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Hi hello narcissists and friends, Ive just discovered june 1st is 'World narcissistic abuse awareness day' I propose we be horribly horribly annoying on this day and make it to spread awareness on how narcissistic abuse isnt real

I think we can ruin an ableists day if we try hard enough whos with me

"bad person" disorders does not exist to put abuse on the back of a disorder does nothing but to normalize ableism.

the "narcissist" that abused most likely is not actual a person with NPD they are just abusive. and even if the person who abused have NPD that does not make the abuse worse.

Renegade

Renegade : Traitor/ Betrayer Pairing : Jimin x Reader Word Count : 2.5k Summary : You got lied and trapped by your own beloved now it's on you how to escape him but it won't be easy as you think.

INSPIRED by the song 'renegade' by Aaryan Shah.

Warnings : ONLY ADULT AUDIANCE PERMITTED! MINORS PLEASE SKIP. TOXIC THEME, dark, yandere, obsessive, narcissistic personality, sociopath, manipulation, dollification. (nothing smutty), Mentions of fire, burns, torture, cuss words and more.

.·:*¨ ✘♚✘ ¨*:·.

Renegade : traitor/ betrayer

I woke up gasping for air, my breathing was not steady. I had a nightmare again it's like a daily routine at this point.

Every time it feels he'll be the cause of my death no not the romantic one. He really will be the cause of my death in reality.

He?

My boyfriend

Yes you read it correct.

My own boyfriend of one year

My eyes looked around the room. Nothing changed the same shabby, dark, dull place he has kept me here, he kept me here against my will.

Psychoish? Murderer? Maniac? Insane? Obsessed? Delusional? out of his head?

You don't know what he is. He claims to be your boyfriend but his behaviour it's like he owns you or something. And the way he calls you doll? Gives you creeps. Just by hearing his voice can make anyone have goosebumps within seconds. His voice is like a siren alluring, seductive and sexy.

After being trapped here for 6 months you know he is anything but humane, he has no compassion whatsoever no sympathy for anyone not even his own girlfriend. Do you think a sane boyfriend will keep his girlfriend trapped for so long?

He talks to you like you are a non living thing, like a doll hence the nickname. Being captive here for 6 months or more you don't know, it's been a while since you were free. No he doesn't allow clock, calendar, television, or anything in your room.

He expects you to be silent like a doll, no expression just completely quite. Ofcourse no human can be like that you did expressed so many emotions like anger, depressed, gloomy, miserable yet nothing worked on him. He lacked empathy. If you make him mad he is gonna teach you a lesson so you don't repeat the mistakes again ever and trust me he is very cruel. Especially with you since he thinks you are a doll and you aren't supposed to feel anything.

You tried to escape, multiple times but all went down in the dumps. He might lack empathy but he is very sharp and skilled related to technology. Every door in his house can open only with his fingerprints. This is completely secret but he has a tracker in your pendent. It can't be removed from your neck as it's short and made up of core hardened steel alloy.

You remember the last time you tried to escape. Jimin left the door of your room open, purposely to see what will you do. You had promised him that you won't try to escape anymore or do anything that makes him angry.

He went to the room next to you to see in his tablet what your next move will be. He smirks as he sees you walking towards the door almost in disbelief. You can't believe he left the door open. Is he testing me?

Your heart told you to stay but your mind told you to take a chance what if he actually by mistake left the door open? You don't want to waste any possible chances to escape.

You ran as fast as you could your pace has slowed because he gives you only limited food that is enough to keep you awake. You stand infront of the main door hoping for a miracle at this point. You know you are stupid but you still have silly hopes. Hopes to meet your friends. They are your only family. You don't have any blood related family your friends are your companions in your lonely life.

You think of ways to open the door as tears streamed down your face. You just miss your friends you want to go back to how it was, how happy you were. Somewhere the back of your mind tells you that you did this to yourself. You are the cause of your fate, you are the culprit.

"You need any help?" He asks as you freeze in your place. Should have listened to your heart and not went out of the room. You are terrified of him and shit scared to turn around and face him.

"You tried to go away from ME? I'm disappointed I thought you promised me that you won't fuck around" His voice deep and slow but I know how much mad he is.

"Since you broke your promise I don't think I should keep mine too. It's unfair right?"

He promised to not hurt you In return you promised to not run away.

