I Love Myself - Tumblr Posts

saw a post on here and thought "omg this is one the best posts i have ever seen" and realised i made it

when i was a teenager it felt very revolutionary to be cruel to myself. like some kind of slow passive protest against how much everything hurt. i starved myself of sleep and food and tenderness because it felt right. it felt sharp and angry and radical and i wanted to be those things. adulthood is the realisation that the world is already working to cut into you well before you learn how to do it yourself. caring for yourself and others is the real protest

Happy birthday to me! Here’s an old picture of me and my sisters plushies having a mini tea party! :3

(theres chocolate milk in the tea cups and sugar in the thing and milk in the creamer!)

I was gonna repost this agreeing but then I remembered that Taylor swift has me blocked on tumblr because I asked her why her vocal range hasn’t improved in 15 years and I realised I’m part of the problem 🤔

i have a lot of unpopular opinions about certain artists but you'll never catch me talking about it on the internet

I need to workout again and color my hair as a reward or something. It’s time to reinvent myself. 🗣️💗

I’m so happy I’m going home after such a long and busy week, to finally WRITE MY FEELINGS AND POST NEW IDEAS.

i ran round the neighbourhood a couple nights ago. running from you, from myself, from the future. i kept running and running till my feet were bleeding and littered in blisters. by the time i slowed to breathe i was surrounded by the quiet summer night. the humid air, ripe and succulent, filled with laughter, music and the wafting dreaminess of honeysuckle. and by the end of it all, i wasn't running at all. the summer crept into my chest till it filled me with a quiet contentment with life.

me in SBG lmaoao 😹🫶

And just like that I didn't care.

I chose to heal on MY terms.

I straightened my shoulders, I lifted my head, and I wiped my tears.

Be angry. Be hateful. Try intimation. Malice. Manipulation. Control.

I chose healing. I chose peace. I chose self love. I chose happiness.

No guys you don’t understand I LOVE myself now.

I’m not insecure, I can talk to people without the need to please them, I can be outgoing and confident and I think of myself as amazing and beautiful and just as worthy as anyone else and no one is on a pedestal.. I’m forever grateful.🫶🏼

; idk why but after reading some posts I js realized why it took me years and years of questioning, years of discomfort, years of self hate and years of forcing myself into labels to realize I'm transmasc & like guys. Like, like it took me years and it was because

; ( long under the cut + rant like but w a good ending lol /gen )

; because I had been taught men and liking men was bad, was evil, was mysoginistic, was siding w the enemy

pt: ; because I had been taught men and liking men was bad, was evil, was mysoginistic, was siding w the enemy

; and I fully believed this, it was said by my mother and my friends and by social media and influencers and everyone I used to look up too, so why wouldn't it be true ?? So realizing I was transmasc was 100% harder because ppl were clinging on too the whole " if you're born a man or transition into a man you're horrible and evil and disgusting etc etc and there's no getting out of it I hate you " feminism and I wanted so bad to be in a community and to have ppl like me ( and I didn't know of any other safe places ) that I js went with it. I claimed to be a trans ally but I depised trans men & trans mascs, I hated cis men especially ! I hated everyone who was masculine or liked masculine people. I was like legit a terrible person and a huge exclusionist and I didn't even notice. Because I genuinely thought I was in the right, because I'd been raised like that. Because I'd been continuously told that. So I wasn't a " bad person " I was a good person, I was correct and I was spreading good information

; and yk I was devastated when I realized I was transmasc, it was horrifying to think because " oh shit oh no I must be broken, be evil !! and what if I js get worse !?? What if I end up like other men oh no ! " and that is terrifying to think that's how I used to think, like, that was normal for me. That was right.

; but funnily enough after being like okay I'm transmasc now what !?? I went to some transmasc / accepting queer centered blogs & sites & discords and I swear they were so welcoming it flipped everything I knew on it's head. I'd been told they were all gross and mysoginistic and rapists and js terrible people but the nicest person there who helped me sm was a cis gay man. He was kind and supportive and helped me through what I was feeling .. !! He didn't even get offended by my original thought process because his brother had been the same, his friends had been the same, most trans men / mascs in those places had been the same. They'd all thought something was wrong w them, that they were horrid people and they were betraying women etc etc.

; and I'm forever grateful I got out of that way of thinking, I've never been happier being myself. Letting others be themselves. And I don't feel so broken anymore, I don't buy into the " siding w the enemy !! " bullshit because that's what it is, bullshit. Plus I know I don't have to look a certain way to be transmasc so it's helped my dysphoria to an extent yk .. But it still really pisses me off that people hate men for purely being men, that's stupid and literally genuinely not what feminism is, its not what inclusivity is, it's just shitty and stupid. You aren't just born a horrible person and it certainly isn't based off something like gender or sex. And you sure as fuck don't get to call yourself inclusive for it.

; anyways I love you trans men & transmascs and all masculine / man aligned lovelies in all your ways and yeah. You're not evil or disgusting or betraying anyone just because you are a man / masc person <3 ( this also goes for anyone expressing themselves masculinely / who look masculine <333 )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

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. ☆ of you, the midnight sky

* . would soon be empty."

