Falling - Tumblr Posts
Lithium
Sometimes the salt in my brain ebbs, leaving its grit on my tongue, my lips, my words;
and still he stays.
Um
I let it slip tonight, not even thinking, tumbling tripping off my tongue, sliding right past his awareness, and surprising even myself that I had just said it; and oh dear Lord someone light a candle
because I done caught feelings.
1K Kiss
With no hesitation he takes my hand and holds my waist and brushes my lips and here
now
in front of the milling crowd oblivious
now I finally believe that this is real.
Evening
He is natural, unconscious as he begins to wrestle with his dog, and it seems the most logical thing in the world to grab my camera and begin to shoot them here in uncensored joy.
Battle Fatigue
Irritability chews it's way around the edges of my mind, I am snappish and brittle, awake far too deep into the night.
I need him. I need to curl against him with limbs entangled like strangling vines. I need to get high on the male scent of his neck, heady and rich and uniquely him. I need I need I need
I need the soft rumble he makes in his throat when he is happy, a human purr. I need.
I need him.
Dust
I farted in front of him tonight;
and he peed with the door open.
I can't imagine a better evening.
Sin
I can see New York New York with it's fountain running sign from the bed where I lay dripping neon gold.
It is nearly silent, broken by irate horn blares and the occasional slamming door.
I'm 20 floors up in the air and hundreds of miles from home. Miles from pressure and control and responsibility, miles from reality.
Tonight, home will be his arms.
The Lament for Icarus (1898), by Herbert James Draper.
L'appel Du Vide
He staggered from one pillar to another hoping that one of them would share his pain.
He walked through his school corridor meeting the judgemental glares of his fellow peers.
He passed by a class and saw a girl getting yelled at by her teacher. The teacher not knowing the pain the young girl goes through continues to batter her with harsh words.
He resumed walking, he realized that this place will never let him fail. No matter how hard things are ,this place will always remind how much he messed up, how he disappoints everyone and how he'll never live up to anyone's expectations.
The cold realization struck him when he found himself on the top floor of the school.
The cold air brushing his face with unkindness. He looks down and marvels how no one knows that he's up here, how no one knows who he is.
He's tempted to take the fall.
He wonders if he will do this will things change?
He wonders if he will do this will people finally realize and stop someone else from making a decision like this?
He truly wonders.
He sheds his jacket wanting to feel the coldness of the evening.
Wanting to be free of any warmth.
But at the same time he wants to be saved
He wants to be warm.
He understands that will never happen.
He knows that he will never experience a mother's love or a friend's trust.
After all who is he?
No one
And that's when he gives in to his temptation.
The earth capturing him in a trance and welcoming him with open arms.
In the few seconds of his flight he hoped that someone would catch him.
Someone would pacify his trembling heart.
But he knows truly that it will not happen.
And gladly welcomes the blackness that will keep him safe from the coldness of this world.
And you keep on falling baby FIGURE IT OUT
Just drive slow straight forward or I'm walking around
And your dad keeps calling tell him CUT. THAT. SHIT. OUT
JUST KEEP STEERING KEEP STEERING NOW
Please call it conflict~
Idiot forgets about gravity, falls off twenty storey building.
song lyrics that are getting me through the week 🗡️
florence + the machine - falling, laura marling - what he wrote, mitski - the deal & laura marling - devils resting place.
This is something I wrote when one of my friends.. or friendzoned guy.. told me he liked me but I liked someone else.. please do tell if you like it..
