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VENT POST. ‼️GENERAL CW‼️
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Im so fucking tired. The only emotions I feel anymore is exhaustion, sadness, stress, and whatever emotion “I’m a failure” is. I barely have enough energy to talk or type, things I enjoy don’t bring me happiness anymore, and no one seems to get that I’m trying my best. It’s hard to do math homework when I’m putting 200% of my energy towards just making it through the day. I’m hungry all the time but I don’t want to eat, I feel like I’m failing everything yet I don’t have enough energy to try, my parents have been doing nothing but making everything harder and I’m just so done with it all. I just want one week where I’m not stressed, where I don’t feel like everyone secretly hates me, where I’m not overwhelmed with thoughts of hating my body, so I could work and do all the things I need to do. Honestly the worst part isn’t that I’ve been feeling all this, the worst part is that no one can tell that I’m trying my best here. I spend late nights making sure my friends are okay, studying, doing homework, and I spend daytime doing anything and everything my parents ask of me. I don’t have any time to rest because I spend all my “free time” doing other necessary things.
I’m sorry to get so depressing on main, I just needed to scream into a void lol.
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Nyx Ulric should be an official cure for a depression. Just look at him and tell me his smile didn´t bring you serotonin.
RIP my queen Shelley Duvall i’ll miss you so much😭
What if I revived every dead fandom at once? What chaos would that cause? Is it worth it? Because I’m only seeking comfort in the form of group nostalgia in the end.
i always feel so out of place i know its a classic teenage trope but i feel misunderstood i never seem to belong not even with my own flesh and blood. i do not know what is wrong with me although everyone else seems to know there is a fundamental difference that i cannot fix. sometimes i will come across someone just like me we spot one another and keep each other afloat perhaps we are the only ones that can the trouble is when they try to conform like the rest that is how they lose me for i cannot be like them and i know that others see it too. they know that i am different that there is something irreparably wrong.
people always think that i am faking it
something i had never considered
yet they seem to claim it regardless
i have thought of telling them otherwise
but they would never believe me.
i often mistake my relationships with others for genuine connection and feel that we are one and the same yet i still manage to be left behind i truly wish that i could pretend that i could be someone different but i cannot which is something that no one seems to understand to be someone else would be my salvation.
sometimes i feel like a flower searching for sunlight in the soil.
how could you possibly
be so blind
to what you have done
to me?
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how could i possibly
be so blond
to what you have done
for me?
i never used to want to be pretty i just wanted to get my day over with and head to bed. these days i am less lucky i walk with beautiful people hoping to soak it in yet my endeavours never cease to be fruitless. to be beautiful would be to be another.
the bruises that your bitemarks left on my thighs are the only remnants that i have of you once you are gone yet i still relish in them.
Just need some help right now, not feeling up to anything and being a bit depressed today. My girlfriend just broke up with me too so that isn't too good (we're still friends tho), going back to my annoying dad for 5 days, so I may not be able to be online too much, sorry...
I’m struggling to not beat up my sister purely because she’s going to make me relapse
People don’t realize how bad depression actually affects a person until your living with it. It doesn’t only affect the person with depression but the people around them as-well.
As a person with depression it’s so much more than what people make it out to be sometimes. I’m bed rotting for 99% of my day. We’re not always sad, a lot of us still smile and laugh. It’s aching feeling of emptiness and hopelessness. It’s feeling like nothing can fulfill you anymore, cause for the few minutes you are happy you go back to feeling alone and empty. It’s waking up in the morning and finding no purpose in your life, yes we have goals, a lot of us do but we have the hopeless feeling of we will never fulfill those goals. These feelings will take over almost every aspect in your life.
Hanging out with friend’s won’t feel the same, it will stop being fulfilling, and things you once loved doing will only fall into the background of your empty pained mind. You’ll lose every motivation you had in life, showering will become of difficult task, brushing your teeth, eating, sleeping, drinking, and so much more will start to feel meaningless.
It’s not only draining for the person dealing with depression but also people around them. A lot of people don’t know how to help or react so a lot of the time all they can do is stand by and watch as the person they love fall into a state of emptiness.
Depression has so many bigger affects than most people realize.
Hi yes adding to what you’ve said! I genuinely love questions like this. It’s such a deep question and though I am not an actual major in psychology (not yet atleast) I am someone who as well had my fair share of struggles with it and I’ve done a lot of research. Depression can be an umbrella term, yes, though I’ve never seen it that way. Everyone is a little depressed or has anxiety which is very true, only difference is when it becomes a diagnosis it’s more of a disorder. Which technically just means it’s making you struggle a lot more than you are suppose to and it’s keeping you from working on daily tasks. Also what you have described is chronic depression. Chronic depression is a type of depression (there are many types) it’s something you are born with and you have to live with for your whole life. It’s mostly created from genetics, so if you have parents who suffer from mental illness you are likely to also get that same issue. Depression isn’t necessarily curable and more you learn to cope with it (going back to how I said I think everyone has a little depression). It’s a long process of healing from the way it overtook your thoughts and body and learn to live with it rather than let it control you.
People don’t realize how bad depression actually affects a person until your living with it. It doesn’t only affect the person with depression but the people around them as-well.
As a person with depression it’s so much more than what people make it out to be sometimes. I’m bed rotting for 99% of my day. We’re not always sad, a lot of us still smile and laugh. It’s aching feeling of emptiness and hopelessness. It’s feeling like nothing can fulfill you anymore, cause for the few minutes you are happy you go back to feeling alone and empty. It’s waking up in the morning and finding no purpose in your life, yes we have goals, a lot of us do but we have the hopeless feeling of we will never fulfill those goals. These feelings will take over almost every aspect in your life.
Hanging out with friend’s won’t feel the same, it will stop being fulfilling, and things you once loved doing will only fall into the background of your empty pained mind. You’ll lose every motivation you had in life, showering will become of difficult task, brushing your teeth, eating, sleeping, drinking, and so much more will start to feel meaningless.
It’s not only draining for the person dealing with depression but also people around them. A lot of people don’t know how to help or react so a lot of the time all they can do is stand by and watch as the person they love fall into a state of emptiness.
Depression has so many bigger affects than most people realize.
I dropped my ramen :(