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✎༄ нєωωσ тнєяє ƒєℓℓσω loves !˳⸙;;

₊˚.༄ ೃנυѕт ραѕѕιηg ву тσ ѕαу тнαт ι ℓυν уσu all ѕσ мυ¢н!♡ 🥳🥳🥳🥳

~🌺 🎂 Hello my loves, I just wanted to say that today is MY BIRTHDAY!!! APRIL 23 IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND ALL APRIL 23TH BIRTHDAYS OF THE WORLD!!! We must pull through with the COVID-19 Virus and stay strong with each other!!!🎂🌺 ~

There are five messages that I need to tell myself since today is my special day!

1. Happy birthday to a self-willed, strong, and beautiful soul. Yes, you got it right! I am turning a year older today. HBD to me!

2. It is with great pleasure that I am here to celebrate another year of my life. I am grateful for surviving all the challenges and struggles with COVID-19 throughout the last 365 days and turning a year older.

3. Growing up, everyone around me spent all their time trying to be great. I am one of the lucky ones who has always been great. Happiest birthday to me!

4. As I turn a year older today, I am most thankful for the people around me and the gift of being alive. Happy Birthday to me and I Thank God For Waking Me Up For Another Day!~

5. I am not holding back any joy today. I will love every minute of today and laugh as much as possible because it is my day. Heartfelt Birthday to me.

Numbers 6:24-26 (NIV)

“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace." “The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace."

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ღ♪░H░A░P░P░Y░ B░I░R░T░H░D░A░Y░♪ღ

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Here are some wonderful gifts that people had made for me!~

All these art/ drawings goes and is credited to the wonderful, amazing and lovely friends who had made these beautiful art birthday gifts for me! LOVE YOU ALL!~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

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°:. *₊ ° . ☆ 　 °:. *₊ ° . ° .•

.　 . • ☆ . ° .• "if stars would fall

. everytime i would think

. ☆ of you, the midnight sky

* . would soon be empty."

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✎༄ нєωωσ тнєяє ƒєℓℓσω loves !˳⸙;;

₊˚.༄ ೃנυѕт ραѕѕιηg ву тσ ѕαу тнαт ι ℓυν уσu all ѕσ мυ¢н!♡ 🥳🥳🥳🥳

~🌺 🎂 Hello my loves, I just wanted to say that today is MY BIRTHDAY!!! APRIL 23 IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND ALL APRIL 23TH BIRTHDAYS OF THE WORLD!!! We must pull through with the COVID-19 Virus and stay strong with each other!!!🎂🌺 ~

There are five messages that I need to tell myself since today is my special day!

1. Happy birthday to a self-willed, strong, and beautiful soul. Yes, you got it right! I am turning a year older today. HBD to me!

2. It is with great pleasure that I am here to celebrate another year of my life. I am grateful for surviving all the challenges and struggles with COVID-19 throughout the last 365 days and turning a year older.

3. Growing up, everyone around me spent all their time trying to be great. I am one of the lucky ones who has always been great. Happiest birthday to me!

4. As I turn a year older today, I am most thankful for the people around me and the gift of being alive. Happy Birthday to me and I Thank God For Waking Me Up For Another Day!~

5. I am not holding back any joy today. I will love every minute of today and laugh as much as possible because it is my day. Heartfelt Birthday to me.

Numbers 6:24-26 (NIV)

“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace." “The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace."

ღ♪*•.¸¸.•*¨¨*•.¸.•*¨¨*•.¸¸.•*•♪ღ♪

ღ♪░H░A░P░P░Y░ B░I░R░T░H░D░A░Y░♪ღ

•♪ღ♪*•.¸¸.•*¨¨*••*¨¨*•.¸¸.•*•♪ღ♪

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i wish i could be a full time playlist maker

go play my life chapterly playlist !

Ya I do feel like mother

Before 💗

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A little about me!

Well Hi guys, it’s nice to meet all of you who just come on my blog to either follow me, like, comment, or just repost my posts. I really appreciate and I love you all!!!!

You can call me H or any name that you think is appropriate and sweet!! I’m black, a girl (she/her) I’m 19, turning 20 soon this summer!!

I love the color pink, Victoria’s Secret, y2k, bling, coquette aesthetic, walks, art, I even create paintings and clay things so if you want anything just dm me!, I love movies (if you ask I’ll talk your head off lol) Michael Jackson, Janet, Beyoncé, Britney, Taylor, Lana, (practically everything if you get to know me)and anything girly!

If you like Beyoncé, 00’s throwbacks, pink, coquette, Lana del Rey then come check out my page!!! I hope you guys love it!

I also make art. I paint, draw, and make dolls out of clay. Mini horror ones, or just things out of clay in general. If you guys ever want one just contact me and I’ll give you my Etsy link!!!!

A little fyi. Please no racism, misogyny, being an incel, fat shaming, homophobia on my page. If so you’ll be blocked!!

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I love myself too much to be with you. I'm not sorry. It's not me, it's you.

Monday 🫶🏾

truly ❤️‍🩹