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burned0utstar
Finns thoughts

vent blog | Tw: sh, ed, suicide, sa | trying to heal | asks open

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I'm Cold. It's So Cold.

I'm cold. It's so cold.

Why can't I be with him? Why can't I feel safe and warm? Why can't I kiss him? Why can't I fall asleep next to him?

My heart longs for him, my soul misses his touch.

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burned0utstar
10 months ago

When the significantly older guy in my dms gives me more attention and reassurance than my boyfriend??

Like, he just asked how I am and called me pretty, the bar is not that high😭

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burned0utstar
10 months ago

Be proud of me, I set a fucking boundary!!!!

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burned0utstar
10 months ago

Me telling myself that I feel good if I just eat less, loose more calories and feel the burning in my stomach constantly, knowing full well that it's a lie.

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burned0utstar
10 months ago

I miss him. So much.

It feels like I will never see him again. It feels like I can never hold him again. It feels like it's all over and lost.

I can't, I don't want to keep going like this.

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burned0utstar
10 months ago

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry.

I didn't mean to be like that. I don't want to act this way.

I'm sorry I can't communicate. I'm sorry that I try and push you away. I'm sorry. I just want you with me.

I'm sorry that I can't say that to you. I'M SORRY.

I'm so fucking sorry please don't leave me?

I know I'm hard to love. I KNOW.

I don't want to be like this.

I promise I am trying to change.

I promise I can act normal.

Please?

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