It Gets Better - Tumblr Posts - Page 2

There is something beautiful about actually feeling loved.

After talking, after having an actual talk, he told me he loves me, and I could belive it.

It was hard, but I could belive it. And I love him too. More than I want to. More than he knows.

I won't get addicted to him. I won't make him my whole world because I shouldn't. Because it is bad. Because it is sick and because it hurts both of us. Not just me, and I want to keep him safe. Even if it is from me.

I'm also learning to understand him. I am learning to understand the way he acts. Why he does or doesn't do things.

It's beautiful, this slowly building connection.

I fucking love my boyfriend.

I asked him some questions and he answered "sure" to everything, which is nice but also stresses me because of the one word answer.

I was about to ask if he was mad at me and he was like "my pookie".

Bam. So easy, crisis averted. Now I am reassured and happy again and that without having to ask for it.

Fucking love him :)

Tw: slight mention of sh

I want to tell him how much he is improving my quality if life but I don't want to be annoying...

I fucking started sewing again?? I am making my own clothes and patches and I started studying again.

And it's okay. He even passively stopped me from relapsing soooo many times.

I see my wounds healing and I am okay-ish with it. He tells me I'm pretty. He tells me he likes me. And I kind of belive him.

I want to tell him all of that. I want to tell him that he is really helping me by just existing the way he is.

He makes me feel safe and protected and better.

When I'm crying but he texts me and now I'm giggling and he makes me so happy that I'm crying again but it's good crying.

I am so tired and I am so happy.

Thank you.

Honestly, even when if he leaves me I'm still so grateful to have met him.

Like, he showed me new music, motivated me to start being creative again, helped me accept my scars, went to concerts with me and showed me what I can have.

I was so down when I met him, and I'm really doing better now. Thanks to his influence.

So even if he leaves me, I'll still have a friend and a life.

Someone I love tells me a story,

It reminds me of you,

Suddenly I am calling you good when you say you are bad.

Suddenly I am still in love with you.

And when I come back,

I am happy like it is now,

I see your name and smile,

My scars itch,

But I am getting better.

I am starting to heal.

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ GOOD queer news for the TL: a bunch of students across the U.S. are using grants to make their schools more welcoming for LGBTQ+ youth

Queer students deserve to feel safe at school! We're in our third year of giving grants to put the power in their hands to make their schools more welcoming - students know what they need most in their own communities and their own schools.

Through 50 States, 50 Grants, 5,000 Voices, we've awarded over $1.5 million in grants across the U.S. to support student-led projects. Our third season has some of the most badass projects yet, like these:

❤️ “With this grant, we’ll establish an LGBTQIA+ community space in the library, open to all students, with guest speakers, arts and crafts, LGBTQIA+ books and literature, and LGBTQIA+-specific resources.” - Pocatello, Idaho

🧡 “Our project aims to support LGBTQ+ students through teacher training, development of gender-neutral bathroom protocols, and the organization of a district-wide Queer Prom.” - Gypsum, Colorado

💛 “We’ll take students from the 3 middle schools and our local high school to Honolulu Pride to make local LGBTQ+ friends, feel accepted in a large group, and see the community beyond just school.” - Ewa Beach, Hawai'i

💚 “We’re going to increase access to queer literature by working with a local nonprofit to expand our school’s collection, host storytelling events, and foster community connection." - Mobile, Alabama

💙 “Our plan is to create new Inclusivity Zones across the state in critical areas for local GSA clubs to meet, plan shared events, and be their own safe space.” - Charleston, West Virginia

💜 “We’ll host the Rainbow Youth Summit for LGBTQIA+ youth from across southern California to network, learn, and have fun in a safe, judgement free and supportive environment.” - Cathedral City, California

These students are truly the definition of making things better - you can see the rest of the amazing projects lined up across the country on our blog here!

Positive parts of 2016

- the rise of old friends senior dog sanctuary - Hamilton - pokemon go - female ghostbusters - i don’t give a fuck im outta here Obama - captain america civil war - girl, black guy and latino guy leads in new star wars - deadpool - lemonade - literally???! Nothing??? Else????

It's June again so this is your reminder that Pride is for...

People who are out and open

Those who aren't out yet (or ever)

Folks who can't be out right now for their safety

People still figuring this whole thing out

Someone trying out a new label or identity for the first time

Folks in various stages of transition or transformation

Those who came before, who made things better for us now

The generations after us, who inspire us to keep making things better

We see you, you're valid, and Pride is for you too. <3

I just wanted to post something I just realized.

I've suffered from depression and anxiety for all of my life, I'm 21 years old and didn't have a great childhood.

Once I finally started taking care of my mental health by getting on anti-depressants and anxiety meds I was starting to feel better. I also started to go to walk in counselling.

I thought it wasn't having a big impact on my mental health until just now.

I've been dressing up more often instead of just staying in pjs all day, I've started cleaning up my rooms more regularly and decorating them, I've been doing more hobbies aside from video games all day, and the one thing I thought wouldn't happen is to question my sexuality.

