Sk!nand - Tumblr Posts

im so sick of ppl replying to ed posts and saying to eat smt like its not your business??? leave me alone?!?!? close the app???????? go clock in???????????? if thats not stuff u wanna see dont follow me or look at my posts😭😭

back into my deficit!! i still feel so gross from binging on vacay but this week im locking in!

honestly im so mad at myself for breaking my deficit but dealing with my parents takes a LOT of energy i do not have

when i go back to my moms homeland in the winter i want to be as th1n as possible, i want my grandparents to even notice it <3

why couldnt i be born like those tall skinny girls they have it so easy and they dont even know

I broke down today really bad.

I've been so stressed out, and I took a plan B which made me feel bad about myself. I always wanted to be a pure virgin, but now i have a boyfriend and Im not going to not, because thats unfair to him. So, I ate like 2k calories, and I usually eat >500. I'm still 140 and its making me want to rip all my hair out. I workout for about 45 minutes a day, which as much time I can carve out. I love looking nice, so my makeup, hair, and outfit is always as perfect as I can get it. So, working out and getting nasty doesn't sound very appealing to me. I literally haven't eaten more than diet coke, and maybe 6 doritios in the past eight days and nothing is happening.

What else should I do to lose weight?

and how do I stop myself from binging?

my ed/bpd follows me everywhere, even all the way to my dreams. and im just so tired, sleepy, exhausted, and have so many things i need to do today...

god i just want a moment of peace.

im back at my lw this week and was so happy until i tried on new clothes and my sister said to me "omg how do you wear that top it keeps slipping off of me..."

like okay? i didn't ask?

also she knows i "struggle with eating and body image issues" and always makes fun of me for that so idk i think it's pretty fcked up.

stuck in between wanting to always wear baggy clothes so nobody can tell im getting smaller or wanting to always wear normal/fitted clothes so everybody can tell im getting smaller

god please, i am just so, so tired.

i just found out that "metabolism days" is just a fraud.

excuse me, i have to go sob now.

when you're doing omad and they hit you with the-

"wow, you sure are eating a lot today!!"

ofc he'd check her out. how could he not when she's so perfect and tiny and you're flawed and huge.