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Any other dyscalculiac people feel like there’s just a hole in their head when they try to maths? It’s a void up there I swear. Like I’m trying to text without wifi. Like it just feels like there is a hole there, I know there isn’t actually but I don’t know how else to explain the feeling
PEOPLE CAN PICTURE NUMBERS IN THEIR HEAD??? THATS A THING???
It's so hard explaining Dyscalculia (which is like dyslexia for numbers and math) to people because they always just kind of assume I'm just really slow at it, not trying or am stupid
When in reality, I literally cannot visualize numbers in my head. Mental math is impossible because I just can't picture numbers and quantities accurately up there. My mind just goes blank - a monk would cry at how clear my head is when I'm attempting algebra
But people still assume I'm just slow so they're like "What's two times 5" and I just have to sit there like
And not give them an answer because fuck if I know dude
My dyscalculia can’t handle this… help
As of today 14028 Aziraphale/Crowley fanfics have been posted on ao3 since the release of season two
Which means that on average 77.5 fanfics are being published per day
That’s 3.23 fanfics per hour
0.05 fanfics per minute
So in conclusion:
Every twenty minutes a new Aziraphale/Crowley fanfic is being written
The Nurodiversity Umbrella
Trying to write an introductory post
My name's Daniel. Honestly, I don't know how to exactly type this shit besides just throwing whatever I find important so yeah, here we go
I'm an autistic/Asperger who got a late diagnostic, a trauma survivor (mainly from my traumatic childhood), chronically depressed, generalized anxiety disorder, maybe with social phobia (although I dislike the way we use "phobia"), potentially dyslexic along with dyscalculic and also probably ADHD. That's a fucking ton of diagnostics, ngl. What else do I type? I guess I'll try to give a preview of what I like to say and do here
Although it's been a couple of months since I didn't make a single edit, I love graphic design overall and it's part of my natural pattern recognition from the very beginning of my life. I try to make wallpapers and icons/profile pictures because this way I can give my art some kind of utility. I'm by no means a professional, I just do what I like
I think it would be good to say something about other interests too. Here we go again
I've been interested in english also since the very beginning, even if I'm not a native speaker. I'm currently a college student aiming to be a translator and maybe a teacher, who knows. Along with that, I like studying human nature and honestly I don't really know the true answer for that. Maybe it's because I don't naturally get what other people think and say most of the time, therefore I developed some kind of inclination towards trying to grasp wtf humans do and why the fuck they do what they do. I personally love the idea of studying human instincts and its roots — which still fuck me to this day since I didn't find a specific route for the kind of studies I'd want to do but well, I guess I can't have my cake and eat it too
I'll try to be more specific about my interests, here we go again
I love/hate Pokémon along with Sonic and I purely love Minecraft. There are other franchises I love like Ben 10 and some animes like Ao no Exorcist, although I've been trying to start Dragon Ball recently (it's going way better than I expected, ngl). Overall, I like thinking about these pieces of media. There's something so cool about understanding the deepest points from a universe and trying to solve its mysteries with the information it provides you. Oh and I also have interest in bad movies because Imo the path to grasp what is a great movie can only be traveled through bad movies. If I had to guess what would be the worst movie I've ever seen, I'd say Birdemic which is only ahead of Sharktopus. I also like horror movies overall, although the Insidious saga has a special place in my heart. Godfuckindamnit, what a good sequence. I don't even care if it's not the best franchise, I just love it so deeply
I guess I should speak about what else I post. Trigger warnings, I guess? Transphobia, misogyny
Although I don't consider myself transphobic, people have their rights to call me whatever they want. Having said that, I'll try to clarify myself 'bout it
I don't believe someone's "assigned" a sex, sexuality nor gender. I honestly don't even believe in gender. It even reminds me of the "LGB cut the T" except I'm more about the TQ+ and whatever comes next. I don't really have any problem with whatever people identify themselves, I just don't believe they're what they think and I ask to not force me into believing them.