I've even started cooking food for myself, like homemade hash browns, omelettes, and just helping my mom with dinner prep and cooking to learn more.

Change doesn't happen quickly, but once you see it, you feel it and it feels great.

Just can't believe barely 6 months ago I was at risk of cancelling my subscription to life and having weekly therapy and shit and then life fixed itself so much.

Like, existing doesn't hurt (that in itself is amazing lol?). The future is so full of possibilities. I have the most amazing friends, and so much love. How is this even possible 🤍

when autumn is not depression season anymore and now it's crunchy leaves dark academia coffee dates sharing book recs, and Mitsky starts playing in the background

yesterday was a dream?

I just wanna thank Duo for being the only person worried about me (half joking)

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ GOOD queer news for the TL: a bunch of students across the U.S. are using grants to make their schools more welcoming for LGBTQ+ youth

Queer students deserve to feel safe at school! We're in our third year of giving grants to put the power in their hands to make their schools more welcoming - students know what they need most in their own communities and their own schools.

Through 50 States, 50 Grants, 5,000 Voices, we've awarded over $1.5 million in grants across the U.S. to support student-led projects. Our third season has some of the most badass projects yet, like these:

❤️ “With this grant, we’ll establish an LGBTQIA+ community space in the library, open to all students, with guest speakers, arts and crafts, LGBTQIA+ books and literature, and LGBTQIA+-specific resources.” - Pocatello, Idaho

🧡 “Our project aims to support LGBTQ+ students through teacher training, development of gender-neutral bathroom protocols, and the organization of a district-wide Queer Prom.” - Gypsum, Colorado

💛 “We’ll take students from the 3 middle schools and our local high school to Honolulu Pride to make local LGBTQ+ friends, feel accepted in a large group, and see the community beyond just school.” - Ewa Beach, Hawai'i

💚 “We’re going to increase access to queer literature by working with a local nonprofit to expand our school’s collection, host storytelling events, and foster community connection." - Mobile, Alabama

💙 “Our plan is to create new Inclusivity Zones across the state in critical areas for local GSA clubs to meet, plan shared events, and be their own safe space.” - Charleston, West Virginia

💜 “We’ll host the Rainbow Youth Summit for LGBTQIA+ youth from across southern California to network, learn, and have fun in a safe, judgement free and supportive environment.” - Cathedral City, California

These students are truly the definition of making things better - you can see the rest of the amazing projects lined up across the country on our blog here!

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ GOOD queer news for the TL: a bunch of students across the U.S. are using grants to make their schools more welcoming for LGBTQ+ youth

Queer students deserve to feel safe at school! We're in our third year of giving grants to put the power in their hands to make their schools more welcoming - students know what they need most in their own communities and their own schools.

Through 50 States, 50 Grants, 5,000 Voices, we've awarded over $1.5 million in grants across the U.S. to support student-led projects. Our third season has some of the most badass projects yet, like these:

❤️ “With this grant, we’ll establish an LGBTQIA+ community space in the library, open to all students, with guest speakers, arts and crafts, LGBTQIA+ books and literature, and LGBTQIA+-specific resources.” - Pocatello, Idaho

🧡 “Our project aims to support LGBTQ+ students through teacher training, development of gender-neutral bathroom protocols, and the organization of a district-wide Queer Prom.” - Gypsum, Colorado

💛 “We’ll take students from the 3 middle schools and our local high school to Honolulu Pride to make local LGBTQ+ friends, feel accepted in a large group, and see the community beyond just school.” - Ewa Beach, Hawai'i

💚 “We’re going to increase access to queer literature by working with a local nonprofit to expand our school’s collection, host storytelling events, and foster community connection." - Mobile, Alabama

💙 “Our plan is to create new Inclusivity Zones across the state in critical areas for local GSA clubs to meet, plan shared events, and be their own safe space.” - Charleston, West Virginia

💜 “We’ll host the Rainbow Youth Summit for LGBTQIA+ youth from across southern California to network, learn, and have fun in a safe, judgement free and supportive environment.” - Cathedral City, California

These students are truly the definition of making things better - you can see the rest of the amazing projects lined up across the country on our blog here!

This made me so emotional oh my gods

WARNING AHEAD FOR MY TR4UM4DUMPING

Specific warnings for mentions of: Tr4um4, s/h, 4bus3, gr00ming, sewerslidal ideation, semi-implied but kinda overt mentions of the viewing of adult media

TR4UM4DUMP STARTS HERE

So much of my tr4um4 has only started to be dealt with within the past year or two, when my parents found out through noticing my s/h behaviours

For context, I live in two houses because my mum and dad split when I was a newborn, my stepdad came into the picture when I was ~5, and my stepmum came into the picture when I was ~7-10

I ended up spilling the beans to my dad and stepmum of how my (currently deceased) stepdad made me uncomfortable while he was still alive (he d13d in 2019 thank the gods) and what the family dynamic was like at home (red flags, very toxic)

And they told me straight-up that it was emotional 4bus3, and that it sounded a whole awful lot like he was gr00ming me and such

And they were so supportive of getting me professional help and support for it

But the inportant thing is

During the time I was unknowingly being 4bus3d (when you're in the situation, it's almost impossible to know that it's not normal to be treated that way, especially when nobody notices what's happening to tell you this) I was crying almost every night after school. I had even packed a bag and prepared a plan of how I would run away from home. I kept setting a date on when I would run away, and then I would be too scared to, so I'd move the date up by like a month.

