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When brain's so silly that because you're in a horrible moment when you're scared for your life and you saw Spiderverse movie in the middle of that crisis moment you end up splitting a spiderverse subsystem to deal with that trauma and situation

Wanted to do something like this so.... I'll give it a try!!

🍄 - how did you get your system name? It was a name I made when we were like... 10 I think?, But I was planning on that when I was like 8. Some random alter discovered those old notes, see the context and almost everyone agreed it was a perfect and unique name for us, everyone liked it instantly except me, the honest, who coined the term

👾 - funniest out of context system quote? "Namelnom is the new plague but with systems" /ij

🎉 - favorite system holiday? Day of the death! (We're mexicans lol)

🌙 - do you have subsystems? We have many subsystems

☕ - what is switching like for you? It's a very strange feeling and process, also it depends a lot in the type of switch because we have different types based in the context of why we switched and how it felt. But mostly it's just like blinking with a fuzzy feeling, and then you're not in the front anymore or just pop out in there

💫 - are there any hobbies you all have? Impossible, but most of us like writing, though it depends in the alter what kind of things they'll write

💾 - what's your headcount? We're a fucking lot, we prefer saying more than 1000 and that's all, we gave up counting because of the horribly big amount of fragments we have

👻 - do your alters/headmates have different voices or speech patterns? Yes we do, the most dominant trait regarding voices is a more depth and low type of voice, although we have one alter that has a very notorious accent and speech pattern... But almost everyone learned to mimic the "base voice" so they can act be me, the host

🎨 - does anyone in your system like art? Starting with the host!! Most of the system frequent fronters like art in one way or another, especially in writing and drawing topics

🥀 - how easily does the system split? I'll say 50/50 because, we do have some resistance to a lot of specific events or stress, but when it comes to something we can't handle and just "idle dissociation" isn't enough or safe we tent to split a lot, normally between 5-20 just for one thing, and if multiple things happen... Well that's a story-

🦖 - is your system fictive-heavy? factive-heavy? neutral? Fictive heavy mostly, factives want to be more predominant but can't yet

🎵 - what songs remind you of your alters/headmates? Well a lot of songs and it depends a lot in which alter do we talk about and which alter is making the comparison

❓ - how much amnesia do you experience? A LOT, amnesia is one of our biggest problems, sometimes we need to go with someone who knows about our amnesia and go like "What's the body's name and age?" because we genuinely can't remember those things, amnesia is horrible TT

🎮 - what do your alters/headmates do in their free time? Mostly do their hobbies. In the most common hobbies or free time activities of the systems are: Writing, reading, watching videos, and sometimes drawing

🪐 - what is headspace like for you? For me as host is pretty fuzzy and difficult to see correctly, I even have a censored version of the visualization because it would make me feel horribly bad if I saw it as it is, is just like... A white space with some random buildings ig?

🍐 - are there any non-human alters/headmates? Like 98% of the system is non-human

🪫 - what do you all do to recharge? Lay on bed and sleeping not always work, being in the cell phone or laptop and just chilling seeing videos is the best way we can recharge energy and, at the same time, lose it

🌧️ - how does the system cope with stress? Mostly through dissociation and switchs, when it comes to other methods are... Not very happy and healthy ones TT

🔦 - how did you discover your system? A psychiatrist told us the most probable thing is that we were a system and gave us medical recognition, after that is all history... /neu

🌟 - do any alters help out with school/work? There's supposed to be academic alters to help me during school but they're too lazy to front, or maybe they're dormant, who knows

🌊 - who are your frequent fronters? Me as the host (Namelnom), Namely, Dian, Daniel, SImply Plural, idk I tend to forget 😭

🎁 - have you ever bought your alters/headmates things? Yes! Even if I was in denial of being a system and ignoring them I tend to bought and ask for things saying "is for me" when I don't have memories of using those things, and if I do, I have emotional amnesia

☘️ - what are your introjects/fictives usually sourced from? Normally collective interests/likes or things that we see, it's not like a most prominent kind of source I think?

💬 - free space!! tell me about something! Idk, this system is wild

system ask meme

🍄 - how did you get your system name?

👾 - funniest out of context system quote?

🎉 - favorite system holiday?

🌙 - do you have subsystems?

☕ - what is switching like for you?

💫 - are there any hobbies you all have?

💾 - what's your headcount?

