Abuse and trauma survivor - these are my stories in no particular order. Content warnings and triggers everywhere. Adult blog; 18+ only.
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To Be Fair, She Opened The Door For This Conversation...
To be fair, she opened the door for this conversation...
I'm currently calling out that woman I was doing a thing with in May for hurting me.
Who the fuck am I and what have I done with me?!
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Uninstalled. Not ready.
I’ve just impulsively installed Tinder. Someone talk me out of this.
All I can think of when I’m trying to add the bio is: Hi, I’m broken. Don’t make sudden movements when we’re in close proximity. I may lose my shit if we have sex. I will probably cry hard for no apparent reason. In public. And there’s a 60% chance I’ll ghost you without warning. Oh and I like hiking, reading and food n shit.
I’ve just impulsively installed Tinder. Someone talk me out of this.
“But you seem so put together.”
I’m not going to lie. When I tell people that mentally I am a pile of disaster, there are plenty who are shocked.
It makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time. You all get to see that I am actually a human puddle, and not at all put together - so I laugh.
But it also puts more pressure on me to keep up the facade, because apparently it’s working. And that is just exhausting.
Me, in November: What do you want for xmas this year?
Him: You don't make enough money to get me anything I'd want this year. Don't get me anything, seriously. Just do me a favour and save money.
Him, on December 24th: ... I don't see any presents with my name on them... Typical.
Me: ... But you said...
Him: You're so selfish. I really can't believe you. You don't deserve any of the things I got you. You're literally the worst.
Humiliation in parts - Part One
TW - reference to a sexual act under the cut. Also, just... way too much information about me. There is a lot of things I won’t be tagging here.
In the thirteen years he and I were together I think I can count on one hand, maybe two, the number of times he performed oral. Yeah. And when he did it wasn’t exactly ‘enthusiastic.’ He tinkered just enough to make us both uncomfortable, and give him the gall to say say “but what about that Tuesday last month?” when he was making some unrealistic demand.
I never pressured him to do it, hell, I didn’t even ask for it. I wouldn’t want him to do something he had an aversion to (though I’m sure we could speculate why he didn’t want to do it). However he ensured that it was never something I actually wanted or asked for.