Nurodivergent - Tumblr Posts
i mean this in the gentlest way possible: you need to eat vegetables. you need to become comfortable with doing so. i do not care if you are a picky eater because of autism (hi, i used to be this person!), you need to find at least some vegetables you can eat. find a different way to prepare them. chances are you would like a vegetable you hate if you prepared it in a stew or roasted it with seasoning or included it as an ingredient in a recipe. just. please start eating better. potatoes and corn are not sufficient vegetables for a healthy diet.
autistic rant here but how the fuck am I supposed to know if I sound sarcastic. Like. No i donโt sound rude? Iโm forcing myself to be polite? Iโm not even yelling what is going on? Why are you mad at me? Help? What am I doing that sounds rude? And then the little voice in my head is telling me Iโm a failure for not being able to understand people of the neurotypical species.
Things I eat the FUCK UP.
OC's and AU's: I have made countless OC's in my head and (so far) TWO(2) AU's.
(Legal) Shiping: I believe love is an art! It's like a puzzle if you know their dynamic and sexuality!
POLLS AND CHARTS: For what? Yes (Usually something story/character related). My autistic ass brain likes INFORMATION, and your opinion. :)
Asks: Once again, your opinion matters to me. :)
Memes: Memes.
Fandoms I am (currently) in/posting for: Murder Drones, TADC, Fnaf, Kirby.
my hyperfixation is being thrown around like a ball in a pachinko machine
my hyperfixation is being thrown around like a ball in a pachinko machine
We really need a break for a bit, so no digital art piece today unfortunately. Just for something though, here's a quick sketch Grace did of herself. Stay tuned for a new digital piece next time though!
if I am a regular at a coffee shop why can't I bring my favourite mug from home and ask them to keep it for me and serve me with it everyday? like is that considered rude or something? idk I just don't want to do it one day and they deny me. I have rejection sensitivity.
My mom needs to see this.
As someone who is autistic, I cannot, CANNOT emphasize enough the damage the mantra of 'Do or do not, there is no try' did to me. Is it a quote from a fictional mutilated frog in a just as fictional universe? Yes. Did people take it onboard as an actual Thing to Live By? Yes.
Here's the deal- for me, and a ton of other neurodivergent people, trying is tantamount to one of the greatest efforts we can give. Trying is our best some days. It's giving it our all. We're gonna screw up, and fail, and probably be a little bit sad and angry because of it, but lemme tell you a secret.
Doing things halfway, means we tried. It means we didn't just walk away from it. For me for example, if I'm so depressed or in such a sensory-sensitive space that I can't unload the dishwasher, I might still be able to gather all the dirty dishes and put them in one spot for later. Can't shower? I can still run a warm washcloth over my face and put some deodorant on.
You get the gist. If you have a loved one - family, friend, or otherwise - who is on the spectrum or neurodivergent in some way and you see them struggling, don't push them to 'just do it'. Praise them for trying, encourage their efforts and don't get angry if they have to stop.
Trying is doing.
i dont think a lot of people will see this but im putting it out here anyway
Autism is different for others, i am aware of that, but itโs also different in different assigned genders at birth, and im putting this here so hopefully i can spread this out and hopefully educate some people who think autism is one thing and one thing only
Is it bad I genuinely plan on killing myself in the future?
Like I know most of yโall are joking about it, but Iโm seriously considering it.
โจ I may be retarded. But Iโm retarded and depressed. โจ
Everyone wants an autistic bitch until their special interest is psychology and the slow self-destruction of mankind.
Does anyone else obsess/hyperfixate over a character so hard that you HAVE TO be them.
You have to have their style, their personality, their interests.
Or is it just me?
Imagine having twelve-year-old pp and cum humor. Haha, couldnโt be meโฆ
Having impaired empathy is fucking hell. Like I see all these people and victims upset and crying over Hurricane Helene and I really donโt care.
I know I should and I want to care, but I donโt. ๐คท
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๐พ๐พ THE ARCHIPELAGO BURROW
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[โ ] Collective Info [โ ]
๐ฒ| Name: Horus / Byrder / Cross
๐ฒ| Pronouns: He/Ae/Bird/Wing/Fly +
๐ฒ| Interests: QSMP, DSMP, OSMP FNAF, LOZ, Philza, Psychology + more
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[โ ] System Info [โ ]
โฆ | Nondisordered Hydraconscious DID system of 2k+ alters
โฆ | Over 9 large subsystems
โฆ | Rentry:
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QUICK PSA: yes this is a old account before we found out were a system, it was run by our old hosts Wilbur and Finn, but now its run by us all :3 expect many infodumps about our systems and experiences <3
System Details under the cut
Our system is made up of subsystems! We have 11 (i think idek atp) and each are mostly separate from the main/bodies system
The Archipelago Burrow: The main/bodies system, made up of around 30 members, first alters that split or that have stayed in this system since formation. Not many front front this system anymore, mostly made up of traumaholders and very little fragments.