👻 - do your alters/headmates have different voices or speech patterns?

🎨 - does anyone in your system like art?

🥀 - how easily does the system split?

🦖 - is your system fictive-heavy? factive-heavy? neutral?

🎵 - what songs remind you of your alters/headmates?

❓ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🎮 - what do your alters/headmates do in their free time?

🪐 - what is headspace like for you?

🍐 - are there any non-human alters/headmates?

🪫 - what do you all do to recharge?

🌧️ - how does the system cope with stress?

🔦 - how did you discover your system?

🌟 - do any alters help out with school/work?

🌊 - who are your frequent fronters?

🎁 - have you ever bought your alters/headmates things?

☘️ - what are your introjects/fictives usually sourced from?

💬 - free space!! tell me about something!

Thinking about doing a blog to talk about a personal project system related we have seen we're like 8 years old but then I remember it would have almost the same name of this blog and people wouldn't be so interested so... We don't make it

Sad me

Alter existing denial? Nah bro, I'm gonna go with

"I know this alter fragmented to the point he doesn't exist anymore, but I won't accept it and I can't deal with his lost so I'm just gonna deny he's not more here and pretend he still is the principal host"

I just realize the reason why I didn't like to investigate or talk about CDD but I used to have that as an hyperfix is because of splitting

I split an alter who was so so fixated on the topic that every friend we have and even in the own system we called them "The CDD master", now he splitted and it's not here anymore, and I fused with some of their fragments and I'm again fixed on this topics

This alter kept my hyperfix when it split... HE TOOK PART OF MY IDENTITY TO FORM HIS 😭

Bro's sucking my hyperfix/special interest

This is just another prove that alters don't make more identities, is just dividing and having less identity distributed in several parts

I NEED A SYSTEM RIVAL

But one that doesn't cancel me from false stuff and then dehumanize me, but more one like the post description!!!

WHO WANTS TO BE MY SYS RIVAL??? >:33

“I need system friends” this, “who wants to be system friends” that…

Who wants to be system rivals. We will push eachother to be better people and our finale battle will be LEGENDARY.

Ask game :D 🛰️☄️💫

Ask game here

🛰️-Do you have a large headcount?

Yeah I do, like a very big amount, we gave up trying to count how many we are, we just say 1300+ now and that's it, the bad part about being a polyfrag sys ig

☄️-Is your system neurodivergent?

Yep! Not only because CDDs are neurodivergent in the first place but also we have another neurodivergent disorders like adhd, tho we won't be sharing all of them here lol

💫-Do your littles use 'little-speech?'

The ones who have fronted not really, they do speak like a kid in terms of what kind of words they might use, but they don't do like a "uwu" or baby talk one

Thanks for asking :DD

Ask game! 💙📺🍃🌈🍬 /not forcing all the questions

Ask game here

💙 - Do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

Well it depends on what you see as switching. For example a new alter coming to front or having access to the body is consider switching well almost daily more than one time, but if you ask about switching like me, the host, leaving and another alter taking the principal fronting control it can be very rare and take long times

It mostly depends on triggers, sometimes it can feel like being P-DID but I know it's not because I can leave front and I'm not always conscious, but I don't tend to leave front or the main control of the body lmao

📺 - Do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

Normally nope, my system needs to be more good with me if they want more gifts. If drawings are consider a gif well I kinda do it

One time I make our grandma buy a toy kitchen for one little... He never fronted again so yeah I don't buy gifts since then 😭

🍃 - Do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

Yes, tho we're not sure why this happens ??? Sometimes I, the host, can't even enter there LMAO

I guess it depends in a lot of factors that I'm not very aware of, idk

🌈 - Do you get frontstuck often? What do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

EVERY FUCKING TIME

I cannot front without being frontstucked and IT SUCKS HORRIBLE, like the only way for me leaving the front is being so triggered and in a very delicate/dangerous state so another one needs to front, but outside that it feels almost IMPOSSIBLE for me to leave the front

If not with bad triggers and crisis I can't un-stuck myself... I hate here

🍬 - What’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

I have a list, hold on

"I'm gonna sue you for being the host" "Namelnom, tf is a subsystem of yous? I won't be adopting them all, With Spider-Namel is enough" "Sorry I fucked your parent... Also I'm you mom now-" (She was my aunt before being my mom ??? 😭) "You unfurrified physically but not mentally, fucking furry"

My system is wild LMAO

Thanks for the asks son :D

Ask game! 💚🎞️📺🎙️

The ask game here

💚 - Do you have a high or low split tolerance?