You made a mistake. You agreeing to live with jimin was a mistake, you meeting jimin was a mistake, you being born was also mistake. You don't know your parents they just gave you up. You're not upset with them. Who would want to have a child like you. Jimin has messed up your brain. You couldn't think rationally and just keep blaming yourself because he blames you for his loss or if something bad happens.

He looks at you straight in the eye you don't what is going through his sick head. He sure is thinking of doing something fun. It might be fun for him but for you, you are done.

He drags you to the kitchen counter and makes you sit there. You could have ran away and hide in your room but do you really want to make him more mad. Mad than he already is?

He turns on the stove and puts a kettle filled with water. You're confused is he making tea right now?

He didn't even turned back to look at you he keeps looking at the boiling water as if it's calming him down but is he really calm or just so mad that he doesn't even want to face you.

You open your mouth to say something but no words are ready to escape. Do you really want to apologise to him? You brain tells you apologise if you want to escape and your heart tells you not beg from a deranged person like him. Is he even a person?

You are in your own thoughts when jimin is standing infront of you. Weird fact is he is not glaring at you. It's like he us trying to study what you were thinking about escaping.

Park Jimin never lets anyone know his true emotions he hides them covers them up. He thinks Everyone will try to hurt him because his thoughts are different they are far from humanity. They are filled with dark, toxic, twisted things no one could imagine.

But he lets you see his thoughts. Why? one might ask? Because he thinks you are doll a lifeless thing which can't speak. His only doll, the only one who can understand him. The only one who knows the real him. His doll

His eyes studies your face and a tear drops from his eyes.

"My pretty doll....are you a renegade?"

You are confused by this. Why is he suddenly calling you a traitor when he is the one who betrayed you trapped you here?

" In order to be a renegade, you have to be prepared to walk alone and follow your own path" His hands slightly brush against your calf then moves up carefully to your thighs as he grips them tightly.

"How will you walk alone when you are my doll? I'm the one who owns you, I am the one who controls you, I'm the one who knows the best for you, your goal is to satisfy me and only me."

He takes a the kettle in one hand and looks at me

"Your legs which carried you to the door should be cauterised" he says he pours the hot boiling water on my feets. I tried to scram away but his body infront of me kept me trapped to suffer in agony from the burning pain.

He grabbed by the nape and forced me to walk towards the stove I didn't noticed but the stove was on and the fire was still going on. I couldn't walk properly due to new developed burns but he kept dragging me there. I knew this might happen still I did this he is right I'm dumb to even try to escape.

He had my wrist in his right grip as I kept crying begging for him to let me go. This was pure torture.

"Your hands which tried to open the door these ridiculous hands if I want I would have incinerate them. I'm being Kind to a worthless doll like you instead of being obedient you are causing trouble. You don't even deserve to roam around the room"

He pressed my hands on the fire causing my palms to burn it hurts like hell. Almost a third degree burn I'm sure.

You look at his face to see he is crying too.... Both are crying from different pains Difference is one is physical and other is mental. He looks as if he is the one getting the burns. He us feeling so many emotions at once. Anger, sadness, jealousy, disappointed. Too bad He only thinks of his emotions he doesn't give a fuck about how others think that's how his personality is.

He lets your hand goes as you're really on the verge of fainting. You fall on the ground as he kneels to match your height. He cups both of your cheeks while his thumb caress your cheekbones. He gives you a forehead kiss and stays there for a second. He breathes deeply and says.

"This is your fault you deserve this my doll. Next time it will be harder than this I promise"

You can't look at him as you faint in his arms while he carried you back to your room to medicate you. He lays your body on the bed while he begans to treat your palms and feet.

Now in present you look at your bandages. these burns was done by him two weeks ago. You stopped talking to him and he didn't seem to mind ofcourse thats what he wants. You wonder if your friends ever miss you. Jimin has told all of them that you both are shifting far away but he lied. Obviously.

Your friends warned to multiple times to not roam around him, to not trust him and what you did the complete opposite. You trusted him with you life and ended up here trapped. Your consciousness tells you "you are wrong your friends were right, they were always right. They knew there was something shady about the park jimin but you shushed them told them not to talk bad about him"

Ofcourse Jimin wasn't like this or he maybe was but just he used a facade to get you right into his trap. He took the perfect opportunity to make you fall for him. He also knew how you don't have a family who might look for you. Everything perfect.

