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Joel Miller x f!Reader

Rating: Mature Explicit

Summary: When Tommy lands himself in prison, you and Joel fall into familiar, dangerous rhythms.

Tags: Tommy x Reader, Joel x Reader, Tommy's Wife Reader, infidelity, emotional affair, slow burn (as much as you can get for 5 chapters), Tommy goes to jail, Reader has had a child

Warnings: cheating, affair, smut/explicit content, fluff, the shitty judicial system, prison,

Part I

Part II

Part III

Part IV - Coming 4.23.24

Part V - Coming 4.30.24

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Late Night Realization

I didn’t want to buy a house yet, and he was so angry.  He threatened to leave me.  He told me that I was keeping him down, and that I loved watching him suffer.

My reluctance was my subconscious throwing up warning signs: Get out!  Don’t invest financially in this this too!

His threats won, my subconscious lost, and he and I started “living the dream.”

After my indiscretions came to light, he told me that he pursued other options when I showed resistance and had been carrying on periodic dalliances online  since then. Though nothing as serious as what I did, of course as he wasn’t that sick. They provided emotional ‘support’ when I was ‘hurting’ him.

He never met up with any of them, so he says, despite having plenty of opportunities. Realistically it doesn’t matter now, and I don’t care if he did.

What stings is that I allowed him to hold me under his thumb and torture me as punishment for my own infidelity.  And he was out there likely doing the same thing, or something in the same vein at the very least .  

It doesn’t justify what I did, but it does render his disdain and condemnation illegitimate.

This has all just sunk in tonight.  If I had any guilt or shame left for what I’ve done, it’s fucking gone now.

I had a terrible dream.

I let a man have me on the curb outside a store in broad daylight. There were people around. I was trying to get off while not getting much enjoyment. He left me on the ground after he finished like a piece of garbage, but waved goodbye.

The guilt sunk in. How was I going to tell my woman about this?

In some ways, I knew that feeling. At times when I was unfaithful to him and I uncompartmentalized for a second I would feel uncomfortable, a tightness in my gut, something with a tinge of guilt but mostly just shame.

This was that, with far more guilt than I could take. My woman is so supportive, so good to me; I only want for her to feel happy and loved always. And here I was slipping back into the worst parts of me and disgracing us both.

Unlike when I was with him and continually taking the easy way out, I had made the decision within the dream to come clean to her and accept the consequences. Every part of me felt sick.

Despite the fantastical details (like somehow dodging an indecency charge), I had to reassure myself as I awoke that I didn't actually do such a horrible thing. It felt too much like the old me.

I feel the urge to confess something, so I'm going to tell her about the dream.

My subconscious is an asshole.

He told me he came to the realization that I was the woman he wanted to be with forever while beginning to fuck another woman.

He said he stopped it immediately upon this realization and came home to me.

I remember this night. I made him angry, so he spit screamed in my face and told me he was going to go out and cheat on me. So he did. And I was so dead inside that I didn't care. The time he was gone had a peace to it.

I don't believe for a minute that he "stopped." And would you believe he tried to spin that into a really sweet and meaningful moment for us?

Kettle meet Teapot

He was a cheater too.  I don’t think I ever mentioned that.

Funny enough, neither did he. 

stay away from me

a/n: if this has many errors in it, i’m sorry, i wrote this while i was half-asleep... alright i’m sleeping, goodnight x

pairing: mob!tom x reader

warnings: angst, infidelity, swearing

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You excitedly skipped to Tom’s office, having a surprise set up for him. You reached the doors of the room and lightly knocked on the door. 

No response,

You pressed your ear against the door and knocked again. You heard a muffled noise coming from inside and chose to open the door.

The sight you saw before you broke your heart.

Tom was pounding another woman on his desk.

A loud sob ripped from your lips, catching Tom’s attention. The moment you locked eyes with him, you ran off in hurt, disgust, betrayal.

“Y/N, wait!” You heard him call after you.

You didn’t listen. You kept your pace and rushed to back to your vehicle, but you were too late.

“Y/N, please,” Tom’s hand grabbed your wrist.

Quickly, you snatched your arm out of his grip. Looking at him disgusted you. The man you trusted with your life had just cheated on you with some- some- some slut!

“I’m sorry, I- she just offered herself to me, and I haven’t gotten some from you in a while, seeing as you’re so busy now-” he began.

You scoffed, “Don’t blame this on me. Don’t blame it on that girl. This is on you.”

