Cptsd Problems - Tumblr Posts

"My child is fine-"

Your child is so lonely and emotionally numb that they cope by living in a dream world to the point where they are terrified of living in reality itself

I'd make your life hell just like you did mine without any sliver of remorse

I never had any issues about knowing myself 'cause my whole family and every kind of environment crushed me by being myself, which means I was forced into knowing every inch of myself to recognize what exactly about me was seen as "wrong" by them

I didn't had a hand to feed me, in fact the hands who were supposed to do it actually were the ones that made me starve and made sure I didn't felt worth of any shit

often frequently I feel the urge to crush the skulls from every single one who made fun of me or mistreated me and I'm not gonna pretend it's not a recurring thought

I spent so much time forced to live in distrust of the people around me that nowadays I am almost incapable of believing in people. It also doesn't help that I seem to experience the same types of traumatic events

It's not that I like to answer everything with violence all the time

violence is the only answer I know

Honestly I can't see a future where I'm able to stand the fact I didn't got any help with any of my problems and still got blamed of being victimist while I saw people getting for free the same exact help I needed

There's a certain pain when people say I should work harder even if this is my absolute maximum. Am I essentially insufficient then?

I'll never forget what you did to me and I hate you with every inch of my being for that

You asked for an angel, yet you created a demon