I Wish He Would Kiss My Scars And Then Kiss Me So That I Know It Will All Be Okay.

I wish he would kiss my scars and then kiss me so that i know it will all be okay.

"i want you to heal!!!" i wont fall for that, you want me look fat and ugly so u can look prettier and thin next to me (⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)

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I want to be her but skinnier (I'm not saying she's fat, I'm saying I want to be more breakable and holdable like this).

I use sexual relationships as self harm because,

if I just give my body away it won't be mine anymore. I won't have to deal with it anymore.

My fellow annas,

Math is your friend!!! For example, knowing a lb of fat is 3500 cals means that if you "overate" by 500 cals, but you were already in a 1000 cal deficit, you'll just lose weight more slowly and won't gain weight.

Multiplication and division are nice too because, if you have a 400 cal desert but eat it over the course of 4 days, it's only 100 cals a day AND you enjoy it 4 times.

Also if you eat *gasp* 1000-1200 cals a day (ik sooo many) you will lose weight, just not instantly, and it's possible to do this for a really long time without organ failure/hair loss/mood swings/any other bad symptoms you don't want. Even the smallest deficit will add up over time and it'll be easier to transition into maintenance once you reach your gw.

If you do binge, still log the cals. You might find that while your weight went up 3lb, you only went 1000 cals over your bmr, meaning that you gained like 6 OUNCES of fat and the rest is water and bloat.

Also think about time as numbers. Yeah 8 weeks to lose 8kg feels like 4 ever, buttttt it's better than multiple years of binge/strve cycle and no progress (cough cough, ME)

Hope this helps, it breaks my heart to see posts like "I ate 1000 cals today, all my progress is gone 😭" because you deserve to know exactly what your weight is doing and why (also I swear I'm not trying to be preachy about this, I spent my entire teenage years like you all and I'm trying not to also spend my twenties like this too lol)

Stay safe 🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍

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