“I know, but I’m sorry. I won’t do it ever again. Just please down leave me, I can’t lose you,” he tried to step closer to you, but you only stepped further away from him.

“Stay away from me,” you hissed, “And besides, you lost me when I saw you fucking that other girl.” You spoke your final words and got into your car, locking it immediately. You could see Tom complaining from the corner of your eye, but you pulled out of the position you were in as fast as you could.

Tom stared longingly at your car as you became a smaller dot the further you drove away.

I love you more than you'll ever love yourself.

I dream for you because I can. I know you will never dream for me and that’s okay.

Your silence doesn’t comfort me.

I think of you every single day. Some people will never get that much real estate in my mind.

You’re that chapter in my book of life that will constantly be rewritten because I will keep painting the wrong picture of you.

You’ll only have to leave me once. I leave you almost every day and I always let you back in even though you never knew you left.

I will always kiss you even when I know you don’t deserve it.

Because I am my own worse enemy.

Krampus nsfw please?

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Gruss vom Krampus — Krampus x F Reader, NSFW, Dubcon

The smell of cinders was choking. You could see through the window, from the steel cage of the demon’s arms, the glow of a Christmas tree in the apartment building across the lot, twinkling gaily, red and green and gold. There were no holiday decorations in your own flat, no tree or mistletoe, no beribboned angels or shining stars.

You had been a very bad girl.

That was what it told you, after you’d opened the door, thinking the knock harkened the arrival of someone else, someone more familiar…in hindsight, you should have known better. It had been a heavy, thudding hammer, accompanied by the slight drag of chains and the dull tinkle of toneless bells, but you’d opened the door anyhow.

You didn’t know how much longer you could keep this up, you thought as tears filled your eyes, clawed hands tightening around your arms. You didn’t know how you’d ever again be able to stomach the smell of a fire cracking in the grate on a cold winter’s night, provided you lived to see another night, of course. Grey soot had settled into the crevasses of your brain, into the gaps and holes where your decency was lacking, until you were enveloped in soot and ash and cinders. 

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"I'm only human."

"Everyone makes mistakes."

"It just...it kinda just happened."

"I gave into my temptation. I'm sorry. I'm only human."

These have all been used as excuses for infidelity. I've heard these words pass through the lips of others time and time again and as the pleas are shot into the air targeting sympathy they only land on deaf ears and I realize just how contradictory the words are.

I'm only human? Is that really a reason to give into temptation? For every human who has cheated I guarantee there are about 100 others who have not. So being human is not an excuse because human does not automatically guarantee that everyone will cheat and possibly would never give into temptation. If anything it makes you the opposite. What's so great about humans is they have the ability to reason. A defining feature in humans is the ability to use logic in certain situations so when you or this other person initiates the first move logic, reason, anything should light up in your mind and tell you this is wrong. Most likely you would know it's wrong but you continue to follow it simply because you are just that tempted. Your inability to pull away from the situation shows that you are indeed not human. You did not reason or use any logic in the situation. It's a simple equation really: you+infidelity=loss of relationship. So the fact that you continued to pursue it simply because your temptation was already piqued shows you are incapable of reasoning therefore your mind is almost computerized. Once a situation arises you do not think of other options but rather act on an automatic command like a computer.

So in a way you are not "only human." Instead you are an emotionless, non-thinking computer who didn't know what you were losing when you decided to throw everything into the trash.

What Are the Biblical Grounds for Divorce?

The inspiration for this paper came from a Facebook “Eli_of_Kittim_Bible_Exegesis_Group” member.

By Bible Researcher Eli Kittim 🔎

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Marriage: When One Spouse is an Unbeliever

In 1 Corinthians 7, Paul discusses some cases about marriage. He explains that marriage is a remedy against fornication; that it is better to marry than to burn with lust (vv. 1-9). If we focus specifically on 1 Cor. 7.15, Paul is talking about married partners, where one is a believer and the other is not, and is giving biblical instructions as to how to handle that particular situation. Notice that verses 10-11 (NRSV) represent a *direct command* from God “that the wife should not separate from her husband … and that the husband should not divorce his wife.” Here, Paul makes it absolutely clear that the mere notion that one’s partner is an unbeliever (a heathen) is not yet ground for divorce!

By contrast, verses 12-13, which apply to verse 15, are offered “by way of concession, not of command” (cf. v. 6):

if any believer has a wife who is an

unbeliever, and she consents to live with

him, he should not divorce her. And if any

woman has a husband who is an unbeliever,

and he consents to live with her, she should

not divorce him.

