I Used To Say

I used to say

I

Singular

Selfish

In every way

I

Didn't mind

Walking on the pavement

Alone

At night

Ignoring

The cold wind

And the eyes

Darting behind me

They're strangers

Thus unimportant

I

Just walked

Straight

And sturdy

Like

I

Owned every beat

Of my heart

Then

I

Saw you

Oh, my eyes-

They lingered

On your silhouette

Taking shape

In the verge

Of the darkness

You

Materialized

And all the walls

I

Built around me

Crumbled

I

Am exposed

Vulnerable

To the cold

You

Held me

In your arms

Kissed me

Like you know

Where my scars are

At first

I

Was scared

But

You

Blew

My fears away

You said

We

Will traverse the oceans

Discover how deep

Secrets could get

Measure how far

The horizon could stretch

You said

We

So I smiled, undaunted

Trusted

You

Took your hand in mine

Offered my all

Selflessly

You're mine

This time is ours

You

Me

We

Forever

-Of love and pronouns,

Katie, 22:00

Despite everything life has done to me, I still believe in Santa Claus, in love,

In you.

-Katie, 15:30

I love you to the moon

And back

As you prance

My restless thoughts

Linger in my mind

A beautiful memory

Etched in my heart

Every bit of you

Oh relentless muse

Gracing the lines

Of my humble poetry

Your sweet smile

Voice that melts the ice

That hardened my soul

Everything that you are

The dreams you told me about

All unspoken wishes

Your love

Your flaws and all

Encompass the galaxy

I am beholding with pride

Baby you make

My dead heart

Wake to have

This one more chance

To walk with love again...

-Flaws and all (Walk with love again)

Katie, 01:00

In another universe

I hope we already met

That we spend time

Talking,

Laughing,

Watching the sunset

I wonder if in that universe

I write poems for you

And if I do

I hope you love them so

For in this universe,

I do write for you

A lot

But my words just wither

In the corner

Frozen in time

Concealed like secrets

Never meant to be unraveled

Destined to stay in the darkness

In this universe,

I am just a writer

Who beholds you with a sigh

Suppress a cry

As I immortalize

Your heart that has always belonged

To someone

In another universe....

Someone in another universe ,

Katie, 24:00

Fragments shrieking

Underneath her bed

Consuming sanity

Kindling time spent

Invincible soul

Turning cold tonight

In gloom sinking

Marching with shadows

Leaving the room

Enraged yet steady

Amidst falling debris

Varying degrees of

Incessant torment

Nothing could shake her

Gravitating towards

Nowhere she walks

On steep rocks

Wondering about the past

-Leaving tonight,

Katie, 24: 45

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@littlest-meerkat

I catch the first drop of rain on my palm and imagine how much you waited for it. You told me you wanna fall in love before the first rain of November. It's been raining for weeks now, my love. And every drop reminds me of the reasons why you had to wait for this season, to fall in love. And though I exhaust my wit trying to get the wisdom behind it, I don't understand. I can't understand. Why did you wait? And why did the rain come too late? Too late for you to feel it glide on you face. Too late for you to catch it on your palm. You know, sometimes I try to question Cupid. Why? Why you? Why me? Why in the universe did we have to wait? If he has a conscience, why did he allow us to wait this long? Now you're gone and the sky just won't stop raining. And I still don't get it. My world may be flooded soon and I will still be here trying to unravel the wisdom behind the course of waiting you chose to thread when you could have just fell in love with me. I wish I could have just ignored your "first rain fantasy" and fell in love with you while I had the chance.

-Waited for the first rain to fall in love

Katie, 24:30