What Should I Do - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
I hate depression and anxiety. I want to live normal life like everyone. I want to be happy and free from this everything
Sleeping is my escaping from my mind, my feelings, my thoughts. That's sad because this is not how life should be
Help - in need of some sage advice!
So I just landed my dream job - YAY! It’s an 18-month contract overseas in a beautiful country! HOWEVER the pay is low, and it does not fall within the realm of a conventional/“stable” career. But it’s been a dream of mine to get this job.
The thing is -
being the over-thinker that I am - I can’t help but think about the after. “What will I do after this period of my life doing this job” (however long it may be)? It doesn’t fall anywhere close to what my bachelor’s degree is and doesn’t promise any stable/continual career after this period. While there are ways to be lucrative during this period, I’m not sure if I am capable of doing so!
My end goal
is to be able to settle down back home, but with how the world is going it seems like taking this job, while fun and a dream, will not catapult me towards stability and a career that I can continue back home…
But, this job has been my dream for as long as I can remember.
I’ve cried over it some many times and now it’s happening. But committing to it is such a gamble l and it is terrifying.
If anybody out there has any advice, your first could really use it right now…
Make Me Choose: 9-1-1 Gif Edition
Two Characters
Two Ships (canon or non canon)
Two Brotps (friends, family etc)
Two Episodes
Two Scenes
Two Seasons
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Should I make a snap for my tumblr/Twitter?
(emetophobia warning)
So I just cried so hard I threw up (into the toilet thankfully, I tend to cry while sitting on the bathroom floor bc it's weirdly comforting to me)
It wasn't a lot so I'm contemplating whether I should tell my mum or not?
Like if I do she'd probably let me stay home from school which is good bc I do not like going to school (it's exhausting and makes me feel shitty), but also today I've started crying every time I've been left alone (a total of 5 times) and I think if I'm not having the constant stimulation of school I'll probably be crying all day
Plus I'd have to go wake her up, I'll probably start crying as soon as I tell her (feeling absolutely pathetic today can't you tell) and ik she really doesn't want me to miss this year (I've been sick a lot throughout my time at secondary school and this is my most important school year)
But like I really want my mum right now yk
Me: I wanna work at my fave David Chang restaurant Also me: *looking at that Disney Culinary Program for Cook I @ one of their signature restaurants offer*
OH MY GOD NONONONOOOO
I HUST OPENED MY MEMORY BOX TO PUT SOMETHING IN AND THEY ARE THESE LITTLE LIVING THINGYS I AM CRIYING
I AM CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP THAT IS SO FUCKING DISGUSTING AHHHH
Sooo , I've been saving money to buy myself a good meal since months
It's been delivered to my neighbours
I don't know them
I'm just sitting here crying
And I'm so scared they're gonna judge me for my taste
I'm so hungry
Now he looks more human :3.
p lease give me stupid stuff to draw please istg plea se i need to dreaw stupid stuff plea se PLEASE
(bonus points if any fandoms im in tee hee cuz motivation boost)
I really gotta star to think about what I want to do.
Because like, someone telling me to do what I want is really overwhelming.
Like, how should I know?? What do I want?
And also, do you want it? How should I know? Yell me yes or no please?? Because I can't read minds and it's hard to decide if I don't know of you want it or not.
I really have to work on that.
But hey, at least my poetry book is going really well. I am sorting through all my poems rn and decide which will actually stay in the book and I already have 23 :)
Dream Vent
(prior to the dream I was learning tarot where I got v accurate things and practiced for a good 12 hours)
My boyfriend and I went to the bars where the stools were super tall and I left to find chaos outside. There were cultists that were in varying states of decomposition. The one in front of me was gangrenous and had half his face bandaged to keep from sliding off while a half translucent being was on his shoulders peeling and eating off the flesh. It looked like Saturn from the painting Saturn Devouring his Son painting. They worshiped Saturn and we're giving their bodies to bring him back while the world burned. I said nope that's disgusting and woke myself up.
(I did a tarot reading to see if it was a real being and the consensus was yes, I asked if it would happen again and it said if I continued down this path. I haven't touched the cards since. I decided to burn them but have been too busy to do so so I forgot. Until recently.)
I dreamt I worked at Target but it was secretly a cult the government used to spy and gather people's information and I was about to blow the information because I learned I was the only human being left working there everyone else was Not human anymore because for a "raise" they got transformed into a half mutated human just human experimentations. And I still had to work with them and act like it was normal and everyone shopping there just acted like it was because we were working on a Monday night. Then things started going ape shit outside but everyone inside was just shopping like normal. I looked at my partner and it was Saturn eating a person again. He looked and cocked his head and asked if I remembered him. I said yup so I made myself wake up.
I've never been more disturbed or scared of dreaming again.
GUYSSS HELP 👹👹👹
What should I do with it next 😭🥹🤕 I have literally no idea what to add to it idkkkk
Pls send help and tell me what to do 😭😭😭