As I'm scaning my room waiting for him to enter. During this time he comes in my room to feed me. The door unlockes and I freeze in my spot.

He enters and again locked the doors, his face is too serious as if he is mad somewhat. When he is around me he shows too much emotions.

His yes meet mine and he walks closer to sit near my bed on a chair. He settles the plates and glass down. He picks up the spoon to feed me, he never let's me eat remember I'm here like a non living thing.

As he is feeding me he keeps his eyes at me as if noticing my every move. I quietly eat what he is feeding because thats all for the day. I never spoke anything with him neither did he weird because he always talks to me sometimes less or more but he does. Today he didn't said a word as if his mind is busy somewhere else.

Once I'm done he cleans everything and gets the medical box to switch my bandages. He still doesn't say a word. I'm scared. What is he thinking.... his thoughts scare me.

When he is done with the bandages he caress my hand playing with my fingers. It's like he wants to say something but he is fighting himself.

"You know how insecure I feel when you prefer your friends over me? You make me insecure, you make me feel weak. You make Park Jimin do things for you no one ever did. That's how much you mean to me but you just want to get away from me. Are your friends really that precious to you and not me? Am I not even worth for your attention? Why are you so selfish only thinking about yourself? Why don't you ever once think about what I feel? Yeah my doll didn't you promised to understand me, to help me, to always support my decision?"

He is crying again.

"Jimin-ah please one time let me meet my friends one time ?! Then I'll listen to whatever you want I'll forever live here with you I promise"

"Promise and you? You seem to love breaking promises that you keep making them to me. I'm afraid this promise can't be accepted and about your friends-"

"Jimin you won't hurt them you promised me!"

"Doll what about the millions promise you broke I can't break one?"

"What happened my dolly? Why the sulky face? Ah I get it you miss your friends right? "

He leaned closer to me. So much that there was only some centimetres gap away from each other his lips grazed my ears so slightly giving me shivers. His heavy breath on my neck making me scared because I know he is planning something shady, he is having fun.

"Don't worry my doll I'll bring your friends here too so you won't feel lonely okay? But promise me you have to be a good girl hmm? Will you do that for me?"

My eyes turned teary watching him smirk at me while he pickes up the plates and glass. He leans one more time to give me a kiss on my forehead. His face agains hardens the same way he entered.

Before he was about to go I called him.

"Please Jimin let me go I'll never tell a single soul about this I'll forget all this just please let me go"

He turns around and stares at me like I was the one who did a crime. He looks dead serious as he glares at me with an unexplainable emotion. Love? Hatred? Anger? Care? I don't know all I know is his eyes making me understood that I'm stuck here. Forever.

His lips move to speak before he turns around and slams the door shut making me a crying mess. Making me regret my whole life.

"Should've listen to them Don't you know what I am?"

Renegade

Renegade : Traitor/ Betrayer Pairing : Jimin x Reader Word Count : 2.5k Summary : You got lied and trapped by your own beloved now it's on you how to escape him but it won't be easy as you think.

INSPIRED by the song 'renegade' by Aaryan Shah.

Warnings : ONLY ADULT AUDIANCE PERMITTED! MINORS PLEASE SKIP. TOXIC THEME, dark, yandere, obsessive, narcissistic personality, sociopath, manipulation, dollification. (nothing smutty), Mentions of fire, burns, torture, cuss words and more.

.·:*¨ ✘♚✘ ¨*:·.

Renegade : traitor/ betrayer

I woke up gasping for air, my breathing was not steady. I had a nightmare again it's like a daily routine at this point.

Every time it feels he'll be the cause of my death no not the romantic one. He really will be the cause of my death in reality.

He?

My boyfriend

Yes you read it correct.

My own boyfriend of one year

My eyes looked around the room. Nothing changed the same shabby, dark, dull place he has kept me here, he kept me here against my will.

Psychoish? Murderer? Maniac? Insane? Obsessed? Delusional? out of his head?

You don't know what he is. He claims to be your boyfriend but his behaviour it's like he owns you or something. And the way he calls you doll? Gives you creeps. Just by hearing his voice can make anyone have goosebumps within seconds. His voice is like a siren alluring, seductive and sexy.

After being trapped here for 6 months you know he is anything but humane, he has no compassion whatsoever no sympathy for anyone not even his own girlfriend. Do you think a sane boyfriend will keep his girlfriend trapped for so long?

