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This is a proshipper blog. I use shipping (and sometimes headcanons) as a way of coping with my trauma. This may result in me posting some problematic, uncomfortable, or undesirable content. I WILL put TW's on my posts, but I wanted to make it clear that my content may be triggering or uncomfortable for some people.
Gaslighting Myself
I'm always telling myself I'm fine, everything is fine, I'm doing okay. But really? I'm not. I'm almost always extremely uncomfortable. This shit hurts. And it's fine that it hurts. It's allowed to. I don't need to pretend that I'm fine all the time. How are people supposed to understand the true me with all of this pretending?
Welp, turns out, I do a better job when I sketch the mermaid first. I'm sort of loving the colors and scales.
The problem of the uncomfortable!
The problem of the uncomfortable, is not the goal, it is the journey. Even in project management, there is a lot of energy put towards identifying risks and mitigating them. Another metaphor for this same journey is a Dungeons and Dragons quest.
The Man Kind Project looks at the uncomfortable through many processes, but one identified in the article is "Stretches". Stretches, or SMART Goals, are the steps in the project plan to walking the journey and achieve the goal.
Specific Measurable Attainable Realistic Time Bound
While these steps, ask you to look at the best case scenario outcome, we often forget to examine the worst case scenario outcomes, that most project managers look at on a daily basis.
Dependencies Risks Issues Assumptions Unknowns
For many people, the only worst case scenario they consider is, "Being hit by a train!" They never consider that they might be hit by a body part of someone else's worst case scenario. Or even worse, someone's best case scenario being to push someone into their worst case scenario. (- Sorry, it's a little gruesome for role playing effect! -)
"No strategy survives contact with the enemy.", Helmuth von Moltke the Elder. It is only in recognizing patterns that we find the path of least resistance to the goal. Many Jujitsu students study how to navigate their partners counters to eventually submit them. Chess students also study chess patterns to build strategies.
Like Jujitsu students, members of the Man Kind Project, study processes that help men explore their worst case scenarios. Processes for looking at risks. Holding men accountable to agreements. Ways to cleanly express upset and wants, while acknowledging why those things are important. Seeing judgement and beliefs for what they are .. walls. Understanding that sometimes we have to give up something to get something. and more ...
A process I use and can share from Directed Dreaming, is this: What is the issue? What is causing the issue? What are solutions for this issue? How do I feel about this issue? What do I do when this issue comes up? Can I live with this issue? What am I getting now with things unchanged? What would I get if things changed? What would I have to give up if things changed? What do I want?
The Journey. Not the goal is where the uncomfortable lies. Crossing the mountain through mud and snow. Over treacherous bridges and glide lines. Climbing sheer faces with 1000 foot drops, or being chased by a bear. These are all possibilities on a journey through a mountain pass. Until you meet a troll under a bridge. Or come a cross a home that smells of candied cakes. Or maybe a something else from the Grimm Fairy Tales.
Face your fears and you will conquer the world.
Oooo. It's going to be a bad one tonight.
Amazing
Tw - sexual assault
I had a fling with a boy who lived two doors over when i was in highschool. We met up for sex once and a while. I usually snuck in his bedroom window.
Once when we were 16, he tried to fist me despite me being adament and vocal that this was not something I wanted or was enjoying. He failed and I squirmed away.
He just moved back in with his parents too. Meaning we, once again, live two doors away from one another.
Amazing.
Humiliation in parts - Part Three
TW - named body parts, reference to sexual act. Too much personal information. Not enough tagging. Or something.
On top of my smell, he got on my case about how hairless my vulva was. If he noticed there was a hair left he would draw attention to it and try to imply that I did not know what I was doing.
He hated razor bumps or ingrown hairs. He’d point them out. He would be grossed out. He would be turned off. He would stop whatever it was that we were doing so I could “go fix it.”
He’d regularly ‘inspect’ me before he would proceed with any sort of sex act . I don’t mean looking at me hungrily, lovingly or longingly, I mean basically giving me a pelvic exam. Sometimes I couldn’t even find whatever it was that he was complaining about; I think he was just trying to make me uncomfortable.
If there was any grooming out of place I’d never hear the end of it.
Depression is hitting pretty hard. The last few job prospects were not what i thought they were.
My last paycheck will be November 15 and i have nothing to replace it.