Low one, WE FUCKING SPLIT A LOT FOR STUPID REASONS I HATE IT, STOP BRAIN

🎞️ - Do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

We use both, we also use terms that we coined for ourselves like persmo as an alternative for alter and doemo as an alternative for inner world/headspace, we like more the ones we made ourselves

I think the problem is the medical roles/terms feel too formal and bad for us, and the community ones we feel too disconnected and uncomfy using them because we're not that part of the community and we don't like it that much so... It's we use both because we're lazy and explaining things

The 📺 I already answer it in the previous answer :D

🎙️ - Does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

It kinda does, like 50/50, most of us enjoy almost all the music types so we can listen to almost everything, our favorite songs and artist are different, but between frequent fronters we have a similar, but no the same, music taste

But we do have different music tastes and preferences lol

It was a real roller coaster, it was a mix of a bunch of this things and similar things... It was wild because I tend to forget about it and till I accept it well I remember all those past semi-discoveries (I call them like that because I was aware of the disorder but not the system... Does that make sense??)

This is regardless of if you are self diagnosed or professionally diagnosed.

New terms

Have you ever had this feeling of being dysphoric because you're an alter? Or because you have a CDD? A similar feeling to that? Do you use terms like alter/front dysphoria because you don't have a better way of calling it?

Well we made terms that are similar to dysphoria and dysmorphia to describe the unique and exclusive experiences some CDDs can have regarding this topics/feelings!

Is a big list of terms, all of them in some kind of way describes this feeling but have their unique difference, but you can use any of this for a general experience even if it's outside some of this specifications stated in the meaning

THIS TERMS ARE EXCLUSIVE TO CDD, NO ENDOS CAN USE IT PLEASE, THIS IS TO DESCRIBE EXPERIENCES OF A DISORDER

Behold the long post explaining each of the terms

Dysoma

General meaning: Describe the feeling of the body being bad (in meaning isn't how you want it to be) or hard to have (in the meaning of being hard to be in that body because isn't yours)

In depth meaning: This terms is to describe the feeling of the body being wrong, the body not being "good enough" just because isn't yours, it is hard to see and live with the body because it feels off, it doesn't feel yours, it's bad to your eyes and can give you discomfort because is not your body, the general negative and maladaptive feeling surrounding your body and not being able to feel it yours because is different from your body

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word soma (body)

Dysdokein

General meaning: Describes the feeling of having a hard/bad time because of pretending to be and appearing as someone you're not, this can be in many things not only with the body appearance

In depth meaning: This term is to describe that feeling of uncomfort of having to pretend you're someone else because you're in someone else body and life, people will see you as the person you're not but you have to pretend to be and it's something distressing, this feelings isn't completely about the body feeling off because isn't yours but rather you feeling off, bad and hard to keep up an external life and body so you feel a stranger because of it

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word dokein (to seem, to appear, to think, to imagine)

Dysproso

General meaning: Describes the feeling of having a bad or hard time to keep up the "acting" of being someone you're not like using a mask or custom of someone else

In depth meaning: This term is to describe the distress caused by having to act and present as someone you're not and having to use their face and life as your new face, this "mask", body and life that you have to deal with gives you the off feeling, the sense of you're not yourself and an uncomfortable time, people referring you and seeing you as that other someone makes you feel disconnected from yourself and like you don't have control in your own life

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word prosōpon (face, mask)

Dysalotriu

General meaning: Describes the feeling of having a hard and bad time because you suffer the life or someone else and not yours because this isn't your life nor body

In depth meaning: This term is to describe the state of grief and concern regarding having the life of someone else, you have to deal with the problems and life of someone else an that gives you a hard time feeling yourself with the life and body of someone else, seeing that you're another and not you gives you a shock that can affect you negatively, it is based more in the sense of external life and the distress it gives you rather than the actual masking, body or similar feelings of not being you

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word allotríou (of another, foreign) [Yes I changed the word to be more short and pleasant to the term]

Dysantanhetro

General meaning: Describes the feeling of not being able to see your own reflection in the mirror but of someone else, this can also means that you can't see yourself within the body

