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888. saturn doesn't yell. she whispers. saturn taught me that money is the easiest thing to acquire. spiritual wealth is much more potent. much more valuable. untainted. free. i've found that when the spiritual reserve is overflowing in energetic abundance, physical money is a natural byproduct of what was cultivated in SPIRIT. i don't desire money. i desire the spiritual wealth backing whatever enters my account. solid foundations. legacy. and it is. and it will continue to be.

Muses of contribution: Aquarius — Leo

Muses of condition

Muses of contact

Muses of carnage

Celebrities who share my natal placements pt 2

Pisces Mars

Mars in 3H

Leo north node

North node in 6H

Aquarius rising

Libra MC

Aquarius ♒️

January 20 - February 18

Me actually 🙈

BORED AIR SIGNS

Gemini, Libra, Aquarius: I’m so bored! Why is no one texting me?

*Has 31 unread messages*

Mixed with my natal Virgo rising, it's kinda accurate 😁 I also have Uranus in 1st sooo

Venus Persona Chart Ascendant Moodboard - Aquarius

Why ascendant in VPC? Your natal ascendant represents how others perceive you in general, which includes both positive and negative opinions. Your rising in VPC is about why others find you beautiful and what they appreciate about you. Therefore, all we get is positive comments. 

If you already use Astro.com for your natal, you can find your Venus persona chart selecting “persona chart” from the chart type section. 

Aquarius Rising

Also, for

Uranus in the 1st

Capricorn rising, but most degrees of Aquarius in the 1st

Why may people think, you’re so cool? What’s that about you that fascinates them? What kind of compliments may you receive from others?

·        Unique. Unique personality

·        Smart

·        “You are a really interesting person. I like that!”

·        Disinterest in what’s important for many or what’s popular, trendy. In this case, you may hear words like “wise, intelligent, unique, different or beyond everyone else”. Your maturity is what’s emphasized.

·        Having your own philosophy in life

·        How much you care for world’s problems

·        Being different than many.  “Wow! You aren’t like any others.”

·        A stereotype wrecker

·        Independent

·        You may appear detached and maybe sarcastic, but when they understand you’re such a considerate and kind person

·        A genius

Compliments on your appearance: (You don’t have to take this part too seriously. I’m trying to generalize as much as I can)

·        Applies to both physical and personality traits (Based on my personal experience. My VPC ascendant is Aquarius. However, it doesn’t have to be the same for everyone.) A resemblance to fantasy characters. You may hear “angel, heavenly creature, other-worldly, alien, from another planet and so on. You may receive those for your personality as well. But like I said, those are positive.

·        Unique facial features. Not commonly seen in others. You may even receive modelling offer for that.

·        Forehead regardless of shape

·        Witty eye stare

"She's going to sit alone. Right at that same table where she built it all. Her happiness, her courage, her perseverance, but most importantly, where she met all of her friends. Now it's all crumbling down to her fingertips. She closes her eyes and tries to dream herself away into a reality where all of that still exsists, but she can't. It's all blank without the real thing... Without the real them. Complete nothingness. She can't even remember their voices. Everything is fading away from her. And everytime, she blames herself for something that she couldn't control. They've all left now; her friends. The girl lifts her head and stares at them. They're all happy. They all prance around, discussing random topics she used to talk about with them all of the time. She even sees her crush holding hands with her best friend. They don't even notice her. All of them go sit at their new table, completely forgetting about what once was. She weakly smiled as tears fell down her cheeks. Her heart ached for them. For someone. But she had no one. She put her head back down and waited for an escape. She pulled her sketchbook and poetry journal closer to her. They may only be objects, but they are all she has now. She pours her heart out crying. She couldn't hold it in any longer. Her fears were reality, and she somehow had to stay strong in this. But how could she stay strong when she wasn't going to be remembered by any of them? Was it all pointless to make memories in the first place? She just wanted to disappear. She then heard whispers all around her. It sounded like her friends, but that couldn't be. She lifted her head up and rubbed her eyes. A boy with a pretend smile and a sympathetic gaze pulled me into a hug.

"You're going to be okay, we're all going to be okay. I promise."

She cried into his chest until they all gathered around her and tackled her into a group hug.

Her friends.

They were here.

"I'm sorry for the mess I've created," She shyly whispered, "haven't you forgotten me, yet? I would've."

"How could we forget about you?" A raven haired boy asked, "We've been right here the whole time."

- Dreaming of Wolves//Vent

(I just... Sobbed while writing this.)

"It's a sad truth that I will write about everyone I love, but none of them will even try and put me into a sentence."

- Dreaming of Wolves

What To Do If You Catch Me Venting In A Conversation:

- liSTEN.

- Try to calm me down.

- DO NOT say that my emotions/things I am talking about are invalid.

- Put yourself in my shoes and try to see it from my perspective.

- Don't. Leave.

- Try and understand.

* I'll probably tell you sorry the next day or so if I find I'm overreacting. I'll probs just say I'm sorry in general.

"A part of me wonders if you'll even show up to my funeral. Will we still be friends before we die?"

- Dreaming of Wolves//Dark 3AM Thoughts

(Don't worry, I'm okay I swear, I'm just expressing myself.)

"How am I supposed to say I miss you and I love you when you ruined my life? How am I supposed to morn you when you were my monster, controlling me like a puppet that I wasn't. I'm free, and yet here I am, still confused. Are you family or a foe? Am I supposed to miss you or forget you? Am I even supposed to have these thoughts?"