In other words, this is not based on a command from God but rather on Paul’s advice for a suitable compromise. Paul asserts that if the unbelieving partner agrees to stay married, the believing partner has no legitimate right to divorce them. Why? Because the believer edifies and influences the unbeliever towards holiness (v. 14).

However, in 1 Cor. 7.15 there’s an exception. If the unbeliever doesn’t wish to stay married, the believing partner (the Christian) is under no obligation. He/she may get a divorce. For God called us to peace, not quarrels & fights. The “brother” (ἀδελφὸς) or “sister” (ἀδελφὴ) in verse 15 are obvious references to a “brother” or “sister” in the faith. It’s also clear from verse 12 that the so-called “brother” refers to the Christian *believer,* not to the unbeliever. So when Paul says, “in such a case the brother or sister is not bound” (οὐ δεδούλωται), he’s referring to the Christian husband or wife who is under no obligation to continue in this marriage (SBLGNT):

εἰ δὲ ὁ ἄπιστος χωρίζεται, χωριζέσθω · οὐ

δεδούλωται ὁ ἀδελφὸς ἢ ἡ ἀδελφὴ ἐν τοῖς

τοιούτοις, ἐν δὲ εἰρήνῃ κέκληκεν ἡμᾶς ὁ

θεός.

Translation (v. 15):

But if the unbelieving partner separates, let

it be so; in such a case the brother or sister

is not bound. It is to peace that God has

called you.

The term δεδούλωται (dedoulōtai) means “enslaved” or “under bondage.” It’s a verb. Specifically, it’s a perfect indicative middle or passive 3rd person singular. Strong's 1402: it comes from doulos; to enslave (douloó).

Returning to 1 Cor. 7.15, remember that the Pauline recommendation that’s offered with regard to marriage is “by way of concession, not of command” (cf. v. 6, 12). In other words, the believing partner can legally divorce if the unbelieving partner doesn’t want to stay married, but this is not based on the Lord’s command but rather on Paul’s advice! That is to say, you can still try to salvage your marriage, seek reconciliation, and try to work things out, provided both parties agree. But if they don’t, and the unbelieving partner doesn’t want to remain married, the Christian partner is allowed to divorce them. That’s essentially what Paul is saying in 1 Cor. 7.15!

We can speculate as to what this divorce entails, but Paul doesn’t actually spell it out for us. It can involve a number of issues. Some commentators think that the verse implies that the unbelieving party seeks a divorce on account of religion, and in hatred to it, and that they will not live with the believer unless Christ is denied. In that case, Paul exhorts us to let them depart.

Although that can certainly be one of the reasons for the divorce, there can be many others. The married life can be made intolerable if the unbeliever, for example, urges the believer to join in such acts as conscience cannot approve. Then there can be grounds for divorce.

Paul doesn’t tell us but leaves the question open because it applies to so many different situations and circumstances. One thing is certain. If one’s spouse is not a believer and wants a divorce, you are not under any obligation to remain married. But if the unbelieving partner wants to remain married, you are not allowed to divorce them. According to God, there’s only one ground for divorce, namely, infidelity. That’s the basic New Testament message concerning marriage!

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Remarriage

Later on in the chapter, another advice (v. 25) is given regarding remarriage, specifically the widow’s right to remarry (v. 39). Let’s take a closer look at the Greek text.

In 1 Cor. 7.39, the verb δέδεται is used, which comes from the verb δέω, meaning “to bind” or “to tie.” There’s also an alternative form of δέω derived from Ancient Greek, namely, δέννω ‎(dénnō)! And, of course, from this verb comes the verb δέδεται (1 Cor 7:39). Thus, *δέδεται* essentially means that someone or something “is bound” or “is chained.” The term δέδεται is a verb, perfect indicative middle or passive - 3rd person plural, with a ται ending! 1 Cor. 7.39 reads:

Γυνὴ δέδεται ἐφ’ ὅσον χρόνον ζῇ ὁ ἀνὴρ

αὐτῆς· ἐὰν δὲ κοιμηθῇ ὁ ἀνήρ, ἐλευθέρα

ἐστὶν ᾧ θέλει γαμηθῆναι, μόνον ἐν κυρίῳ ·

Translation:

A wife is bound as long as her husband

lives. But if the husband dies, she is free to

marry anyone she wishes, only in the Lord.

