When Hurt

When hurt

I may break

Like a figurine

May scream

Like a banshee

In gritted teeth

Curse fiercely

Like there's no tomorrow

When it's too much

And I am shaking

All my resolves

Crumble within

I may shed

Niagara of tears

May plead the gods

To send me

A little thunder

To match

The pouring rain

It's given

For my heart,

It is fragile

May shatter a bit

Like a glass

Scattered

On the floor

But what it won't do

Is knock

On your door

Beg for affection

Yes, when hurt

I may roll

But you will never

See me crawl

While I force

Together pieces

That don't fit

If I am not wanted

I will leave

It's that simple

-Simple

(Soon enough, I will learn to love the sound of my footsteps as I walk away from everything that hurts...)

Katie, 19:00

Then one day, you decided to become a memory.

(When you become a memory)

Katie, 02: 32

It's ironic how I love you so much while you, you can't even recognize me from the sea of faces looking up to you. The crowd shouts your name; my voice is swallowed by the cacophony. You didn't hear my call. You passed me by without glancing at all. Yet I am glad. I would like you to know I am glad. Everyone admires you; regarded as a gift. That should hold me for a while. You're a Haley's comet; my Haley's comet.

And me? I am the shooting star who fell to make your dream come true.

While it's painful to fall from such a height to end up unrecognized by your heart, I am willing to do it a thousandfold to fulfill even your wildest desire. All in the name of the love you traded with the admiration of the crazed crowd.

-Fall a thousandfold,

(I'll just behold you from afar)

-Katie, 16:00

You have the right to remain silent

You have the right to remain-

Oh heart

The law isn't wrong

But you followed the song

Telling you

To spill it all out

All of it

Like water

And drowned him

In a stream

Of confessions

You could have just stored

Inside

Let them boil down

With the cold truth

Memories you don't remember

Forgetting

Now the flashbacks

Are coming too fast

A dizzying speed

Of moments in polaroid pictures

//

His face floats

On the mess

Of stark honesty

Breaking free

From your mind

Why did you say

You love him

Like you could hold on

To this promise

Forever

Why did you say

You care so much more

Than anyone will ever do

Why did you say

You are scared

To lose him

In the crowd

Scared he will

Let go of your hand

And be swallowed

By the fiasco

Why did you say

You will try

You will try to remain

Bounded by the things

That made you, you

Once upon a time

When the world

Was warmer

Than it feels now

Like Pleistocene is here

Playing on repeat

Making you cringe

From a touch

You used to like

So much

//

It's weird

How your life

Became so messy

Well honestly

You could have

Remained silent

Intact with your soul

But you flowed

With the raging current

And told him

At first instance

About the chaos

All those moments

No one

Would care to listen

//

You have the right to remain silent

Yet heart, you talked

//

You have the right to remain

Yet heart, you fled

//

You have the right

Yet heart, you waived it

//

You have (it)

Yet heart, you lost-

Everything

Now all you got

Is the mess

Of collected

Confessions

About how you used

To feel about him

These of course

Are just phantoms now

Frightening you

Even more

Making you hide

Behind the veil

Of repressed memory

An escape plan

Time devised

To free you

From the horrors

Of the past

-An honest mess,

(It is right to remain silent)

Katie, 16:30

All I ever want is to see your eyes light up again;

Even if it means breaking into million pieces.

-Katie, 12:30

“People are people and sometimes we change our minds.”

— Taylor Swift; Breathe