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day 5:

i want to lose weight for others to notice. do I want to lose it for myself? yes, i do. but I want to be so thin strangers stare or tell me to eat, I wanna look like i belong in the hospital or like a walking corpse.

day 10:

drinks. god I used to love trying fun drinks and making hot chocolate around the holidays and such. I won't ever be able to do that again because I never consume liquid cals practically ever

i need it.

Love, tears, and anger.

My mental disorder is being in love with 3 guys at the same time🤍

One of them I have no chance and he probably has a girlfriend,

The second one is my ex,

Third one is a lonely loser so if I actually talked to him he would like me

(I only talk to my ex and not the other two)

(We don’t talk about why i still talk to my ex)

🤍🎀❤️

The best feeling?

Being the skinniest out of your friend group

Like man ....

The best feeling ever

The way I eat better (that means less and burn more) when I'm out of my house (on a trip or smth) is just amazing

I can feel, and see, the fat disappearing out of my body, it feels so perfect

Tw weight loss

We've lost 1.5kg in two days!

We're back on track baby!

Gotta hit my goal this year

I know it's fxcked up but:

I need to be so skinny/ frail / delicate that anyone could over power me, pick me up and carry me, force me down with no effort. I need to be a defenseless pretty doll.

Today marks 1 full week of restriction below 500 Cal per day (most of which were under 300) and I'm feeling great.

It was really rough at first, like my body was legit dying but I'm already feeling so much better.

Now eating an orange feels like an indulgent dessert.

I'm honestly surprised by how much better I'm feeling, can't wait to keep it up and get thin!

Patience is such a struggle... 😮‍💨

When you lose control and start "binging" but the only food in the house is healthy/low calorie fruits and veggies 😋☺️

Ate my fill and still in deficit 😇

I think about this shit anytime I look in the mirror 😆😭

That awkward stage when:

"Fat Pants" fall down after two steps.

But;

"Skinny Pants" are still too tight.

yes Yes YES!

I want to be considered "dainty" and "petite"

I want to be tiny

I want people to pick me up and be surprised at how light I am

I want to be the one given piggy back rides for once

I want to have people joke about me flying away in the wind

I want people to wrap their fingers around my wrist

I want to be forced into the middle seat of a car

I want to not be ashamed to sit on someone

I want to look breakable

I want to bruise easily

I want people to be gentle with me, scared they will break me

I want to be someone's thinspo

I want people to swoop me into their arms

I want to be carried without hearing heavy breathing

I want to look cute when eating food, not like a pig

I want to be able to count my ribs

I want to trace my bones

I want people to not be disgusted by me

I want to not be disgusted by myself

I want to be skinny, tiny, fragile

please

That look where there's a gap at the top of the shorts 😍🤩😍🤩😍

I want need this.

Getting worse ... or is it better?

I ate basically nothing all day and still don't feel like eating

It's actually happening!

I'm still a very long way away from my goal but I can actually see my face, waist, hands, wrists, arms, and legs are getting thinner!

Also it seems my skin is getting much clearer and smoother!

(maybe because I'm no longer poisoning my body with fatty foods and sugars?)

I'm starting to get excited tho 🤭

I don't actually consider myself as disordered. Honestly I think this path to getting skinny is much healthier than the path I was on previously (eating tons of fast/junk/frozen food and ignoring calories and nutrition)

Now I'm only eating a rotation of fruits, veggies and home grilled meat. I'm exercising self control to stay under my personal calorie limits but still getting far more vitamins and nutrients than before.

The truth is, I am more in tune with my body than ever before. I used to eat because it was time to eat (breakfast/lunch/dinner) or just due to boredom. I would feel sick after eating every time.

Now I'm waiting for my body to tell me when it truly needs food (when hunger gets too intense) and I feel better or even great after eating. I honestly can't see anything unhealthy about that.

Granted, I do want to get so skinny that my bones show all over, my ribs can be counted, and people may ultimately be concerned about it, but still I feel like that's better than following the path to obesity.

Wake me up when I'm skinny...

Seriously, I wish I could just choose to be comatose till my body is at a critically low body fat percentage.