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Me: *eats one strawberry*
Me: I can make a healthy decision
There were so many examples of this. No matter what I chose, it was always wrong. I questioned the rationality of all my decisions all the time. And I was wrong every time.
It wasn't long before my mind went blank when it came to decision making. And then he'd start screaming at me for not being able to make decisions.
Food was always a Thing
He'd tell me he was bored with the food I made so I'd find a new recipe. He would criticise everything about it, say it looked disgusting and ask why I was so stupid.
So he'd give me one to try, I'd make it and he'd love it. If I made it again, it was never as good as the first time. If I made it again he hated it. If I never made it again he would tell me that he loved it and I was withholding it because I was lazy/a cunt.
My partner and I have a key phrase that I say to indicate that she needs to make a decision without discussing it with me further.
Decision making can still make me break out into a cold sweat.
Learn the lesson.
It will all work out as it’s supposed to. So, just let it play out. If you feel overwhelmed, step back for a bit to take your mind off of it. If you’re in too deep, it can become too clouded to see clearly. Come up for air. You need it to survive. Whatever you’re facing will be there when you’re ready to get back to it. If it isn’t, don’t fret, it wasn’t meant for you, and there’s something even greater out there for you. Keep moving.
Nadir Keval (via nadirkeval)
the constant battle of wanting to study english lit, journalism or anything to do with film or theater in uni and not knowing which to choose
I’m so sick of second guessing everything I do. Every little thing. I just want to feel good about a decision for once and not be afraid of doing something wrong or of being rejected.
Just spent the last few hours cleaning off my desk. Yes, it took a few hours, as it has been my special location for piling every piece of paper or other "important" thing for the last few years.
It was quite the trip. School documents, attempts at art, notes from my ex-girlfriend, church bulletins and study notes covered in doodles, applications for things I never went through with, even a (short-lived) journal from 2011. There were bank statements, comic books, magazines, and letters from family and friends, many of which either have never been read or have not been read since residing there.
Needless to say, my desk has not fulfilled its intended purpose for a long time. At last, however, I am using it to type this post. But the real struggle was not cleaning off the desk itself, it was navigating and relocating the contents.
Much of what I sorted through was junk, plain and simple. Either I had no more reason to keep it, or I never had a reason to keep it in the first place. In fact, I was about to throw it all away (except the comics/magazines), until I came across the aforementioned journal. Despite there being nothing of real value written there - which is why I stopped keeping up with it in the first place - I felt like I learned a little bit about how far I've come in those few years. In fact, a lot of the "junk" was interesting in that regard.
Each piece was a part of my life. Some of them brought up decisions I wasn't particularly proud of making. But all of them unlocked a piece of me that I had forgotten existed over time. Each new thing that came along made me forget the decisions I'd made, or the things I'd done, simply because those last few years demanded so much of my attention. But now that I could see them and answer for them, it felt like I no longer had to worry about them.
Mind you, I rarely worried about my past decisions, unless they were severe. But that was because I had to worry about the present. The back of my mind was still saying that something was unresolved, and that only contributed to my stress. Now that I've gotten a chance to catch up again, that feeling is gone - and I can focus on the future.
I still got rid of more than half the junk on my desk. However, I kept the parts that I felt were most important, and put them in a box. Now that I've answered for it and relived it, I can put it away freely. Maybe one day I'll come back to it and wonder what kind of idiot kills off a journal after a month.
Ladies and jelly-spoons, it's okay to want to do things for your partner as long as it's your choice and your choice alone. Not inferred over time or an influenced decision. Your choice. No one else's.
I weigh 96 lbs and I started working out, not to lose weight, but to gain muscle mass. Which not only benefits me, but my bf likes it too (he thought I had a cute butt before I started working out lmao just let him wait and see). And he had no say in whether or not I started working out. It was my choice, my idea, and my decision.
It's okay to make decisions that make other people happy, as long as you're happy first and foremost, do you understand? Your happiness first! Because how can you make others truly happy if you are not truly happy yourself?
Life is full of choices. At some point we all have to make a decision to do something or not do something. In some cases it doesn’t matter, but in others it can be literally life changing.
Going grocery shopping today or tomorrow is minor, but major decisions like deciding to accept a marriage proposal or to agree to a job on the other side of the country are literally life changing. In both those cases if you don’t give an answer to the interested party,the decision will be made for you.
Likewise, if you have a plane ticket for a flight leaving today and you cannot decide if you want to go or not, come departure time the plane will leave without you - andthat decision will automatically be made for you.
Our ticket and final destination to eternity is the same way. You can choose to serve and obey the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob - the Holy Almighty God of the Bible - or not. If you make a decision to accept a ticket to be on that flight, when the time comes for your departure, you will be on your way to an eternal destination in heaven, but if you do NOT decide to board on God’s rescue flight of salvation, then that decision will be made for you. At that point, there are no later flights and once you miss it - you miss it - and there is no other way.A non-decision has just become your decision.
Making a non-decision to believe in salvation in Christ is exactly this way. Jesus said that that he was the only way to heaven (John 14:6) - there are no alternate flights, roads, trains, taxis or buses. Choose today whom you will serve (Joshua 24:15) Decide to follow Christ.If you have not made that decision, make it TODAYorthat decision will be made for you.
God Bless Your Day Jesus Loves You
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Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves
transitions
I hate transitional periods. I haven't experienced one like this before. at the end of every school year I knew that a new year would begin at the end of the summer. but now it is summer again and I know that no new semester is waiting for me at the end of august. the buzzword is uncertain. I have never felt this uncertain before. at the end of the month my lease is up and I have to move home. for how long? I don't know.
ever since I began college, maybe even before, whenever I was at home for an extended period of time I felt like I was in limbo. not doing anything, just waiting. but now the only thing that I am waiting for is for me to make a decision.
I HATE making decisions.
I have a hard enough time deciding what type of toothpaste I should buy. I don't know what I'm going to do. I've been avoiding the decision so far. that hasn't exactly been productive. but right now I don't even know how to start. I'm stuck in a cycle of denial, waiting for someone to tell what comes next.
so what comes next?
BANANA BREAD & LEMON COOKIES
HELLO
UH
I THOUGHT I'D GIVE YOU MY TWO RECIPES THAT I'VE MADE BY ADJUSTING RECIPES I FOUND ONLINE BECAUSE THE ONLINE RECIPES WEREN'T DOING IT FOR ME
FIRST,
BANANA BREADDDDD
Ohhh, ahhhh, banana breaded
NEXT,
LEMON CRINKLE COOKIES
Ohhhh, ahhhh, lemon crinkle cookies
You've probably seen these online and they are even better than they look, you can also switch out the cake mix and liquid for something else, I've made strawberry chocolate with strawberry milk, strawberry cake mix, and devils food cake mix (it was a double batch) and orange with orange cake mix and orange juice
These are both so damn good istg
Getting a piercing is a devotional act to Ares, you cannot change my mind.
I have to find a way to make this decision not a regret and just a step in the right direction.
- Sequoia Red