My Mind Is Running, I Wanna Do Everything All At Once Now Please!

My mind is running, I wanna do everything all at once now please!

Give me somethinggg to doooo.

Pleaseee??

Latin. I fucking hate Latin.

No, I actually don't, but I hate having to study it.

Why do I have to know the future infinitive passive?

What??? Why?

I hate when my mum touches me even tho I already told her no.

Not in a weird sexual way, just in a I've already told her not to hug me way and she still does it.

I told her no over and over again and she still grabs me and hugs me and is awfully close to me.

I tell her my boundaries and she's like, oh, these are worthless.

Fuck this. Why can't she respect them??

Me normally watching a YouTube video: :)

The video being about someone with my deadname: what the fuckk??? ○_○

I miss him. I'm also crying. But I don't think it's because I miss him? Maybe it is? Maybe I just don't want it to be?

I want to text him. I want to text him please. But I don't want to be too much. I don't want to be too much again.

I don't know what to do. I can't breath. I can't fucking breath anymore. I want him to hug and hold me.

I need to breath again. Please?

I want to text him.

I miss him.

My heart is hurting and I feel like he doesn't care right now. But I also know that I am wrong. He does care and he has his own life.

I don't want to overwhelm him, I don't want to be too much. And that's okay for me. I can love the normal amount. Or at least try to.

The rain is making things better. It's calming me. But I still wish we could cuddle.

It's hard reassuring myself that he still likes me because It's hard for me to like myself. And that's okay. I just have to remember all the good things and the love I felt then.

I just haven't fully learned yet to let go. To let him be.

Maybe I should try not texting him as long as possible to give him some space??