- Dreaming of Wolves//Dark 3AM Thoughts

Personality Quirks/Quirks in General I Have:

-Flinch at physical contact

-Can't navigate for the life of me, but once I have a path down, I will never not go that path

-Can't solve most school locks

-Always paranoid that someone is going to hurt me. Mostly stab or shoot me.

-Paranoid of people behind me, that's why I never turn my back on people. Literally.

-Can't eat in front of people because I'm messy, and another reason.

-Literally the most mess of a person you will ever meet.

-I use literally too much.

-I cry over everything. I know I'm over emotional.

-But some reason, can't show weakness in front of strangers/my parents.

-I have a very, very good long term and short term memory.

-I always have a weird way of thinking and cannot follow the way teachers teach me.

-Due to my number phobia, both clocks and math are hard for me to deal with.

-Seriously. I have no idea what goes on during math. I just pretend to know what I'm doing.

-And also, I have a schedule for sleeping due to the phobia of numbers.

-I need every friend of mine to give me a gift, preferably a plushie, once we get close because I need something that reminds me of them + bares their smell in case I lose that person.

-I am too much of a perfectionist and can't stand when things are out of order.

-If the house is messy/my room, I can't work, sleep, and I become restless.

-I have a MASSIVE fear of losing my friends/my friends being killed my enemies.

-That's why I'm overprotective of them.

-I wear my heart on my sleeve too much, and always get broken in the end.

-I either trust completely or not at all, there's no in between.

-I have two personalities, the way I see me, and the way my friends see me. Both are very accurate to who I am.

-I constantly struggle with balance in my life.

-If you are my enemy, yoU'RE GOING DOWN. I will not let you hurt my friends. Ever. Fight me.

-I have an overwhelming fear of school shootings/mass shootings and always prepare myself for one.

-I watch scary documentaries and then go to sleep and have nightmares.

-I count nightmares as just dreams.

-I remember all of my dreams. I frequently lucid dream, but just see what happens instead of controlling myself.

-I seem chill, but I'm super uptight.

-I am drawn to people that have the "bad boy" look.

-I read too many X Readers because I need to feel loved.

-I love people watching.

-When I have a crush, I'll stalk them online.

-Animals always consider me their mate for some reason??

A List of Things That Signal I'm Sad or Feeling Something Very Deeply (But I Won't Ever Tell You-):

- I start being very short with you. Instead of thoughtful sentences, you only get (Oh. Oh cool. Ha. Etc.)

- I start having a very pessimistic drop in my tone

- I start changing the convo

- I start changing the topic to you rather than me

- I take longer to reply

- I use hhhhh a lot

**In irl**

- I avoid your eyes

- My posture drops

- I start fidgeting

- I stay silent

- I rest my head and just look like someone who got stabbed

Fun Facts About Me (Part One):

- I am most certainly a heartbreaker, but I always feel bad about it

- I wear my heart on my sleeve

- Sometimes if you listen closely, I'm singing

- Catch me walking anywhere and I'm also singing

- I also randomly dance

- I drink a lot of water. A lot.

- I have a scar on my left hand from clawing myself with my own fingernail

- My fingernails are pointed upwards on purpose

- I have an iconic fashion style

- And by that I mean I only wear black, purple, and blue

- I have tiny arms

- I have tiny hands

- I'm really smol

- Smoller than most. It looks kinda unhealthy

- I have an awkward hunch

- My eyes are very intimidating

Fun Facts About Me (Part Two):

- I fall for the shy and quiet nerds >:D watch out

- I also fall for the funny extroverts

- My favorite Pokémon is Ninetales

- I once ate a dandelion

- I once jumped down a whole flight of stairs

- Scaring me is incredibly easy if I trust you

- If I don't, I already expect it so beWARE

- Animals are drawn to me for some reason?

- I'm bad at convos

- I say 'y'all' when referencing people at my school

- I will say "I hate you" to your face if I mean it

- I have no regrets

- My family is actually super poor

- My house is always a mess except my room

- I am the only introvert surronded by extroverts in my family.

"You lead me on. Through every word, every single text, you romanticized the idea of our friendship. You slowly gained my trust even after years of me not trusting people. I even said I'd take a bullet for you. You told me you'd stay, unlike the others. You told me you'd stay. You told me you'd stay. And I believed you.

And then you left.

Breaking every word that you ever said to me."

- Dreaming of Wolves // Spilled

Things I Needed To Hear But Never Did:

- You are enough. No matter what, you are enough.

- It's okay to not be okay.

- Never stay in toxic relationships. Run away as far as you can from them.

- People break your heart. And it's okay. And it's okay to feel like you will never live again. You'll survive. I promise.

- You deserve the love you give others too.

- You deserve to be protected.

- It's okay to be vulnerable.

- Opening up to others is beneficial. Not every person will be as untrustful as the first. You can trust some.

- You deserve love. You deserve affection. You deserve a personal connection.

- Someone misses you somewhere.

- You don't have to be perfect. Perfection isn't the key to everything.

- Apologies may fix it in words, but actions are what really matter.

- Love yourself before you try and love anyone else.

- They're not staring at you. They don't hate you. Breathe. It's okay. You're okay. Everything is okay. No need to panic.