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Nuh uh. Not true.

If u ever see anyone make a abloustely down on there knees comment abt any of my characters that's funni bunni.

I have a problem with guilt.

I am haunted by these specters

One by one

Till all I can see is the need for my damnation.

It is easy for me to get turned around in it.

Perhaps I can force down a couple thoughts

But all it takes is one big self-accusation

Then I am drowning beneath the broken damn.

Everything is my fault.

So my mental anguish tells me.

I am responsible for all the bad

Makes me easy to manipulate.

I gaslight myself for fucks sake

And always need to see the best in people.

Suddenly years are lost

While I'm still wondering

"maybe it really is me?"

Add to this a troubled connection to reality

And all the other psychological insecurities,

I risk reverting to that corner

Holding my head

Rocking violently back and forth.

I don't want to go to those dark places.

I don't see poetry in it like I used to.

I don't want to die

And I do not wish to feel compelled towards it.

My torturers have always been loved ones

Ever since I was a little child.

"I love you!

I'll never hurt you!"

While his hand is wrapped around his child's neck.

Kept repeating

Hurt by love.

"Be this do this don't you love god?

Wicked

Sinner

"How can you even face yourself!"

I always bowed.

Evolved to hide in plane sight.

Subservient

I never did anything of my own volition.

I didn't offer ideas or options

I just recycled what I knew they wanted to hear.

I became perfect

And was perfect

A marvelous reproduction

Of the conscience of the person talking at me.

I regurgitated their own words

"and it was good"

I mimicked their neuroses

"and it was good"

I broke me into a malleable putty

So I could be molded into their image.

I became a shape shifter

And disappeared entirely.

.

I have made a lot of progress.

Hurt the people I cared for most

When I turned out to be hollow.

Worse than hollow

Filled with raging psychic pain

From the life long concealment of my person.

A lie

Who professed to love.

Drew close to the door of my own extinction.

Saw what I had become.

Been fighting to heal

To grow and mature.

Yet somedays I still get low

Even after a stellar day,

Especially after a stellar day,

And begin to question myself

Wondering

"what if I am wrong?"

Guilt for being happy.

Guilt for being free.

Guilt for refusing the old pains

And the ones who caused it most.

Hopes are usually false...

That is certainly accurate for my situations.

What did you just say, Pastor Wayne?!? Are you serious?!?!

Yes! The Resurrection Christ, and the belief that Jesus rose from the dead IS A BIG LIE....that is, FOR MOST PEOPLE. This single issue of the so-called “Christian Religion” is the one thing the majority of people cannot believe or accept and is the #1 stumbling block for accepting the message of the Gospel.

Ask the average person and they will concede that the Bible is a general historical description of events that happened in ancient Israel, and most likely would also concede that Jesus was both a real historical figure and an influential teacher and a good man. Beyond that, this raise-from-the-dead business is not only false, but also not possible or believable.

Are you one of those people? If so, consider this...

Billions of people have experienced “the likeness of his resurrection” in their lives through miracles, healings, answered prayers, and a profound sense of inner peace. The comparisons of Christian believers is universal – across all nations, ethnicities, and ages. Without going into a lot of technical and theological detail, the integrity and message of Christ - as well as the Bible - has been proven over and over again to be not just historically accurate, but also within its overall message.

So where does this lead YOU if you still do not believe this raise-from-the-dead business? It is a challenge to re-evaluate WHY you feel that way. Investigate it for yourself; don’t just pass this off. If it is true, it is the key to not only this life, but the next life as well.

God Bless Your Day Jesus Loves You NotesOnLife.org/archive

https://www.notesonlife.org/YDN/archive/2022-07-14.php

Most people do not adhere to any religion - because at heart, they don’t believe what is taught by that belief system is TRUE.

For example, when people see elaborate temples full of candles, incense, and endless statues to strange looking idols, practicing animal sacrifices and performing strange dances, or large cathedrals or mosques they think…Why? What’s the point of going to church service every morning and lighting candles, praying five times each day or following a strict tenant of laws and behavior. None of these things seem logical, acceptable or point to “a way to TRUTH ”.

That leads us to Christianity, which on the surface is the most seemingly un-true and un-believable faith of all. Here is a teaching that claims that a man raised himself from the dead and promises eternal life if you will “eat his flesh and drink his blood” - a non-sensical thought to say the least! Then there are all those other seemingly incredulous Bible stories about the world being created in six days, the Red Sea parting, a talking donkey, and voices from heaven. In this regard, Christianity has all other religions beat for sheer un-believability.

But consider for a moment, What IF Christianity IS TRUE? How would that change things for you personally if that was so?

What if in fact Jesus Christ was God, became man, and came to deliver you from the consequence of sin to bring you into eternal life? What if Christ actually did rise from the dead and ascend into heaven? And because of and believing in that, your eternal destiny would be secure. In that case, that’s a game changer that cannot be ignored.

Faith in God in Christ and in the Bible is indeed a leap of faith and the Bible itself says that “Without Faith It Is Impossible to Please Him (i.e. God)” (Hebrews 11:6)

In the world today there are many “truths” expounded by many, but Jesus said that he was “The way, The TRUTH, and the LIFE.” This message is not designed to convince you, because the only one that can really convince you that this is TRUE is yourself.

SO, If Christianity were TRUE, Would You Become a Christian?

YOU DECIDE...

God Bless Your Day Jesus Loves You

NotesOnLife.org

Everyone —and everything — has an end date.

For students it’s the end of the semester, for workers the end of the week, in business the end of the quarter, and for all of us the end of each year — until the clock starts again.