He talks to you like you are a non living thing, like a doll hence the nickname. Being captive here for 6 months or more you don't know, it's been a while since you were free. No he doesn't allow clock, calendar, television, or anything in your room.

He expects you to be silent like a doll, no expression just completely quite. Ofcourse no human can be like that you did expressed so many emotions like anger, depressed, gloomy, miserable yet nothing worked on him. He lacked empathy. If you make him mad he is gonna teach you a lesson so you don't repeat the mistakes again ever and trust me he is very cruel. Especially with you since he thinks you are a doll and you aren't supposed to feel anything.

You tried to escape, multiple times but all went down in the dumps. He might lack empathy but he is very sharp and skilled related to technology. Every door in his house can open only with his fingerprints. This is completely secret but he has a tracker in your pendent. It can't be removed from your neck as it's short and made up of core hardened steel alloy.

You remember the last time you tried to escape. Jimin left the door of your room open, purposely to see what will you do. You had promised him that you won't try to escape anymore or do anything that makes him angry.

He went to the room next to you to see in his tablet what your next move will be. He smirks as he sees you walking towards the door almost in disbelief. You can't believe he left the door open. Is he testing me?

Your heart told you to stay but your mind told you to take a chance what if he actually by mistake left the door open? You don't want to waste any possible chances to escape.

You ran as fast as you could your pace has slowed because he gives you only limited food that is enough to keep you awake. You stand infront of the main door hoping for a miracle at this point. You know you are stupid but you still have silly hopes. Hopes to meet your friends. They are your only family. You don't have any blood related family your friends are your companions in your lonely life.

You think of ways to open the door as tears streamed down your face. You just miss your friends you want to go back to how it was, how happy you were. Somewhere the back of your mind tells you that you did this to yourself. You are the cause of your fate, you are the culprit.

"You need any help?" He asks as you freeze in your place. Should have listened to your heart and not went out of the room. You are terrified of him and shit scared to turn around and face him.

"You tried to go away from ME? I'm disappointed I thought you promised me that you won't fuck around" His voice deep and slow but I know how much mad he is.

"Since you broke your promise I don't think I should keep mine too. It's unfair right?"

He promised to not hurt you In return you promised to not run away.

You made a mistake. You agreeing to live with jimin was a mistake, you meeting jimin was a mistake, you being born was also mistake. You don't know your parents they just gave you up. You're not upset with them. Who would want to have a child like you. Jimin has messed up your brain. You couldn't think rationally and just keep blaming yourself because he blames you for his loss or if something bad happens.

He looks at you straight in the eye you don't what is going through his sick head. He sure is thinking of doing something fun. It might be fun for him but for you, you are done.

He drags you to the kitchen counter and makes you sit there. You could have ran away and hide in your room but do you really want to make him more mad. Mad than he already is?

He turns on the stove and puts a kettle filled with water. You're confused is he making tea right now?

He didn't even turned back to look at you he keeps looking at the boiling water as if it's calming him down but is he really calm or just so mad that he doesn't even want to face you.

You open your mouth to say something but no words are ready to escape. Do you really want to apologise to him? You brain tells you apologise if you want to escape and your heart tells you not beg from a deranged person like him. Is he even a person?

You are in your own thoughts when jimin is standing infront of you. Weird fact is he is not glaring at you. It's like he us trying to study what you were thinking about escaping.

Park Jimin never lets anyone know his true emotions he hides them covers them up. He thinks Everyone will try to hurt him because his thoughts are different they are far from humanity. They are filled with dark, toxic, twisted things no one could imagine.

But he lets you see his thoughts. Why? one might ask? Because he thinks you are doll a lifeless thing which can't speak. His only doll, the only one who can understand him. The only one who knows the real him. His doll

His eyes studies your face and a tear drops from his eyes.

"My pretty doll....are you a renegade?"

You are confused by this. Why is he suddenly calling you a traitor when he is the one who betrayed you trapped you here?

" In order to be a renegade, you have to be prepared to walk alone and follow your own path" His hands slightly brush against your calf then moves up carefully to your thighs as he grips them tightly.

"How will you walk alone when you are my doll? I'm the one who owns you, I am the one who controls you, I'm the one who knows the best for you, your goal is to satisfy me and only me."

