't have to think about the loneliness
or the anger
or the sadness
The emptiness in your chest
You don't have to think about any of it right now
How bad you're getting
How bad you've already gotten
The feeling of pain washes out any other thought
Drowns it out
Before the familiar guilt floods in
The anger
The sadness
The loneliness
The emptiness
Now being replaced with that horrible feeling
Being trapped by long sleeves, bracelets, and, concealer
Please don't make me stop
It helps
I opened her letter
Or what I thought was a letter
I was surprised when all I saw were two words
"I'm sorry"
I look at her mother's letter
The paper says the same two words
I realize none of them say anything different
But if she was sorry
Why did she do it?
She's not sorry
I hate her for it
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