About misogyny, it's quite a two-sided path. Part of me thinks women feel entitled to everything at their core while also part of me thinks I'm just being extremist, by example. Even if I'm not the best example and I don't even show it that much, I do have hopes about the world not being as harsh as I think but whenever I go out expecting to see something different I end up being crushed by reality again. It got to a point where I can't even see a woman without being invaded by negative thoughts like "she would see you as a dispensable tool and an inferior being", even if I don't know her. Honestly, I don't blame anyone who would think I'm just a hardhead. Having said that, anyone is always welcome to ask or comment on anything here
Well, I tried. I'll try to either organize or write/type a different introduction later
walking to my execution rn (physics final)
they should make a pill called adderall 2 and it lets me comprehend values bigger than 1
something that had always been really frustrating for me when i was still in math classes in school was trying to watch the teacher actually work the problem out on the board and still not understanding wtf was happening. for some context, i heavily suspect that i have some form of dyscalculia because math and numbers literally do not compute properly in my brain. it'd be too long to explain the full extent of my possible dyscalculia here but math literally does the mental equivalent of maxing out the CPU power and memory of a computer to the point where it freezes and lags to my brain.
math class was always stressful for me because no matter what i did and how much progress i made, there was always a lack of understanding i had when it came to trying to work any math problem out long term and remembering anything. it felt like there was always something i was missing, so when the time came for the teacher to explain and go through a math problem step-by-step on the whiteboard, i made sure i paid as much attention to it as humanly possible as child-to-teenager me could muster and even then i still did not understand how the fuck they solved it, all because of one thing: the teacher pulling a random number completely out of their ass that happened to be the key to solving the problem.
like. i don't think i can illustrate how frustrating and isolating this was to experience with words alone. here i was, paying as much attention as i physically could, trying my damned hardest to memorise each individual step and calculation in order to understand how to get from point A to point B. everything made perfect sense up until the teacher suddenly stops for a second and writes a seemingly completely unrelated number there with no context as to why it's there in the first place, and then, in that singular moment, everything immediately comes crumbling down and i'm left completely confused. and somehow, everyone else around me perfectly understands it except me. like. imagine sitting there, giving the teacher all the attention you possibly could, literally watching and studying their hand movements just to understand every single step, only to be even more confused than your classmates, who you're pretty sure were half-asleep during the explanation, who also say they understand how the teacher came to that conclusion. what. the actual fuck.
when i try to explain how infinitely confusing and irritating this was for me, i'm reminded of a quote from that video Patricia Taxxon made about DHMIS: "The rug is pulled again ... There was never any hope of following the thread, understanding is impossible.". even when i was literally trying my best to possibly follow anything that was happening, the rug still gets pulled out from under my feet and i'm sent all the way back to square one of not understanding a single thing and being confused again. all because the teacher didn't explicitly explain how they got that random number that was apparently singlehandedly necessary for solving the equation and where they got it from, apart from that place being from literally fucking nowhere.
it's really no wonder that i eventually stopped giving a shit about paying attention in math class, because even when i was, it was still daunting and incomprehensible as always. why bother trying anymore when trying still gets you nowhere? trying to ask the teacher where they got that number from was an impossible to understand task as well, as their either snapped back with a "well you should have been paying attention" (even though i WAS but whatever) or they do explain that they added the first two numbers from the equation together or something, but now i'm wondering why they didn't just explain that in the first place like they did with everything else instead of seemingly just assuming everyone would know to do that.
by the way, if i had to give an estimate, my math ability is probably still at like. a 5th grader's level at best. so uh. yeah it's not good. still, it is kinda funny to me though, not only because i do find a bit of humour in the situation, but also because some people are often so quick to judge someone's intelligence purely based on their mathematical abilities alone. like. the idea of someone calling me dumb for still needing to do addition with my fingers despite the fact that my reading and language levels are considered above average is really funny to me lmaooo
; finding out you're neurodivergent is just an " oh " drawn out and progressively getting louder the more you learn about your neurotype.
[id: a light pink userbox with a pastel pink border, and pastel pink text that reads “this user has dyscalculia”. on the left is an image of a 3d pink heart. /end id]
I'm Raivo and from Estonia (he/him)
Age: 18
Fav colors: orange, green, black, brown
Fav things: Winter, sweet tea, animals, Halloween/Xmas, music, salad, meat and veggies
I live on a farm in the country but I live near the city
Hobbies: drawing, writing, collecting junk, walking while listening to music, obsessively organizing my books, song playlists + names by spellings, origins and meanings etc)
I'm neurodivergent
Things I hate: bugs, spicy food, socks, the smell of cornbread, bread in general, literally any carbonated drink, too much salt or pepper on food, life
I have: Reddit and Wattpad
My irl pal: @cyanide-sodapop
Teachers:"Math is super easy, you're just not trying hard enough"
Mom:"You're stubborn"
Relatives:"Maybe you just stupid 🤷"
Me:"You're gonna end up homeless you dumbass and you'll always be useless "
Hey y'all I was just wondering, is it ok for me to self diagnose myself with AuDHD and Dyscalculia?
