I Wish He Would Cut Me. I Want Him To Hold My Wrist Tenderly And Slide The Blade Through My Veins As

i wish he would cut me. i want him to hold my wrist tenderly and slide the blade through my veins as he kisses my forehead and praises me for taking it so well. maybe he'd even wash and bandage them afterward and give me aftercare. i want to experience that intimacy of inflicting and receiving pain together. i want i want i want

Pro-@n@ Recovery Youtubers ❤︎₊ ⊹

i dont know who needs this, but take this is as a sign if you have been looking for one. here are some of my favorite recovery youtubers:

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Abi Jones

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Grace Tutty

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Kayla Rose

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Megsy Recovery

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Ro Mitchell

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ The Real Rapunzel

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Veronica Wright

Please stay safe everyone. this disorder is such a cognitive dissonance battle. I am aware of how hypocrital I am right now, but if I can be a voice of reason for a single minute, then I will.

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♡ Red Velvet Diet 🧁

Now, you may be thinking, "a dessert themed diet? isn't that counter-productive?" BUT HEAR ME OUT. To me, desserts are more so representations of things rather than fuel. Something rich and pretty to look at.

❤️ Guidelines:

- embrace your inner sensuality, you are a gorgeous being who deserves to be pampered

- prioritize skincare

- spend time on your makeup, try leaning for a darker smokier look if you'd like to try something new! (emphasize the eyes)

- wear red, brown, and cream colors

- wear red velvet scented products or caramel, chocolate, and vanilla scents

❤️ Diet:

- enjoy warm drinks such as coffee and tea (add cinnamon)

- indulge in red fruits such strawberries, raspberries, etc.

- eat symbols of sensuality like figs, dark chocolate, chilli peppers, avocado, bananas, etc.

- snack on light cheese if feeling hungry, but other than that try to avoid snacking

- embrace liquid fasting

idea credits: @honeysugarfree

Stocking Anarchy diet.⋆‧˚ʚ🍰ɞ˚‧⋆.

(Inspired by the great @honeysugarfree.)

This is a Stocking Anarchy inspired 4n4 diet, following her extreme diet in ep 7 when she was trying to lose weight.

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You notice you've gained weight. That's the worst thing that can ever happen! You make a plan to lose weight, just like stocking.

Rules : ༄˖°.🐈‍⬛.ೃ࿔*

5.000-10.000 steps a day

600 cal max a day

Routine : ༄˖°.🐈‍⬛.ೃ࿔*:･

You wake up at 4:00 am- 6:00 am, you get out of bed, dress into a comfortable (prefferably gothic) workout outfit and start!

Workout: .🕸️.ೃ࿔*:･ 1. 100 jumping jacks 2. 20 push-ups 3. 20 plank up and down 4. 20 hip twists 5. 20 sit ups 6. 50 crunches 7. 100 squats 8. 100 jumping jacks

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Wow.. that was tiring, but it dosent matter you need to get that scale down! Do a weight in, have that as a motivation. Time to eat something. Stocking loves sweets, so do you. But sweet things are so high calorie.. here are some options!

Breakfast: .🕸️.ೃ࿔*:･ Option 1. Alpro vanilla soy milk (142 cal) Option 2. Alpro chocolate soy milk (142 cal) Option 3. Monster Energy Ultra zero (11 cal) Option 4. Monster Energy Rosa zero (14 cal) Option 5. Fitbakes Cookiecream bar (63cal)

Now you go about your day, put on some gothic but cute makeup, if you go out put on a lolita gothic dress or shirt and dont forget some striped socks or stockings.

When you get back from where you were (school, work ect.) get into more comfortable clothes, put on a face mask and do a leg workout.

Workout: .🕸️.ೃ࿔*:･ 1. 50 leg raises (R) 2. 50 leg raises (L) 3. 100 squats 4. 50 under leg raises (R) 5. 50 under leg raises (L) 6. 100 air bycicles 7. 1 min sumo squat

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You sit down to study/read or complete anything. You watch a horrow movie or watch a true crime video after you finish, you get hungry.. time to eat, if you need to. Preferably don't.

Lunch: .🕸️.ೃ࿔*:･ Option 1. Low cal soup (100 cal >) Option 2. Monster zero ultra (11 cal) Option 3. Cup a soup-chicken (69 cal) Option 4. Protein bar (200 cal > ) Option 5. Cup of rice (250 cal) Option 6. Apple (95 cal)

After that you sit down.. light some candles and read a book. You do your skincare, nails ect. After that its time to workout.

Workout: .🕸️.ೃ࿔*:･ 1.https://youtu.be/vOiP3kfFlrE?si=FX_Eods644_-Ybf5 2. 100 jumping jacks 3. 100 star jumps 4. 100 jumping squats 5. 2 min plank 6. 20 sit-ups

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You take a long warm shower but make it cold in the end after that. Now you just eat a little something before you'll go to bed.

Dinner: .🕸️.ೃ࿔* Option 1. Alpro vanilla soy milk (142 cal) Option 2. Vanilla tea, sweetner (10 cal) Option 3. Cherry coke zero (0 cal) Option 4. Blackberry tea (11 cal) Option 5. Cold rasberries (95 cal >) Option 6. Steamed vegetables (150 cal > )

Mealspø : ༄˖°.🐈‍⬛.ೃ࿔*:･

(Aghhh!! This took to long :( if yall want more of these dm me a requessstt bcvits lowkey fun making them, stay safee!!! <3 )

You don’t get it … I need to be a frail deer

SO REAL.