My woman has already insisted she buy me snow tires, because I advised that I won't have the money to buy them at this time. This makes me ashamed. Especially since she has been stretched thin lately herself.
And a quick flashback to a conversation with my Father yesterday who helpfully reminded me that i "shouldn't be depending on anybody." Thanks, Pops, for the pep talk.
And i still have to go to this place for another 8 shifts. Once again, I'd like to ask why I have to be in this discouraging position while my shithead, incompetent, mysogenist boss suffers with none of it.
"Life Decisions"
I wish anxiety, pessimism, and guilt did not exist so it can be easier to do so.
Yesterday I was talking with a friend and then she just started to flittirng me, and I was just like, girl, what Are you talking about?
I want her just like a friend and now it have been uncomfortable, help wawawa
Let it be.
“…Just let me fall, please. I’m already in pain, my tears are tired of the hard work everyday. So, let me bleed instead and please do not act like you care. Please, just one more time. Push me, I need to feel alive. Not screaming or crying not asking for mercy. Let it feel like the fist time."
hello guys i would like to make a psa of sorts!!!!
so theres this guy that i have been seeing around... it seems like they have gotten a decent amount of traction, but the more i look into their stuff the more i am put off in a way. Which has happened a lot when looking more into peoples accounts
I have seen that they have posted some... very suggestive and straight up cp works that included mob in it... but basically they are a creepy reimob shipper.
But basically I found that they hated serizawa which is a red flag in its self but the reason why they hate serizawa and serirei is because serizawa adds nothing to the story except for him having to "touch grass" and that his fans are annoying or smth????? they also said they head-cannoned serizawa as a "certified predator" to excuse the fact they were sexualizing mob??????
I really dont care if you age up mob your still sexualizing and shipping a character that is a middle schooler for the majority of the series.... And also the whole "fiction doesn't equal reality" is so weird and stupid like your still sexualizing a minor. Just because its fiction doesn't mean it can't effect someones thoughts or perceptions on things. fictional cp is still illegal!!!
some freaky stuff they said/drawn!!!!!
Im just really sick of seeing so many reimob stuff and a lot of it is normalized like.... thats really not something we should be encouraging or something that was even implied!! its just really creepy and your projecting your weird fantasies!!!
But i would really like to say that you need to be much more careful with the things you're engaging in. Please look more into the creators before reposting/rebloging their stuff!!!!
please dont engage in this persons content
To the one 20 something year old, particularly creep guy in my class,
Stop purposefully walking behind me to look over my shoulder to see what's on my phone. Stop looking at me like I'm a piece of meat. Stop talking to me if you're just gonna be an asshole. Stop touching my hair like you know me.
Sincerely, me and everyone who's had to deal with creepy people
I used to use Ibis paint so much, what happened to me.
when you finally get a partner but then they start being cheesy and you dunno how to say your uncomfortable:
I feel like my aesthetic is so cute in a girly shock goth A Clockwork Orange kinda way
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This six-sentence-story was written for girlontheedge’s weekly challenge, the word of choice was TREATMENT. I have to admit, I struggled a bit with this one. My first thought of course was medical treatment and I just wasn’t in the mood to go there this week, so instead I chose a spa treatment, and for once I didn’t want my story to be an everything that can go wrong does, so I went another…
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Quote about religion and evil from Steven Weinberg.
The Cry of Silence
Amidst the crowd's relentless symphony,
Our silence reigns, a disturbing harmony.
Words aren’t shared, yet stories unfold,
Your hidden anguish, a tale untold.
I inquire softly, "Are you alright?"
You nod, yet unrest clouds your sight,
Unease creeps in, a shadow in the light.
Unspoken whispers flood the air,
Anxiety coils, a lingering snare,
Dread hangs heavy, a burden we share.
Seeking comfort in words unsaid,
But awkward silence fills instead,
Doubts linger, a tangled thread.
Our eyes meet, yet we turn away,
Familiarity lost, in disarray,
A stranger's presence, a heart’s dismay.
This silence, a weight I can't ignore,
Unease settles, an unwelcome chore,
Do you feel it too, deep at our core?
Restless, the quiet consumes my will,
Discomfort rising, time stands still,
Yearning for escape, for a moment's thrill.
In the midst of this bustling crowd,
Our silence resonates a deafening sound.