However at a certain point the clock stops for everyone, and each minute we all move one step closer to eternity.

Eternity is a place beyond time, without end and of infinite duration, and as today’s scripture reminds us, our time on this side of a rapidly diminishing clock is running out, and it is time to wake up to the reality about God’s salvation that will take you beyond time into HIS ETERNITY.

Friend, this is indeed URGENT. You are being invited to God’s freely offered salvation — and No Pun Intended — this truly is the ultimate 'Limited Time Offer' and once it passes, it passes.

Will you make a decision in this hour about salvation, or will you let your time expire without making a choice?

God Bless Your Day Jesus Loves You

NotesOnLife.org

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN YOU CAN ACTUALLY ENVISION THINGS AND SEE THEM AND NOT JUST PRETEND YOU CAN SEE THE THINGS YOU'RE ENVISIONING?!?!?

LIKE IF I THINK ABOUT A BALOON I KNOW I'M THINKING ABOUT IT BUT I CAN'T SEE IT WHAT THE FUCK

False hopes are more dangerous than fears.

J. R. R. Tolkien, The Children of Húrin

I posted 87 times in 2022

That's 87 more posts than 2021!

10 posts created (11%)

77 posts reblogged (89%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@isomorbism

@vacuously-true

@a-set-of-tight-measures

@art-of-mathematics

@rlydsntmttr

I tagged 43 of my posts in 2022

#math - 15 posts

#youtube - 6 posts

#cs - 4 posts

#set theory - 3 posts

#topology - 3 posts

#logic - 3 posts

#art - 2 posts

#lol - 2 posts

#not math - 2 posts

#mathematics - 1 post

Longest Tag: 81 characters

#maths is applied computer science is applied maths is applied computer science...

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

what is your favorite field of math?

How can you have just one! I'll list a few, in no particular order ^^

Abstract algebra

topology

logic

number theory

probability

Set Theory

The reason for most of these is because of Computer Science

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#4

See the full post

5 notes - Posted November 9, 2022

#3

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#2

I hate this, so very much. Go watch it lol

(@isomorbism sorry for the maths, but have a listen to what's on the background)

7 notes - Posted October 23, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

*saying to myself* That's not that bad, that's not that bad, that's not that bad

This is the first one

Of SEVEN

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Sadly, this is false. Of course Mars is visible at times, but looking up at the sky that night, it will appear the same as a star. Mars will never look this big to us. Only through a powerful telescope will it look the size of our moon.

I find it interesting, this human tendency to cling and clutch onto something that is bad and hurtful, only because we're thoroughly acquainted with it, rather than explore something new, something unknown, with a chance of it being better or even good.

It seems we truly love staying in our zone of toxic comfort out of sheer familiarity.

It's like living in a town you grew up in, yet 've been promising yourself to leave because you hate everything about it. However, when the time comes, you don't go. You stay. Why? Because "I know where all the shops are." "I know how the buses come and go." "I know my way through the streets, I won't get lost."

I won't get lost...

One doesn't live in that town 'cause they like the architecture, or the people who live there too, or because it has blooming parks and good memories tied to the primary school. They just know there are buildings, people, parks and a primary school. None of them which they actually ever really liked.

But the knowledge of the fact that they are there, makes them calm. I know everything that lurks here so nothing can surprise me. Nothing unexpected. Nothing that I wouldn't know how to deal with.

I can't get lost...

There lies a certainty in the known hence safety and control.

It doesn't matter that it doesn't make me happy nor that I find no fulfilling purpose in it, why would I give up my control? Why would I risk my comfort?

Only a fool wants to live in fear.

That's all very understandable

but it's also just one big 'make your choice' video game. You've played it time and time again, therefore you know every possible outcome. All you then do is press Restart and you can pretend you live life again. Safely, under your control. And nothing ever changes.

Yeah..

This kind of control is false. It's something fear and a desperate longing for peace tricks us into thinking we have in our comfort zone.

Probably because we're constantly afraid we don't have control over our lives, hence we don't live them as we want to, hence we'll never be able to achieve our urgently desired peace. Or maybe it is just a poorly made up definition - that peace equals us being fully in control... which is humanly impossible.

Even funnier it gets when we realize how we don't even see this. The toxic comforts become a part of us subconsciously and sometimes very early on. Letting go of them [have] never crossed our mind because why would I give up a part of my identity? It feels wrong and unnatural despite the fact that I'd be letting go of something that's been harming me... but I'm used to it. I'm familiar with it. This is who I've always been.

Well, have you?

get blackfeathers outta that list.

Couple (hahA-) of self-ships from the Empire Discord server. c:

More specifically of myself, @fifteenhourstolove, and @hahawasabi

I don't care if y'all are in denial- I SEE THE WAY Y'ALL LOOK AT THEIR SCREENIES AND DRAWINGS-

Amicizia♥

A(piangendo): -Ma che cazzo! si ho sbagliato ma non me ne sono resa conto, poteva dirmelo che avevo fatto male, era mia AMICA!-

B:-Hey non preoccuparti tutto si risolverà-

A:-Fa sempre tutto così schifo! Ora sono una stronza per tutti...-

B:-Non esagerare adesso, stavi bene fino a 10 minuti fa. Calmati-

A si toglie i bracciali e mostra i polsi pieni di tagli urlando:-secondo te sto bene io?-

B:-Dio...lo sapevo...stai tranquilla, ci penso io a te okay?-

A:-...okay...-

B salta addosso ad A e la soffoca in un abbraccio, A&B sono migliori amiche da otto anni e nessuno le dividerà, mai....(grazie per oggi piccola♥)