He takes a the kettle in one hand and looks at me

"Your legs which carried you to the door should be cauterised" he says he pours the hot boiling water on my feets. I tried to scram away but his body infront of me kept me trapped to suffer in agony from the burning pain.

He grabbed by the nape and forced me to walk towards the stove I didn't noticed but the stove was on and the fire was still going on. I couldn't walk properly due to new developed burns but he kept dragging me there. I knew this might happen still I did this he is right I'm dumb to even try to escape.

He had my wrist in his right grip as I kept crying begging for him to let me go. This was pure torture.

"Your hands which tried to open the door these ridiculous hands if I want I would have incinerate them. I'm being Kind to a worthless doll like you instead of being obedient you are causing trouble. You don't even deserve to roam around the room"

He pressed my hands on the fire causing my palms to burn it hurts like hell. Almost a third degree burn I'm sure.

You look at his face to see he is crying too.... Both are crying from different pains Difference is one is physical and other is mental. He looks as if he is the one getting the burns. He us feeling so many emotions at once. Anger, sadness, jealousy, disappointed. Too bad He only thinks of his emotions he doesn't give a fuck about how others think that's how his personality is.

He lets your hand goes as you're really on the verge of fainting. You fall on the ground as he kneels to match your height. He cups both of your cheeks while his thumb caress your cheekbones. He gives you a forehead kiss and stays there for a second. He breathes deeply and says.

"This is your fault you deserve this my doll. Next time it will be harder than this I promise"

You can't look at him as you faint in his arms while he carried you back to your room to medicate you. He lays your body on the bed while he begans to treat your palms and feet.

Now in present you look at your bandages. these burns was done by him two weeks ago. You stopped talking to him and he didn't seem to mind ofcourse thats what he wants. You wonder if your friends ever miss you. Jimin has told all of them that you both are shifting far away but he lied. Obviously.

Your friends warned to multiple times to not roam around him, to not trust him and what you did the complete opposite. You trusted him with you life and ended up here trapped. Your consciousness tells you "you are wrong your friends were right, they were always right. They knew there was something shady about the park jimin but you shushed them told them not to talk bad about him"

Ofcourse Jimin wasn't like this or he maybe was but just he used a facade to get you right into his trap. He took the perfect opportunity to make you fall for him. He also knew how you don't have a family who might look for you. Everything perfect.

As I'm scaning my room waiting for him to enter. During this time he comes in my room to feed me. The door unlockes and I freeze in my spot.

He enters and again locked the doors, his face is too serious as if he is mad somewhat. When he is around me he shows too much emotions.

His yes meet mine and he walks closer to sit near my bed on a chair. He settles the plates and glass down. He picks up the spoon to feed me, he never let's me eat remember I'm here like a non living thing.

As he is feeding me he keeps his eyes at me as if noticing my every move. I quietly eat what he is feeding because thats all for the day. I never spoke anything with him neither did he weird because he always talks to me sometimes less or more but he does. Today he didn't said a word as if his mind is busy somewhere else.

Once I'm done he cleans everything and gets the medical box to switch my bandages. He still doesn't say a word. I'm scared. What is he thinking.... his thoughts scare me.

When he is done with the bandages he caress my hand playing with my fingers. It's like he wants to say something but he is fighting himself.

"You know how insecure I feel when you prefer your friends over me? You make me insecure, you make me feel weak. You make Park Jimin do things for you no one ever did. That's how much you mean to me but you just want to get away from me. Are your friends really that precious to you and not me? Am I not even worth for your attention? Why are you so selfish only thinking about yourself? Why don't you ever once think about what I feel? Yeah my doll didn't you promised to understand me, to help me, to always support my decision?"

He is crying again.

"Jimin-ah please one time let me meet my friends one time ?! Then I'll listen to whatever you want I'll forever live here with you I promise"

"Promise and you? You seem to love breaking promises that you keep making them to me. I'm afraid this promise can't be accepted and about your friends-"

"Jimin you won't hurt them you promised me!"

"Doll what about the millions promise you broke I can't break one?"

"What happened my dolly? Why the sulky face? Ah I get it you miss your friends right? "

He leaned closer to me. So much that there was only some centimetres gap away from each other his lips grazed my ears so slightly giving me shivers. His heavy breath on my neck making me scared because I know he is planning something shady, he is having fun.

"Don't worry my doll I'll bring your friends here too so you won't feel lonely okay? But promise me you have to be a good girl hmm? Will you do that for me?"

