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i ate soo much today 😞

i’ll remember this shameful feeling the next time i want to eat

Aiming for 24+ hours but i’m a fat piggy so we’ll see

update (say oink)

i’m active i’ve just been so busy with work and school😕 getting my tounge pierced today and hopefully going grocery shopping so i can’t stop eating food full of fat💕

broke fast bc my mom got subway😓

no cal burned bc i barely got out my bed and and my room is too dirty to exercise (i will clean trust🤞🏼

going strong

any tips to reduce sweet cravings are welcome

work food (i didn’t eat the skin of chicken, there was sooo much meat my stomach hurts)

School food (no tomatoes)

and tall cafe latte (100 cal)

burned 573cal

10,409 steps

4.90 miles

one of my friends told me to run up the stairs bc i need to lose some pounds. sad part is she isn’t wrong

If i post something on tumblr i feel like i’m more likely to do it so….

I started fasting timer at 10:02pm and i will end fast at 6-615pm (next day) so i can eat the chicken and veggies at work for protein intake.

This goes without being said but, LOADS OF WATER

edit: I had gum in my mouth when i fell asleep, i think i swallowed 💔💔💔😰😰😰

new pfp isn’t me (obvi i’m over 170lbs🤮)

i want to be so tiny so that the floorboards don’t creak.

i want to be dainty and small and delicate.

i don’t want to feel like i take up space.

if people can pretend others like them back, i can pretend i don’t need food🩷

not even gonna say what i ate today, the amount is embarrassing 😭

Day 2

Breakfast

Twix bar (my friend gave it to me)

Work food (this was shared)——>>>

Study meal

Cals burnt: 774

Steps: 13k+

Have state tests this week, eating more than usual.

I have 2 friends. One is starting to talk to me less and the other is moving away. I’m going to be all alone AGAIN.

I don’t mind it but investing so much time and money is pointless if i’m gonna keep losing people.

It’s also just exhausting getting excited and being happy only for it to be temporary. I should stop getting my hopes up.

Day 1

Morning weight: 188.8lbs

Night weight: 190lbs

Day 1

Everything i ate today

didn’t count calories (the first 3 is work and school food)

2 is before, 3 is after

Burned 732 calories

12k+ steps

(workout videos/tips welcome)

any @na support discord servers that includes tips and vent channels? my discord is c0rpesg0nk#5836

ugh i gotta clean my room after work but i don’t get home till 7:30pm😞.

my motivations to lose weight!!

so i wont compare myself as much to others

so i will be able to always fit cute, small clothes

so i wont worry about my stomach

so people will like me more

so if a boy ever likes me ill be small and dainty for him

so people will be amazed at how small i am

so people wont even believe i can weigh so little

looking cute and thin in pretty dresses!!

summer/warm weather!!

so i can learn to love myself

so i can feel happy

so i will look effortlessly good because of how small i will be

so i can be guys' crushes

so people will admire me

so people will talk to me more

so people will worry about me

so i can be small and fragile

so people might be jealous

revenge on the guy who played w me (bonus!)

and also..

so i can workout without hating it

so i can be less hungry

so i will have more self-control

so i will be more active

so i will look good in photos and videos

I am determined to do this, even if I fail one day, I will get on track the next.

i just weighed myself….. let’s just say i don’t deserve any cheat days

how i i avoid eating out? Like at school and at group hangouts

Me stepping on the scale and not seeing 45 kg

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!

Why is it so hard for me to just stop. To stop putting all the disgusting food in my mouth. I'm stupidly overweight and I feel gross. I want to be skinny I don't wanna be fat anymore...