Traumagenic Osdd - Tumblr Posts
Hello!
Hi there! I'm Jewel (they/them.) I'm transitioning to be the host of my osdd system and I wanted to make a tumblr because the other host seemed to have a lot of fun with it. I've slowly been taking more and more time fronting and revealing the work I've been doing behind the scenes so that the other host didn't freak the absolute fuck out. I don't have a lot of friends I can talk to about systems so it would be really cool to find fun mutuals and friends. my dms are super super open :)
We're in recovery from addiction/alcoholism, which has been a journey for sure. I like to listen to music and read fanfictions of fandoms im not in lol.
Anywaysss. It's honestly pretty lonely right now because only one other person (other than our therapist) knows about us irl. This is me shamelessly begging for friends and people to talk to.
Something honestly pretty cool to see is how I've genuinely been helping the system. We got a promotion at work, which we got denied a couple weeks ago because we had some things we were struggling with but ive tried really hard to improve them and it's paid off. I've been encouraging Q (my kinda co host) to do more things that are good for him and he actually did some amazing work and avoided a relapse last night! I'm honestly just really proud of all of us for making progress, even in things that arent therapeutic.
Carving out space in my life
A couple months ago I started hosting more and kind of transitioning our old host out. He's not very well mentally and he wasn't really able to function. We as a system decided that I should take more responsibilities on and front more to take a load off of him and to generally improve our well being. The old host was struggling pretty badly with our addiction and other self-destructive habits.
I've been hosting pretty much most of the time now and I've sort of slowly gotten people in our life more accustomed to me. It's hard though, because I'm kind of nonbinary and more gender fucky than the old host, and it's hard to explain to people why I do the things I do. We all basically came to an agreement that it was okay if I wanted to stop taking testosterone because we hadn't taken it in a while because we just kept forgetting. We're on birth control so we don't get our period anymore anyways, which was the big issue for us.
I've started to kinda make more of a space for myself and take up space and the old host isn't really taking it very well. I created a tumblr account for myself first, and logged into it on the app on our phone. It's small, I know, but it's honestly pretty important to me. I also put up some new decorations in our room, just kind of generally acclimating to the world and making it better for myself because I'm spending so much more time in the front.
Our system pretty much functions by letting the host make decisions on who we hang out with, the classes we take, and the people we date. I'm starting to make more decisions like that and although this is how we've literally always done it, the old host isn't happy about it. I guess this is to be expected, but still. I'm even trying to do it slowly so he has time to get used to it. It's nice to actually feel okay in the world and to feel independent.
Hello! I'm Grace. I'm 7 and im our systems only little and also I'm bored. I guess I want to introduce myself and maybe make friends. I've been out like a lot this week and maybe will be out more and im lonely and want to talk to people. I think ive been around the longest out of anyone except maybe Hook. I like old fairies like vintage and kitties and lego friends. I sometimes act older but i dont like to be treated like it because im 7.
- Grace
me: hey brain can you make something other than twinks please
brain: oh? More Twinks?
me: Backspace Backspace Backspace Backspace
My brain at six years old when something traumatic happened
Fell Palette art !! He's an alter in the sys too fun fact, and thats how he looks [drawn by our Fell Goth fictive]
Design update & ideas call
Calling all our system friends: if you could have a funny or serious DID/OSDD related sticker, what would you have on it?
Symbols, designs, words, phrases etc (curse words are okay, comments on endogen systems are okay) - go ham on it, we need as much inspo as possible <3
We've officially finished designs for The Multiplicity Network's logo, poster, and a lanyard for the conference (VoicesUnited)!
Unfortunately, I can't show the full designs until after the assignment is submitted in November, or we'll get pinned for plagiarism..but here's a blurred version of the final!
My brain at six years old when something traumatic happened
*forgets to update SimplyPlural/Octocon because I assumed I was still fronting instead of having blacked out for six hours*
a quick poem about our host's experience being diagnosed with DID
Diagnosis A pile of papers rest on my lap My history laid bare Yet it reads like fiction
I peer at the white-coat and tilt my head ‘Surely, this is a story?’ He shakes his head and explains
My mind fractured Far before I was old enough to remember it He explains my mind is in little parts ‘alters’ he calls them
The definition reverberates through my consciousness “Alter: a change in character or composition, typically in a comparatively small but significant way.”
I shake my head, a laugh bursting from my chest Humorous; stop messing with me He frowns
‘I’m not.. you have a personality disorder’
If I have a personality disorder, the world is flat He hands me another leaflet Dissociative identity disorder, formerly Multiple personality disorder—
my eyes blur before I can read the rest suddenly it makes sense every day, you’re a different side shame washes through my body
he says they have names and suddenly i feel ill
A kindly voice murmurs reassurance I can’t see her But she’s as real as my beating heart "Welcome to the family, kid"
*cutely redesigns your DID flag*
Playing around with our DID design assignment, tonight, and I made a thing...?
Look, it's just for funsies (and the assignment), I'm not expecting everyone to suddenly use my flag lol but I'd like to know, what do y'all think?
Coined for DID/OSDD (ie. complex dissociative disorders).
I took inspiration from the existing DID/OSDD symbolism in the Venn diagram (which is also a logo I'm using in the assignment). The colour scheme is inspired by the existing orange for DID, and the teal used in the OSDD flag coined by a deleted user on r/OSDD (and I've always thought of DID/OSDD as teal and orange!). The stripes are uneven to represent the fluctuating nature of having a CDD system, alters. The greenish-brown stripe is for amnesia and jarring day-to-day interruptions. There's a bit more meaning in it, but I can't remember right now.
I did a reverse image search with it, and it seems to be rather close to the pro non-traumagen "PMSC&" flag (according to pluralpedia..) and a little close to "venngender" which I hadn't heard of either until literally now... but…. apart from that little overlap… I think it's okay! Besides, there are only so many colour combos in the world!
Hope you like it!!
I can't tell anyone not to interact with this post: this is the internet, after all.. but we would appreciate it if it remained in DID/OSDD/trauma system spaces only.
sex master
fun fact about me i’m actually part of a system woohoo also this isn’t even my blog hi my names finn but some people call me spencer anyways anyyywayys thought that’d be an interesting fact about us and i guess its kind of relevant since it affects our daily life ooojjjj