The Michaels: Made up of 3 members, split from Michael, Michxel is the alter that split off and one other who they dont know well. Michxel fronts often, Michael doesnt anymore.
Snow Wing System: there was around 160 alters before a system reset happened, but just because the system reset to around 9 alters didnt mean the others went anywhere, so ae created aer own system, now made up of the 160 alters. Ae sometimes front but not often
Kaleidoscope Cluster: The first big subsystem to split knowingly. They are a introject of a friends system (whom we missed so much they showed up, this is a common theme with us) around 300 members, they dont front to often but show up sometimes
Cowboy Col.: After Kaleidoscope showed up so did the ex that gave us ptsd's system. We figured they were around for a while but they actually showed up and scared us to death, only 1 alter has fronted from this system so far. Around 300 alters
Spiderverse Col.: Kaleidoscope was lonely so they created Spiderverse to be their partner sys, only 30 members and they front sometimes, mostly with Kaleidoscope.
Aether Amalgam: Ever heard of the youtube channel Acrylic and Aether? Well we introjected her (Aether) system too. Weve watched their content for around 2 years and the hyperfixation won- Over 1k members, They front a lot. They are also siblings with Kaleidoscope :3. Their host Aether has been around in TAB for around 2 year now but only recently told us about his system, sideblog is @aether-sys
Travelers: Not really a subsystem but moreso a collection of alters who can travel between systems/dont belong to one set system. This is a very fluid thing for us considering how long weve been plural and how many alters weve had for so long, Those from this collection front a lot.
That was just them main dudes and theres more systems that don't care to front/arent comfortable being online so i left them out. Our plurality is weird and complex lmao :']
Do you ever stop and let your soul bleed to accept the painful reality of your life?
I do not rest on weekends. I fight tooth and nail in my brain to complete tasks with just as much misery in the day as a weekday without classes.
I would like to wake up on the weekends, and the weekdays with just as much enthusiasm as I did when I was ten on a weekend morning, flying out of bed at 6, 7am on the dot to play video games and know that I get to rest and enjoy myself today.
The breath of relief to get a long weekend or a week or more break, knowing I just gotta get through one more week, a few more days, and I'll get a chance to catch my breath. I slowly watched as that breath of relief had to be something I actively told myself to feel, to "no difference to me".
Days off and days on are different sets of demands I bleed for and yet fail almost every time all the same. A different set of requirements I cannot complete and feel shame and guilt in my soul every waking moment.
I hate holidays because I cannot even make the everyday demands for myself, how am I to cook and buy presents and wrap presents or make presents in a timely manner that doesn't make me feel guilty or shame?
The truth, no matter how much I smile for hours a day and I'm always happy to help and be with others, even if I no longer hate myself, is that I am miserable. My life is miserable.
I fill every crack and crease and miserableness with hope and trying, trying to change and with some thought that if I just learn enough I will find the magic alchemy formula for my life and I will be more okay than I am now. I am more okay than I was before, after all. At every chance I cover it in a paint of "fun time with friends" but the paint always chips off.
Life is good and fun, and I will try for life to be like that as much as I can. But right now at least, for the moment at least, I'll allow my heart rest a moment to weep for the pervasive misery of the weight I carry.
Shout out to neurodivergent characters!
Canon:
Twyla from Monster high (voiced by autistic actress in the new one)
Norma from Dead end paranormal park
Luz from The owl house
Donnie from ROTTMNT
Quinni from Heartbreak high (autistic actress)
Woo Young Woo from Extra ordinary attorney Woo
My personal head canons:
Aaron from The Mitchel's vs the machines
Nimona from Nimona
Pinkie pie and Rainbowdash from MLP
Wednesday and Enid from Wednesday
Lilo from Lilo and stitch
Hiccup and Fishlegs from HTTYD
Hunter from the Owl house
Bluey and Bingo from Bluey
Dory from Finding Nemo/Dory
Naruto from Naruto
Varian from the Tangled series
Rapunzel, Mulan and Ariel
Teachers:"Math is super easy, you're just not trying hard enough"
Mom:"You're stubborn"
Relatives:"Maybe you just stupid ๐คท"
Me:"You're gonna end up homeless you dumbass and you'll always be useless "