So, a wife is allowed to remarry (a Christian) if her husband passes away.

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Conclusion

This is simply a brief study of 1 Cor. 7. Rather than drawing conclusions from a few verses, a further study is needed to see how the entire New Testament (in canonical context) deals with the issue of marriage. In other words, the exegesis might be correct, but there may be additional elements that are mentioned elsewhere that change the overall meaning of the text. We should never build a theology based on one or two verses. That’s why we need a wider study (in canonical context) in order to verify the exegesis!

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None Of Him No More

Word Count: 4.7k Genre: Smut, Angst Summary: When Namjoon stands you up on your anniversary dinner, you automatically seek out Jeon Jungkook, your fiancé employee, and your part-time lover, to work your frustrations out. But maybe Jungkook doesn’t feel like being the punching back in your twisted relationship with his boss anymore.

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You slam the door to your car, not caring if you break its hinges from the force, and stomp towards the opening of the garage, your angry and ungraceful gait in complete contrast with the elegant dress you wore and the dainty heels strapped to your feet.

“Namjoon! Namjoon!” You shout, walking in circles around the empty cavernous garage and calling out for your fiance.

“He’s not here.” A familiar voice informs you and you whip around in its direction, seeing Jungkook running a cloth over his shitty, DIYed car. He observes the fancy way you’re dressed, hair in a complex updo and body clad in a little a black dress. Namjoon must have stood you up. Again.

“Well, where is he?” You seethe.

“Fuck if I know,” Jungkook mutters and goes back to polishing his car.

“That bastard left me waiting for him in the restaurant for an hour. My family has been going to that restaurant for years. They all know me there. It’s a busy fucking restaurant and I kept stalling them. Telling them that my fiancé will be there any minute now. That he definitely won’t cancel without telling me. Do you know how humiliating that was? He won’t even answer his fucking phone.”

Jungkook only half-listens to your rant. He’s heard it a dozen times before. It was typical of his careless boss to promise you something and go back on his word. Jungkook just didn’t think he’d go so low as to ditch you on your anniversary. Fucking ungrateful hyung…

Giving up on your futile search, you turn your wrath towards the only victim in sight. “Is that piece of junk done yet?” You ask irritably, indicating the car he was busy polishing.

You can see a muscle pop up in his jaw at your choice of words. He’d spent a lot of time gathering parts and incorporating them into the car and fixing whatever glitches come up. Yet that doesn’t stop you from regarding it with distaste. After all, it was a piece of shit car and you’d offered to buy him a better one before.

No, you did get him another one. You even asked for all the specific things you heard him rave about countless of times before even though you couldn’t understand what they meant to save your life. You customized a car as close to his dream one as possible, and it was fucking expensive. You had to fight tooth and nail with your father to let you buy it because even though your family is filthy rich, that car still cost more than any other your family owned and it wasn’t even for you. But it didn’t matter, it was worth it to make your Jungkookie happy. You had it delivered to his house with you inside it, dressed up in a red dress and being the proverbial bow on top of his gift, knowing he had a thing for car sex and wanting to break in his gift. But what did he do when he saw it?

He rejected it. And He didn’t even fuck you.

Not only that but he got angry with you, striking up a meaningless fight then promptly marching back into his apartment and slamming the door in your face. You ended up with the car, and you made sure to always flaunt it in front of him, taking revenge on him for the way he spoke to you that day and taking delight in the way his eyes shone with longing every time you showed up with it.

“Yes.” He hums, not looking at you and that’s when you notice his weird demeanor. Normally, Jungkook would be all over you by now. With Namjoon absent and having pissed you off, you were all free for the taking. But there he was, polishing off his car for what must be the 3rd time since you got there, the anger and irritation radiating from his body palpable in the stale garage air.

“Well, why don’t we christen it then?” You stalk towards him. Whatever the reason for his gloomy aura is, you are determined to lift both your moods up. Jungkook finally looks at you, immediately feeling weak from the sultry look in your half-lidded eyes that has always brought him to his knees. But now he now steels himself against it, not willing to give in this time. You strut to the side of the car and pull open the backseat door, leaning against it and licking your lips slowly. “Why don’t you get inside, honey, and let me ride your pretty cock until you burst?”

It was tempting, almost too tempting. Jungkook could feel his cock already starting to harden just at the raspy tone you use to adorn your command and his legs ache to follow your order.

