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Um

I let it slip tonight, not even thinking, tumbling tripping off my tongue, sliding right past his awareness, and surprising even myself that I had just said it; and oh dear Lord someone light a candle

because I done caught feelings.

Spent

I open my mouth to tell him something sweet, only to realize that it is words I have already wasted on you.

And this is how I learn the value of silence.

Split Personality

His hand on my thigh and the wind in our hair, and I would drive a hundred miles to make this moment last in silence forever; pinned against a smokey sunset seasoned with the occasional dark crow.

I am rigid, impenetrable; I am Teflon, letting it all slide away. Come and go, I am unreachable unbreakable down to my molecular core.

I've had to come to accept that this is true. I have always loved you, and I always will.

“I never stopped loving you. Not even for a second. Even when I hated you.”

—

Charles Sheehan-Miles

I CAN FEEL ME LOSING YOU

And you were the only one who could make it stop.

Monday 1208

I never thought it would be so hard to have him look right through me.

Revelations

You know.

You know I'm still in love with you.

And I think you might love me too.

Stolen

We meet in the dark no longer like magnets but like gravity instead. Another risked embrace, lips brushed and we forget ourselves for just a moment in this unused parking lot-my hand against your chest; yours stroking the small of my back, any number of little gestures that would prove our undoing by daylight.

And we separate, peel away because it cannot last. Break the ties, and I am set adrift into the atmosphere once more.

Ventriloquism

She is admin she is my friend, she is loud and boisterous and clueless as she grabs me and prattles on about seeing my man-

My brain clicks off right there, she doesn't know she doesn't know how could she not know; her face is large and pale mask-like moving in front of me I do not hear the words coming out, my lips are numb as I find an opening-

"we broke up two months ago."

Breathless

You still take my knees away.

FML

Oh God if only this dating app would stop suggesting my ex boyfriend.

Shock Value

You tell me you drank like you're proud of it, a little boy caught with his hand in the cookie jar;

it's none of my business, what's it to me anyway? Like you once told me, it's not like I'm stuck with you, right?

Right.

God I wish it was simple.

Divided Joy

There's an insidious voice in the back of my head, it hisses and spits that you only said it out of jealousy.

You see, the last time I told you I loved you, you pushed me so far away we didn't talk for almost a year. So you'll forgive me, my lover, if I'm a little bit gun shy.

Icarus

We come together again, gravity falling naked into the ocean; lovers comfortable with all our flaws and imperfections.

Your hand on my cheek-stroke the sweat from my upper lip, I kiss your finger tips and continue to melt for you.

Ad Nauseum

You don't have to do that, you know.

You don't have to keep reminding me that you won't divorce her.

I came back, remember?

I walked in this time with my eyes wide open and no illusions that I will ever be more than second best.

Because I love you.

And if that means sharing you with her till the day one of the three of us dies, then I'm prepared to do that.

Ephemeral

I hold your love around me like a soap bubble, fragile to the slightest breath, still agape at its existence; the wrong movement might rupture everything in a scented mist.