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Poem: Watch Me
Watch me wither without you
No more. I have found a peace
Within myself that shows itself
As fire in my eyes. Watch me
Win my own battles without you
And without wondering if you
Will wait for me at the finish line.
j.p
So in the au BOTH time machines exploded because Cornelius rigged them both to trick calico. However the trap triggered too early when the four got inside (not knowing it was a trap) so both time machines fr just blew up and sent them back to the early 2000s. Wilbur was in the drivers seat and absorbed most of the energy with penny getting the rest.
Now think of a water balloon. You fill that shot with water but put too much and it's gonna pop. Wilbur is the metaphorical water balloon.
The energy he absorbed from the exploded Time Machines is kinda just contained in his body now. Nothin he can do about it so might as well just suffer 🤷🏾
when the energy builds up enough wilburs body won't be able to contain it anymore and releasing it will send him a and anyone he's with to a random point in time (maybe another timeline, idk haven't decided yet)
HOWEVER, Wilbur can hold back a release (at his own expense, doing so just hurts him which is why hiro made a build up level check thingy, it basically lets them know if the time energy level is getting too high and they might time jump again.)
I also made a "chart"
I'll do some more au build stuff tomorrow it's 3 am
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Today, I am grateful. I had plans with some new friends and I’ll be honest - I get nervous.
Especially doing it sober? I’ve always counted on alcohol or something to reduce the insecurity. To relax my social barometer.
These days, I usually hide out on the weekends trying to muster myself up to survive the week.
Kind of sad to live life this way but I’ve got a lot going on so this is how it is right now.
So I hung out with these two friends and made myself not drink. And it was not bad. I was nervous and felt a little uncomfortable in my own skin, but I did it.
And what was really special, is I was able to vocalize this feeling ^ and share it safely without fear.
I feel like a baby deer learning how to walk, all awkward and gangly - but kind of cute, right?
Baby steps.