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Long post incoming…
Long story short I went to Disney and was denied accommodations which made my experience and my friends experience (who are also like me autistic or have a lot of sensory issues) a lot more difficult and quite frankly a bit miserable. I was given no explanation or anything as for why we were denied.
Anyway I’m annoyed so yeah. Feel free to share any opinions or ideas or experiences yall might have I want to read them.
Below the cut is a long explanation
Ok so I went to Disney world last week and I was denied the DAS pass and I really do not understand why. I am autistic and have a lot of sensory issues which make waiting in long lines physically extremely difficult. This honestly is a bit ironic because my friends and I had to wait 2 hours in a line to even talk to someone about the DAS pass. Thankfully I had gotten a wheel chair to help with my other disabilities and could exit the line when I needed to. When I finally got up to the cast member I was asked so many invasive and honestly condescending questions about how I’m impacted by my “issues” and what problems could arise for me in line only to be denied with no explanation other than “the wheelchair is enough” which it was not. It really felt like being told “you’re not disabled enough”. I just want to know why. Was it my presentation? Was it my eye contact (that I make compulsively but the way)? Was it that I could advocate for myself? Was it really the fucking wheelchair? I just don’t understand. When I was done I was so overwhelmed and on the verge of tears only to be told no.
At California adventure all of the rides are “wheelchair accessible” and some rides in regular Disney are too (even though some of those ramps are steep as fuck), so I could wait in line for those in the chair but because of my sensory issues I couldn’t so honestly I feel like I missed out on a lot.
Thankfully we were able to get return times at some rides in Disney (but not California adventure) because I was using a wheelchair. But that was a whole other issue. You’d have to go through the exit and some of the hallways were so fucking narrow that two chairs couldn’t fucking pass each other. And ramps were so god damn steep. Like yeah the ground was pretty flat and not steep outside the rides big fuck guys trying to get to so many of the rides was impossible without a friend to like run push me up a hill. Space mountain, a ride I got a return time for, was like this. My friends tried to get the return time while I waited at the bottom but the cast member said I had to come up to get it even though I was somewhere they could definitely see me and from where I could wave/whatever to prove I was with them. But no I had to get up the inaccessible hill instead.
I still had a good time and am so grateful to my friends, one of whom basically gave me a tour of all the architecture and history of the park and Disney which was super cool. I also really enjoyed the rides themselves. And every cast member I interacted with was nice about everything (accessibility services person was nice but it felt condescending).
The one big thing I did like about the park though was the shape and size of the seats on the rides. I could actually fit on them mostly comfortably. Which for me is rare. I’m a plus size person (especially in the thighs and stomach) so I typically have a hard time fitting on rides other places so that was a nice change.
I think imma stick to six flags and universal studios in the future since I can actually be accommodated there. Sure six flags is not the best in terms for mobility issue accessibility since it is rather steep in many parts but I personally can cope with that better and they have elevators.
Born to be gentle and open, forced to be perceived as violent, mean and angry.
“Why are you so angry?” I wish I knew, dad but for now why don’t you just stfu
“I’m a thought daughter” you make fun of people who are quiet, think only of yourself, make drama, listens to no ones perspective but your own, you’re shallow and hate on those who don’t wear the same style as you!
You could never think about deep stuff, imagine how it is to be other people’s shoes, you have no empathy or understanding of how other might feel and even if you do then it’s “not my problem”
You say you understand how complex people feel or that it’s okay and you’ll accept them but once they do something you don’t like or act the way they warned they would act,— then you leave them because they don’t fit the idea of the type of “complex” you were talking about and they’re “too complex” and not worth the time. You’re not willing to look beyond. You make fun of anyone who’s not an exact copy of you!
{ this is inspired by the post where I commented the same things and my comment got 1,490 likes and ppl responded “oh girl you ate with this, ily pls don’t die” “this actually made me sob” }
“I was filled with poison but blessed with beauty and rage”
not a blessing but a curse! I’m filled with poison but it’s the rage that has poisoned me.
is this literally me? Yes it is (っ- ‸ - ς)
Her 🐇🕯️⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡🎀
and then there me,
{“I’m not a violent dog, I don’t know why I bite” me if I was a quote.}
I’m absolutely overstimulated…I want to pull my eyes out and throw them and run into the woods.
Ughgfhfh ,, I just got really over stimulated because I lost my AirPods and couldn’t find them anywhere ,, so when I shut down I space out and get very sleepy ,, luckily I was texting my bestie when this was happening and we called and I slept and unwinded with her ,, I appreciate her so much love you bestie 💞💞
Never doubt I don’t love ya girly ,, your my bestfriend
guys my headphones just self destructed help
T-T
im having a flare up of back pain at school and im afraid to stand up because i know that as soon as my backpack touches my back that my vision will go black again, and a bolt of lightning will shoot up my spine again, and ill feel like im falling when im not again, and i already have a headache from the fluorescents again
and i cant go to the nurse again, because shell send me home again, and i cant get behind again, not with a history test tomorrow and a math cumulative thurday and a science quiz also on thursday
and im so fucking tired and i wish i hadnt gotten up this morning and i just want to go home and watch a movie with a heating pad on or just fall asleep forever
My family and I just went to the grocery store and gods am I wiped out. The moment I entered, I was overstimulated.
I couldn't think straight to save my life. I had to go into an autopilot mode where I just went to the far side and started going down each aisle. Both to decompress and to get my bearings and figure out where to go for what we needed.
I hate how my brain basically stops when I'm in stores. Anytime someone asks me literally anything, the answer is always idk. Idk. Idk! Even if I know it. It's Idk! Because even if i know that i know it, it's in a brain box that i can't access in that moment.
Ugh. But. We have food now. So yay. Ugh. But yay.
List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals, followers and all the wonderful people on here!!! :]
Awww! Sorry if I don’t do it right, I kinda slow 😭 but stuff I like is
1: hyper fixation on my fav character or ship
2: drawing
3: listening to music with my headphones or just wearing my headphones
4: seeing new art or fanfiction of my favorite ship
5: watching my favorite shows/movies or YouTube videos on repeat
I hope this answered it! Sorry I overthink sometimes :)