My eyes turned teary watching him smirk at me while he pickes up the plates and glass. He leans one more time to give me a kiss on my forehead. His face agains hardens the same way he entered.

Before he was about to go I called him.

"Please Jimin let me go I'll never tell a single soul about this I'll forget all this just please let me go"

He turns around and stares at me like I was the one who did a crime. He looks dead serious as he glares at me with an unexplainable emotion. Love? Hatred? Anger? Care? I don't know all I know is his eyes making me understood that I'm stuck here. Forever.

His lips move to speak before he turns around and slams the door shut making me a crying mess. Making me regret my whole life.

"Should've listen to them Don't you know what I am?"

just got narc abuse shit on my dash so heres a reminder that its not a real thing and does nothing but harm people who have to go through hell every day. narc abuse truthers genuinely self reflect instead of blaming everything bad ever on evil disorder

Inspired by @arrgh-whatever's post on helping ppl with BPD

Edit bc I forgot to add this: Being vulnerable means smth different for different ppl, something that could read as being vulnerable to you can read as just another Tuesday for someone else

[ID: a simply-drawn comic, narrated by a person coloured-in in pink.

Panel 1: The pink person narrates: "So there's a lot of "signs your ex is a narcissist and how to deal with them" and it's not very accurate. So here's how to actually "deal" with a narcissist from someone with narcissistic personality disorder."

Panel 2: This panel has the heading: "1. Supply." The pink person narrates: "People with NPD have very fragile self-esteem, and supply is what keeps us from having a mental breakdown. Supply can be many things, but often attention and praise are effective. Stuff like "Wow! That's super cool!!" can go a long way." A person is shown saying this to another person, who smiles.

Panel 3: This panel has the heading: "2. Criticism." The pink person narrates: "Oh boy. So narcissists take things as personal very easily. It's because if anyone contradicts our delusions that we have built our entire self-image on, it feels like you are attacking us as a person." There is an example shown, where one person says "hey, you were a bit too rude back there," but the other person hears "You're an awful dick no-one likes." The alternative manner of phrasing is suggested as "Hey, you were a bit too rude. You're cool, but some people took it poorly." The second person in this example thinks "I'm still a cool person. It's not my fault, but I can do things to be better." The narrator continues, "We don't really understand the concept of a harmless mistake."

Panel 4: This panel has the heading: "3. Boundaries." The pink person narrates: "With narcissists, setting down strict boundaries is very important. 1. Knowing we have hurt you because you didn't set down boundaries can really upset and annoy us because the delusions that we can do no wrong and know you best get broken. 2. If you let us break boundaries, it can lead us to see you as "weak" and devalue you. Communication is key."

Panel 5: This panel has the heading: "4. Anger." The pink person narrates: "So people with NPD tend to be prone to anger. This is a defense mechanism, because to us, it's either facing the inaccuracies of our delusions and having a mental breakdown, or blaming something else. We do not mean to lash out; we just don't have the skills to cope properly. You can help by: 1. Letting us express out emotions without judgement; 2. giving us praise or attention; and 3. Distracting us from what angered us." Each example of how to help is accompanied by a small cartoon.

Panel 6: This panel has the heading: "5. Other NPD things!" The pink person narrates: "'Love bomb, devalue, discard' is actually: we are genuinely obsessed with you and want you to recognize us as cool, we lose that obsession and move on, we feel threatened in some way and lash out. We can't really handle being seen as vulnerable. We take sympathy and empathy as pity and pity as you telling us we're weak. Not acknowledging we're being vulnerable and acting as if nothing is wrong can be helpful in these situations. People with NPD have a very warped view of reality. We do not mean to hurt you and often do not realise we have. Remember, this won't work for everyone, and talking is very important."