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y’all gonna be mad at Jay Z on behalf of Beyoncé for the rest of your lives huh?

I’m telling you that if God is real, he don’t like women cuz this is the type of men he be leaving for us to date and marry.

I’m telling you that if God is real, he don’t like women cuz this is the type of men he be leaving for us to date and marry.

Come home to me...Darling

Jimin x Female Reader

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Part 1 of 2 (Part 2)

Genre: Cheating!AU, angst, soft vanilla smut , fluff

Warnings: Sex, Infidelity, Cursing, Sad

Word Count: 22,677

Summary: Jimin cheats and you try to make him stay. But whatever you do, it’s never enough.

A/N: YAAASSSSS, I’m done. This was originally supposed to be a one shot,,,but :),,,my brain,,,and hands,,,:),,,never know when to stop. My planning consisted of ‘Oh I could add this here’ or ‘Oh I could type more to this part’ and here we are 20k words later. Also plz let me know what you think.🥺 I need gratification babes🥺 Anyway, enjoy!

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Intertwine (M)

Character / Genre: Jung Hoseok x reader | Past Lovers!au, Slice of Life!au, Smut/Mature content, Angst | 12,908 words

Summary: The first boy is always the hardest to get over. It’s just the way the world works. He was the first of your everything and you were of his. You had thought that he would already have you erased from his memories, now a fragment of his long forgotten past, so you did the same to the memory that you had of him. Until an event led to both of your paths to once again converged and you are met with such circumstances, which made you finally realized just how wrong you have been for so long.

Warning: Involving infidelity, affair, and or course, more possibly graphic smut. I don’t know where this came from, to be honest. I have a little surprise at the end.

a/n: it took me so long to write this because I spent my time writing it constantly screaming at myself and my own writing, so I’m deeply sorry for whatever it si you are about to read | tagging @hobibliophile and @chokemejimin because they asked me too^^

Epilogue: Tidal Waves (coming soon!)

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of trust and lust;

genre: just piles of angst; best friend!au

pairing: jimin x reader;

length: 2.8k

synopsis: after spotting jimin’s girlfriend locking lips with another man on multiple occasions, ultimately, it becomes impossible for you to keep him hidden in the dark. trust in shambles and lust in a void,  jimin faces the difficult choice between a possibly lying best friend and a possibly cheating girlfriend.

prompts: “you can lie to yourself but don’t lie to me.”  “i tried my best to not feel anything for you. guess what? i failed.” 

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haunted

I had to admit that it was different. Part of me feels like we needed to reconnect in order to facilitate a proper goodbye and not admit to ourselves that it was idealized. We deserved that, at least I had missed her but when I touched her the ghost of the hands of another reminded me that she left She left with the intention of never coming back. She had left. She had left me. I loved her and maybe always will Only loving her this time didn't feel like a sacrifice I loved myself just enough to notice When we moved together our bodies were the same but contrived or not she tried to teach her heart to beat for another She left. Sleeping beside her reminded me of sleeping without her Hearing her apologize only reminded me of what she was sorry for The fact was she had left me and she couldn't un-leave me. For the remainder of the time we would spend together When she left a room I couldn't help but think of what it felt like when she didn't come back Even when she brushed her teeth, I was reminded her toothbrush still probably sat in a holder of someone else's sink. I tried to love her but not fearlessly like I had in the past because I wondered what it would have meant for me. I refused to find out what it may have meant for my soul to knowingly live in a haunted house

HOLY SHIT. TO THE ANON WHO RP'D WITH ME ON OMEGLE, BLESS YOU FOR THIS TOTALLY AWESOME AND ANGST-FILLED THORKI PIECE LIKE I CAN'T EVEN RIGHT NOW. OMFG IF YOU'RE ON TUMBLR AND YOU REMEMBER THIS, DON'T HESITATE TO CONTACT ME! >.<

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Lines Crossed

F G Am G

When we are together cant deny the carnal electricity Go on and surrender from the bounds of morality When we toe the line of plausible deniability Tell me, which one's better? Is it that or primal liberty?

Look at all the lines crossed Darling he's your boss Got a wife and kids What? Many people do it I'm not tryna justify It's body over mind Can't control it sometimes It's body over mind

If you have no sense of whats wrong and right Then maybe consequences will open you eyes

Oh I know it's dopamine Push a dose of epinephrine Losing you to the other side Honey open your eyes

Body over mind Over body Over mind Over body Over… Is it over? Surrender Which one's better?