Looking For A Partner

Looking for a partner

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Please read all the way for my boundaries, criteria, and who I have picked as candidates. Thank you.

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So, we all know at how there's been a ton of grooming allegations being thrown against people right?

And we all know how when you point out any flaws in the accusations people will send an entire hate mob against you right?

Honestly, fuck it and fuck you society.

atp, I'm already mentally fucked anyway, so let's find me a partner! I'm sick of being an incel anyway.

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Here is some of my criteria:

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must be around 18 to 39 years old (NO OLDER OR YOUNGER THAN THAT)

Can be any gender (though i'd prefer anyone that's AMAB since I don't know if AFAB to AFAB sex is gonna work out for me)

Must be able to give me as much attention as they can (with the exception of work, school, or any important things that will deter me from being able to speak with you)

Must have knowledge about BPD and how it works (because I don't want to deal with someone getting mad at me over showing a BPD trait. If you don't already know much I recommend researching it before coming to me.)

Is comfortable with sex or sexual topics (bonus points if you talk about sexual topics a lot)

Must have similar interests (I like five nights at freddy's and minecraft :> Tony crynight is my special interest)

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Here are some of the candidates I chose based off this criteria (though someone else can always ask me out if they meet this criteria too :>):

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Tony Crynight (30) (to make up for all the time he's been ignoring me)

YandereDev (36)

Synnibear03 (21) (she seems nice :3)

PumpkinTheGentleman (19) (I love his art and he's funny)

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If you're one of the lucky people who are on this list or meet the criteria above that list, please DM me!

Discord: Nozomi Kaizoku #0644 (though you can DM me from any of my other socials as well)

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My boundaries:

[Note: when I split from someone, my views on a person turn negative when they were originally positive, and I have a tendency to block the person in question and refuse to unblock them until after I have gone out of a split. Either I love someone or hate them.]

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Please use he/they/it pronouns for me (most basic boundary)

If I'm discussing something opinion based (like online drama), don't switch up on me mid-discussion, it will cause me to split from you. It will come off as invalidation, which is extremely triggering to me.

If you need to criticize my behavior, please be gentle about it. I struggle with handling criticism due to trauma (though I am working on it in therapy), and it can be triggering for me sometimes.

PLEASE let me know of any boundaries you want me to follow IN ADVANCE, and if I break a boundary on accident, correct me. I had an issue with this regarding an ex-friend in the past and it (alongside the witch up) resulted in me going into a crisis (and losing that friend of course).

Please use tone tags when discussing anything with me. I won't immediately know your tone, and I will think you're mad at me if I perceive it that way, which can be distressing for me.

Please don't actively ignore me or refuse to acknowledge my existence until I go into a crisis or if I start to display harmful behaviors. This will cause me to believe that you don't care about how I actually feel and will cause me to split.

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That's about it! hope you're interested!

10/16/2024

I wanna save up some money for something, but idk what to save up for.

I don't have a job, but my mom pays me for doing chores around the house, and so far, I have $21.84 in physical money (dollar bills and coins)

Here are some of the things I'm wanting to get (including amount I want to save up and why I want it):

* A new computer and a capture card - so I can start doing live streams on youtube and make money off of that (since the computers I do have are actual dog shit for streaming and i wanna make money off of that). I already have a switch so I can stream minecraft if I wanted. (around $100-$500 depending on the quality, brand and any features I want. I am wanting a windows 10 computer btw, fuck windows 11)

Some makeup stuff - yes, I wear makeup sometimes lol (about $20-$30 depending on what I decide to get, including a vanity mirror with lights so I can see wtf i'm doing)

Some new clothes - specifically from hot topic because I don't have a lot of alt clothes at home T-T (about $200 since hot topic is expensive as fuck, at least here in colorado)

* some anime figurines - I'm wanting to start a collection since I think a lot of the anime figurines are really cool and also I got nothing better to do with my life lmao (check out my intro post on @nozomi-anime if you wanna see my current collection) (about $100 since at the place I want to get mine at, they're really expensive due to the quality and value, and this doesn't include shelving btw since my dad can help out with that since he's a carpenter and works with wood shit)

* Some tony crynight merchandise - I know I'm in a split with him atm but honestly fuck it. (about $50 since I only want the "in my heart" mug to display on my shelf and maybe the red wolf skull shirt so I can style it with my other clothes lmao)

An aromantic and nonbinary flag - I'm pansexual, aromantic and nonbinary, and the only flags I have are the pansexual and trans flag (and a small paper aromantic flag I made myself), so it'd be nice to have the other flags :> (about $20-$50 depending on the quality and brand)

Either a bike or a skateboard - just so that I can get around my neighborhood more easily (I hate walking ;-;) ($50-$100 depending on what I decide to get, the accessories I want and the quality)

A canopy bed frame - The sun's so fucking bright when I wake up in the mornings and I hate it, and my sister won't let me have my old bed frame (fucking asshole...) ($200 since I found one I liked)

Other bedroom stuff - I was gonna buy some while I was redecorating my room but never went through with it, and some of my furniture in my room is... not in the greatest condition, let's just say. (about $1k since furniture is SUPER expensive)

The ones with a * on them are the ones I REALLY wanna save up for, but I don't really know which on out of all of these would be a good investment.

people when mentally ill person is acting like theyre mentally ill

hehe real

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it feels like everyone has their own friend groups and im just a dog that trails behind

REAL, and it gets worse when they actually confirm your beliefs by getting mad at you for having that belief in the first place.

i hate that BPD gives me such a lack of emotional permanence.

you can spend hours describing the ways in which you care about me, yet the moment you stop my brain will immediately decide you hate me and are destined to leave me.