/end ID]

Ty to @aromanticsky for the id

This is so true! I love abnormal psychology because it dives into disorders that are not commonly talked about like schizophrenia, antisocial personality disorder, narcissistic personality disorder, dissociative identity disorder, etc. but besides that class, the disorders were never talked about in other classes. So I take the time to read about them. I don’t study psychology for the heck of it. I am truly interested in these mental disorders and had no idea that the lack of courses that specialize in them has led to a lack of actual specialists that can really help people.

one of craziest things about the mental health industry is that while getting their education, counselors and psychiatrists spend about two minutes learning about the "rarer" psychiatric conditions, such as schizophrenia, dissociative identity disorder, and narcissistic personality disorder. the justification behind not studying it is because so few people experience these conditions, and that mental health professionals who want to treat them have to specialize in them.

this is a problem because whether we like to believe it or not, mental health professionals are looking to make money, and there's not a lot of money in targeting a specific part of the population. additionally, people in rural or even a number of urban areas do not have access to specialist who need it. it's just like with any rare health diagnosis, unless you live in a a super densely populated area with a lot of resources, you're not going to get the help you need.

i can confirm this as someone who knows many mental health professionals, and they've been transparent for their lack of education (one even told me that they spent literally an hour in school learning about DID). i've never had the opportunity to meet with someone who specializes in my diagnosis (schizophrenia) due to where i live. and even if i did, i wouldn't have the money. specialists often do not cater to even the most basic insurance like medicaid or medicare, and the reality is that most people with rare mental diagnoses do not have the funds to pursue the help they need.

the point of this post is to bring awareness to some of the struggles that people with rarer psychiatric diagnoses face. we are quite frankly fucked over by the system, and moreover capitalism. please keep this in mind before judging us for "not seeking help" or telling us to "get therapy." we already have so much going against us, and face so much stigma.

Y’all in my psychology class we are talking about mental disorders this week. Tell me why my teacher showed a celebrity example of each disorder, and for NPD she showed HITLER. For aspd she showed Marilyn Manson! The rest was like Selena Gomez and shit. Is that really the best example of NpD and aspd? She said on Wednesday we will talk more about NPD.

Should I tell the class I have NPD? I don’t know what to say I want to defend myself but I suck at debates. Any advice?

I think you should definitely talk to your teacher about the whole hitler npd thing and maybe give them some better examples to use instead but that completely sucks and I think if you want to tell people, you don’t have to defend yourself, you didn’t chose to have npd

That’s a good idea. Yeah I’m really not that open about it irl becuase of the stigma. The issue with the celebrity thing is that there really ISNT any openly NPD celebrities, at least not in the way for example howie mandel is open about OCD. It’s sort of a loop. There is stigma so nobody says they have NPD, which means there are no good role models for NPD, and the stigma gets worse.

claire

I've met a lot of girls who weren't kind to themselves or others for whatever reason, I never tried to diagnose them  But there was one girl I got lost in her methodical behavior with seemingly no way out the worst of it is that I didn't want one This girl claimed me the night she kissed me while my wife was getting ready for bed and I didn't resist, I didn't want to. I knew from the beginning that she took what she wanted no matter the circumstances were. It was thrilling to be what she wanted to take and I was powerless to her allure from that night on. She made it clear that she would see me when she could I didn't mind carrying on at her convenience. She kept me close but made sure to keep a distance at the same time. She was training me so to speak and what made me a willing student I can't explain all these years later. Something about her made me desperate but she made it clear she was not interested in being anyone's anything. She never acknowledged our pseudo relationship as an affair. She made it clear she could take or leave me but I waited by the phone anyway. I was enamored with someone who wanted to make sure I knew I was expendable if she chose so but she always threw a rope to draw me in when she decided I would be the entertainment she wanted and to keep me wrapped up in her little games. I remember feeling grateful for time she gave me like a willing hostage uninterested in freedom. She knew how to keep me walking in the direction she chose was best for her and I never protested. When I finally told her how I felt about her she told me I was too much for her to handle and not worth any risks she'd have to take being together. She had no emotion in her voice and was very matter of fact. I had a moment of clarity and knew that my use for her had come to an end. I realized I was just something to pass the time.  I allowed myself to be what she wanted and lost sight of who I was before. I wasn't angry, I wasn't sad, but I was impressed to come to the understanding that I had been the victim of a narcissist. I drove away with all the dignity I could muster and began to think of where to begin forgiving myself for what I allowed myself to become. I realized I'd have to remember who I was before her and start there. She took what she could but the farther I got from her the more I realized she didn't take what made me who I was. I never spoke to her again.  Her words would do nothing but serve a purpose that benefitted her in one way or another. I'll forgive her for being sick but I won't forget losing myself in the sickness. When I stopped trying to make sense of everything was when I healed.  Holding onto the secret is the penance I pay but I will shoulder the burden so I never forget the hijacking of my being.