I had a few very prominent times when my dad and stepmum found I was misbehaving on the internet and getting into adult topics and spaces and media that I really shouldn't have. We moved houses every 2-5 years due to renting, and every house we've been in, since I was ~12-13, I have an awful memory attached to. There were maybe.. 3 different houses? 2 of which have multiple strongly negative memories attached to them.

During the time, I thought that was it. This is all my life would be. Endless suffering, then more suffering on top for doing things that seemed normal for a teen girl to be doing on the internet, even if it was subconsciously partly due to her tr4um4. I thought that I would go to j4il eventually and probably d1e there.

And then it would somewhat pass (but I would have devices restricted, or things like my phone would be changed out for a cheap brick phone)

And a few months would go by

And then I would do another incredibly stupid thing. And it was always the exact same thing I kept getting in trouble for.

And then once again I'd be crying nearly every night, considering swimming with the fish, but being too afraid to go through with it. So, my solution? Hope that by digging my own grave, I'd end up 6ft under at some point. Whether it was bl33ding out or having a heart attack, I just didn't want it to hurt too much.

And then it all came out accidentally, to my dad and stepmum

And they understood, because my dad's side of the family has a history of the women being 4bus3d in similar ways by boyfriends and some family that are horrible people (that we dont associate with in any way, besides being glad they're also d34d)

And my stepmum also has similar tr4um4. Worse than mine, but she still understood.

Yet at the time I felt awful. What if I was faking it? What if my stepdad wasn't a bad person at all, but I made him sound horrible? What if I was just being the drama queen that everyone always told me I was?

But then I started to go to a psychologist

And everything's gotten better

And I'm still working through things, because of course I am! I have tr4um4. That stuff doesn't just go away by thinking positively, and smiling! It never even fully goes away - you just learn to minimise the impact in healthy ways, and recognise triggers and signs you're not doing so hot

And I'm so incredibly sorry for tr4um4-dumping on you guys, cuz that's not at all what I'm here for

But I wanted to share, to show you that it can get better

And you're so strong for still being around

And that absolutely isn't to say that those who aren't still around are weak

But I'm proud of you all. For still being here, for getting hrough each day, tr4um4 or not. You're doing a freaking GREAT job out here, mkay?

I doubt anyone is actually going to read this all, but thats okay. It's the original message I reblogged this for that's important <3

right now you might be in a situation that you think you won’t survive but six months ago you were in a situation that you didn’t think you’d survive and two years before that you were in a situation you didn’t think you’d survive and the point is you will always surprise yourself and you will always make it through

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ GOOD queer news for the TL: a bunch of students across the U.S. are using grants to make their schools more welcoming for LGBTQ+ youth

Queer students deserve to feel safe at school! We're in our third year of giving grants to put the power in their hands to make their schools more welcoming - students know what they need most in their own communities and their own schools.

Through 50 States, 50 Grants, 5,000 Voices, we've awarded over $1.5 million in grants across the U.S. to support student-led projects. Our third season has some of the most badass projects yet, like these:

❤️ “With this grant, we’ll establish an LGBTQIA+ community space in the library, open to all students, with guest speakers, arts and crafts, LGBTQIA+ books and literature, and LGBTQIA+-specific resources.” - Pocatello, Idaho

🧡 “Our project aims to support LGBTQ+ students through teacher training, development of gender-neutral bathroom protocols, and the organization of a district-wide Queer Prom.” - Gypsum, Colorado

💛 “We’ll take students from the 3 middle schools and our local high school to Honolulu Pride to make local LGBTQ+ friends, feel accepted in a large group, and see the community beyond just school.” - Ewa Beach, Hawai'i

💚 “We’re going to increase access to queer literature by working with a local nonprofit to expand our school’s collection, host storytelling events, and foster community connection." - Mobile, Alabama

💙 “Our plan is to create new Inclusivity Zones across the state in critical areas for local GSA clubs to meet, plan shared events, and be their own safe space.” - Charleston, West Virginia

💜 “We’ll host the Rainbow Youth Summit for LGBTQIA+ youth from across southern California to network, learn, and have fun in a safe, judgement free and supportive environment.” - Cathedral City, California

These students are truly the definition of making things better - you can see the rest of the amazing projects lined up across the country on our blog here!