I've done lots of research on it and I check off a lot of boxes and I relate to a lot of the neurodivergent memes and characters
I noticed that I get along better with neurodivergent people and a few people in my life have mentioned that I might have AuDHD+Dyscalculia
I really want to get an official diagnosis but my mom could care less about helping me and I think it requires money (I'm poor ASF)
I did go to a place awhile back that said I was "mentally disabled" but they didn't say with what unfortunately....
Hello y'all, I really struggle with making friends and I want to try to make some friends, feel free to talk with me about anything!
I'm 18
Also bonus points if you're LGBT and neurodivergent:D
Some things I like (if we have anything in common):
Animals!
Netflix shows
Warriors and survivors book series
Drawing (I mostly draw animals but I draw people to)
Writing (I'm a wannabe writer, I'll chat for hours about my useless OCS🤌)
Please, please remember:
The term “neurodivergent” describes people whose brain differences affect how their brain works.
It is not only autism and ADHD.
It's many many many things!
Including personality disorders, foetal alcohol syndrome, Downs Syndrome, Tourette's, dyslexia, dyspraxia, dyscalculia, bipolar disorder, Irlen syndrome, and more then I can list here.
If it's your brain differences that is affecting how your brain works...it's a neurodivergence!
I have Schizoaffective Disorder, does that count as ND? I saw that Schizophrenia was on the list, and I WAS originally diagnosed with that when I had my mental breakdown.
For those who don't know about Schizoaffective Disorder, it is a mental disorder. There are three types: Bipolar (Manic) Type [mix of Schizophrenia and Mania], Depressive Type [mix of Schizophrenia and Depression], and Mixed Type [a combination of all three].
I have Bipolar Type, personally. If you want more information, I will put some links to various sites explaining the disorder.
Here is a list of famous people with Schizoaffective Disorder:
Brian Wilson
Catherine Zeta-Jones
Britney Spears
Vincent van Gogh
Louis Wain
Virginia Woolf
Allison Schmitt
John Nash
Jordan Burnham
Michael Angel
And there are more famous people with this disorder than this!
This is the story of a young woman who has struggled with Schizoaffective Disorder. It advocates the need to stay on your meds unless a psychiatrist says it is safe to do so.
Sorry for the really long re-blog, but I felt the need to teach people about this.
fuck it. shout out to "high functioning" neurodivergents
the ones who can mask easily, the ones who can get social cues, the ones who have managed to go most of their life not even knowing they were ND because they didn't present as the stereotypical ND person.
the ones who can pay attention in class, understand social etiquette, who understand societial expectations
the ones who don't feel neurodivergent enough bc they don't struggle in the same ways/areas a lot of NDs do, or they can't relate to other NDs' experiences because they always understood these things easily
the ones with high empathy, the ones who DO get the joke, the ones who are constantly told that they can't possibly be neurodivergent because they don't act like what you'd expect a neurodivergent person to act like.
you are neurodivergent enough. you are valid, and so are your experiences. not struggling as much as others do in some places doesn't mean you dont struggle at all. your condition and diagnosis is valid. your symptoms are valid. YOU ARE VALID. not checking all the supposed boxes doesn't mean you aren't neurodivergent. you are enough. you are valid. you are loved. you are valued. you matter. you belong in neurodivergent spaces, you deserve to use whatever resources are available to you, you are allowed to take up space in these communities. and i am so, so proud of you.
feel free to, and actually, i encourage you to reblog this with your experiences. we belong in this community as much as anyone else. please also tag this w/ any neurodivergent conditions i may have forgotten 💙
since this is getting lots of notes I'd like to add, even if you're undiagnosed or maybe self diagnosed, for whatever reason, (i.e. can't get access to a diagnosis, not being taken seriously, or just not wanting an official diagnosis, etc.) this still applies to you. actually especially to you folks. don't think for a second you're not valid just bc you don't have the paperwork or whatever to say it