In depth meaning: This term is to describe the distress caused by the body not being as you want, this is triggered when you see that is way different from yours or when you look at your reflection/shadow you see someone else and not you, this can also be accompanied by a defensive way of trying to modify the body to resemble more of your look and not being able to handle properly and in a adaptive way the different body and appearance

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek words antanáklasis (reflection) and héterou (of another, other) [Yes I changed and mixed the word to be more short and pleasant to the term]

Dysantilep

General meaning: Describes the feeling of a state of depersonalization that cause a hard or bad time related on the way of perceiving because of the body

In depth meaning: This term is to describe a specific kind of depersonalization related to the grief, problem and disconnection to the body, life and the way others see you because of all those things aren't about you but someone else. Being aware or entering in a state of consciousness about the body and life not being yourself but someone else makes you enter in this kind of depersonalization and it's hard to keep up because of it, you can feel other things alongside this depersonalization state or you might not feel anything outside disconnection and uncomfort because of it

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word antilēpsis (perception, grasp)

Dysapopro

General meaning: Describes the feeling of having a hard and bad time of keeping up the body persona because you feel too disconnected and separate from it

In depth meaning: This term is to describe the problems, distress and discomfort being a "persona" of someone else brings you, is a creeping feeling of discomfort, fear and detachment of not being yourself and never being able to be you, the fear and anguish of trying to be you, make the body look like you but not being really able to be you because of this persona it exists around the body

Etymology: It comes from the mix of the greek prefix dys- (bad, hard) and the greek word apo (away, off) and próposo (face, persona) [Yes I changed and mixed the word to be more short and pleasant to the term]

This are all the terms I made to describe my experiences, I never shared them because of the kinda weird names, but if you like them, feel connected and described you can totally use them! I'll feel kinda honored if people started using this terms to describe such a common feeling and experience that didn't have a name up this day

Any questions or comments regarding this terms I'm open to hear them all!

(Sorry for the tag, if you want me to remove it I will do it but tell me, I tagged you because you're the main reason I did this long post @system-cypress)

We have the common introjects out there in our system

The ones who are kinda strange but we're ok because they look cool, like a internet introject? Yeah it's weird but it looks hell good so it's not that bad yk

And then...

THEN WE HAVE THIS MF-

WE NEEDED TO MAKE THIS PFP BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T WANTED THE SP LOGO JUST PUT IN THEIR PROFILE

WE HAVE A FUCKING BALL OF SP STOOOP 😭

⋆ System ask game: Polyfrag edition ⋆

Remember you don't have to answer all nor give extra information, simple yes or no is enough, this is just for fun and for anyone who wants to do it

Endos this isn't for you, exclusive with those who a CDD and are polyfragmented

🍄- Do you feel comfortable with the term polyfrag?

🌹- How long have you been knowing you're polyfrag?

🥀- Did you pass for the "I think I'm OSDD/P-DID" phase a lot of polyfrag systems seem to have?

🍁- Do you use other system terms besides polyfrag or just that? (Ex. C-DID, RAMCOA system, etc.)

🍂- Do you have really problematic alters that aren't allowed to front because of it?

🌰- Do you have multiple hosts, one host or none host?

🍠- Is the front always/a lot of the time crowded?

🥕- Have you ever coin terms just for your system? Or you just use community ones?

🥜- If you have one, do you have a complex inner world?

🧅- Do you have multiple layers?

🥔- Do you have in-sys relationships? Like family, partners, etc. If do, you want to talk about some of those relationships? (The last part is optional)

🌻- Do you have an internal life? In the sense of alters being able to simulate life within the inner world

🎑- Do you have multiple alters with the same name?

🌾- Are amnesiac barriers a big problem with you? For communication, healing, normal day, etc.

🌱- Are you something heavy? (Ex. introject, trauma holder, non-human, etc.)

🌵- Do you have low or high split tolerance? Do you split more than two at the same time?

🌴- Does being polyfrag have ever made you feel invalid?

🍃- You have subsystems and/or subsystems?

🌿- If you have subsystems, do you have container subsystems?

🎍- Do you have other names for formation/fragmentation besides alter and fragment? (Having more categories for that)

🌳- Do you have a hierarchy or government internally? You don't have to talk about it if you don't feel comfortable

🌲- Do you experience more blackout or grayout amnesia?

🎋- Free question! Tell us something about you, your system and/or your experience as a polyfrag system, there's no rule here, just keep safe important info, share what you like!