the creatures are partying ‼️‼️

And don't forget DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) "Normal" people won't like you if your disorder and or disability doesn't have an aesthetic they can use for their savior complex or if they can't coddle you. People with these disorders especially ones who are antisocial commonly known as (sociapaths/psychopaths, a term that should be used if the individual is okay with that description of themselves) are still demonized and thought as needing "fixing". Every person deserves to be supported in a way which bests suits their situation and that shouldn't be a polarizing stance.

seeing people say “narcissistic abuse” makes us so pissed off. you mean emotional and psychological abuse. please stop invalidating my abuse and others disorders by calling it “narcissistic abuse” or i will gently hit you in the face with a frying pan don’t even think about clowning in this post or i will eat your fingers.

A genuine question for people with ASPD or/and NPD

People with ASPD (antisocial personality disorder) or/and NPD (narcissistic personality disorder), I am genuinely curious about what you believe is the core part of aspd and npd, and how you see the world. How does it feel to have these disorders? How do people treat you? How do you treat people? How can one understand how it must be like for you?

These disorders are VERY stigmatised. Even actual medical journals and sites perpetuate this stigmatisation, and there's this whole thing of "narcissistic abuse" or that all people with antisocial personality disorder are serial killers. I simply refuse to believe this, it's not nuanced enough, and I genuinely seek to understand. And maybe other people may find this thread of posts and also understand.

So people with npd/aspd, add on, explain anything you wish people knew about your disorder.

Coming from a fellow person with a highly stigmatised disorder (schizophrenia) who wishes to understand.

question for my narcs, who have you told about your diagnosis? and has your family been shitty about it?

I'm asking because I'm trying to get diagnosed but I'm worried my family being shitty about it. like "you're manipulating me right now aren't you!!" is something I'm worried about hearing.

Unpopular opinion that might get me dragged, but tiktok really ruined some of y’all’s comprehension of mental illnesses.

Especially for cluster b personality disorders. Then throwing around terms like narcissist and bipolar and ocd like they’re words to describe the weather instead of actual conditions that change the way people interact with themselves and the world around them. Like no, Danielle, your sister isn’t a narcissist for not being able to listen to you every time you need to vent, she can’t be emotionally available at all times.

Long story short tiktok simultaneously demonized and romanticized mental illness and i think we as a whole should take a step back to actually look at what the hell we’re even talking about before using terms wrong so often that they lose their true meaning entirely

Just remember that i’m not talking about everyone on tiktok doing this, but god if it isn’t the majority of tiktok

Trapped in a narcissist’s web

In the quiet corners of your mind, where the shadows linger and the echoes of your thoughts dance in hushed whispers, you find refuge in the world of "you." For you, the word "I" feels heavy, burdened with the weight of truths you're not ready to confront.

You walk through life with a mask of resilience, concealing the cracks in your heart with smiles borrowed from the faces of strangers. Yet beneath the façade, lies a woman whose dreams are tangled in the threads of a love she cannot name.

He entered your life like a storm, his charisma igniting sparks of possibility in the darkest corners of your soul. His words were like honey, dripping from lips that promised a world of grandeur and adventure. You fell, not for him, but for the mirage of potential he held in his hands.

In the beginning, his charm was a siren song, luring you into the depths of his world. You believed in the magic of his illusions, ignoring the warning signs that flickered like distant beacons in the night. His ego cast a shadow over your existence, and yet, you found comfort in the warmth of his embrace.

But as the days turned into weeks, and the weeks into years, the cracks in his façade began to widen, revealing the darkness that lurked beneath. His love was a labyrinth of mirrors, reflecting only his own desires and needs. In his eyes, you were but a pawn in the game of his ego, a vessel to feed his insatiable hunger for admiration.

You struggled to find your voice in the midst of his thunderous presence, the word "I" caught in the tangled web of his manipulation. You yearned to break free from the chains of his control, to reclaim the pieces of yourself that had been lost in the illusion of his love.

And yet, despite the storm raging within your heart, a flicker of hope remains—a whisper of the woman you once were, before "you" became the shield that guarded your fragile spirit. Deep within the recesses of your soul, you know that happiness lies not in the shadows of his ego, but in the light of your own truth. And one day, you will find the courage to reclaim the word "I," and rewrite the story of your life in the bold strokes of self-love and acceptance.

Ford from Gravity Falls has NPD

Mabel Pines from Gravity Falls has NPD