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To clear things up for Cassandra...
Dr. Orion Fox (Occult Legacy Founder)
Paranoid | Genius | Socially Awkward
he/him/they
Romantic Exploration? None
Woohoo Interest? None
Well I took this and yeah....
https://www.idrlabs.com/personality-style/test.php
Thing Iβm paranoid about and am fixated on atm: Iβm sinning and Iβm going to hell and God is mad at me and is punishing me
You know youβre coming into psychosis when everything is contradicted. Nothing affects or shocks you anymore. Youβre numb but everything scares you. Youβre too exhausted to show any emotion but too vigilant to not do anything about your paranoid delusions. You start to isolate yourself but keep hoping someone will reach out so you wonβt be alone with your thoughts. You feel helpless but so prepared and aware of unseen truths. As verbal communication becomes more difficult, you have made sense of what youβre saying but no one else gets it. You need to keep quiet and not endanger yourself, but you end up talking about it anyway. Itβs hot outside but you wear clothes for cold weather. You understand that your delusions are just delusions, but youβre not making it up and it is the only real thing to you. There are sometimes things you feel, see, hear, smell, taste, that arenβt really there. You refuse to eat because of your paranoia but you canβt resist. Us psychotics are seen as dangerous, but we are the sufferers of absence. I donβt want to hurt you, I just want to be left alone, Iβm just scared.
What is left of a person When every time that they break down They are never fully put back together again How many break downs do you need to suffer To truly lose the person you are? ~Β© #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #selfharm #anxiety #fear #paranoid #nomorefaithinhumanity #antitrust #alone #loneley #suicide #suicidal #broken #igive up #mmf #badnight #losingmymind #sorry #imsosorry
What is left of a person When every time that they break down They are never fully put back together again How many break downs do you need to suffer To truly lose the person you are? ~Β© #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #selfharm #anxiety #fear #paranoid #nomorefaithinhumanity #antitrust #alone #loneley #suicide #suicidal #broken #igive up #mmf #badnight #losingmymind #sorry #imsosorry
What is left of a person When every time that they break down They are never fully put back together again How many break downs do you need to suffer To truly lose the person you are? ~Β© #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #selfharm #anxiety #fear #paranoid #nomorefaithinhumanity #antitrust #alone #loneley #suicide #suicidal #broken #igive up #mmf #badnight #losingmymind #sorry #imsosorry
What is left of a person When every time that they break down They are never fully put back together again How many break downs do you need to suffer To truly lose the person you are? ~Β© #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #selfharm #anxiety #fear #paranoid #nomorefaithinhumanity #antitrust #alone #loneley #suicide #suicidal #broken #igive up #mmf #badnight #losingmymind #sorry #imsosorry
What is left of a person When every time that they break down They are never fully put back together again How many break downs do you need to suffer To truly lose the person you are? ~Β© #ownpoetry #depression #depressed #selfharm #anxiety #fear #paranoid #nomorefaithinhumanity #antitrust #alone #loneley #suicide #suicidal #broken #igive up #mmf #badnight #losingmymind #sorry #imsosorry
literally anyone: *is nice to me*
me *low-key*: WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVE? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?
Okay, Iβm gonna say it.
This visit has gone to well, something is gonna go wrong
(Or maybe Iβm just paranoid because something always goes wrong during plot streams)
be paranoid
think about aliens and creatures all the time
doodle slightly concerning things like eyes and wings and bones
listen to podcasts- the magnus archives/protocol, sherlock & co, rotten mango, welcome to nightvale, etc.
watch movies and shows that make you question things like the Blair witch project and gravity falls apply the fiction to reality because every lie is grown from a seed of truth
always carry a bag with you fill it with books, notebooks, your sticker-covered laptop, keep notes of everything you see and do so if something mysterious happens someone can continue your work
cover the walls of your room in posters and newspaper clippings and no trespassing signs
remember that everything you see is a trick of the light your eyes are not your friends listen to the music you cannot hear but never follow it never whistle in the woods and if you see something on a hike no you didnt
i want to be more cryptidcore
how do i do that?
In matters of the heart, I often find myself not playing to win, but rather simply trying not to lose.
I am haunted by the fear of heartache and the agony it brings. The thought of surrendering control of my heart to another fills me with dread that I can not overcome.
Due to my overwhelming anxiety and paranoia, I struggle with forming deep connections with people. The fear of being hurt makes it hard for me to trust anyone. Trust feels like a double-edged sword to me. Once I open up to someone, I feel powerless. It's as if I've handed them a loaded gun, waiting to see if they will use it against me. Is it really worth taking that risk? Have you ever heard of an unintentional discharge? Like a flawed firearm, humans can also have their imperfections, and that incompatibility could be destructive.
Regrettably, experience has taught me that if someone has the power to break you, trust that they most certainly will.
douleur-douce/douxsouffrance, Double-edged Sword
"Where did you sleep last night?"
you received a message from :(:):):$ a stranger. :););5:$3&delete the message. DONT;:$:):)answer.