Feeling Down - Tumblr Posts
Poem: Sometimes
Sometimes I spiral down to
Gloomy thoughts of you and I,
And I want to go back to the
Simpler days when my mind
Wouldn’t drift back to you –
Not even only sometimes.
j.p
Today would have been 5 years since we met. 5 years...man how have time flew by so fast.
We're not the same people we were 5 years ago. Feelings, emotions, personality changed. I missed that person I met 5 years ago. This person now is a stranger to me. This person is not the same person. This person is different. This person isn't my person anymore.
I still mourned and grief for something that wasn't meant to be.
Time isn't on my side. I don't know how long this process of healing myself will take. I know there is no time line but as a women my time is limited to having a child, having a family. Whereas he can have a family much later in life.
That's so unfair to me. It's so unfair that all the time invested into this person, this relationship wasn't fruitful. I feel like a failure. Feel hopelessness and sadness. Feeling lost. Feeling confused. Feeling empty and lonely.
Currently in this weird funk/headspace. Time is moving but I'm not. It feels like I'm stuck in the same place, personally and professionally, but time is still ticking away.
*big sigh*
In case anyone is having a bad night:
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*tucks you in with fuzzy blanket* *pats your head*
You’ll be okay, friend <3
We've never met but can we have a coffee or something? It's in the middle of the night and I'm lying in my bed listening to aesthetic music while the rain keeps pouring down. It's quiet peaceful and I'm thinking a lot about my future. I'm just so scared of it and that I'll never accomplish anything. All of my friends are getting somewhere and I feel like I'm the online one that stands still. I really want to change something but I can't. Everytime I want to imagine my life in ten years my mind goes blank. I just feel like I will end all of this myself. I don't have any suicide thoughts lately but I feel like I will end it. Not today and not tomorrow but someday. And it scares the hell out of me. But I don't know how to change it. I'm not truly happy at the moment but that's ok, i haven't been since I was 13 maybe 14. It feels like no matter how hard I try I won't get far. But I'm not afraid of failing. Maybe that's part of the problem. Nothing makes fun anymore. If it is sewing, photography or cosplay. Yes, I still laugh and everything but I notice that at some point I'm just sitting there besides the people I love and I'm... Just sad? For no reason. It happened before but not so often as it does now and yet I have no idea how to change it
it possible to feel homesick in the house u r living,breathing,Is it possible???? What could I be longing for??
Maybe warm eyes instead of cold and blank stares,maybe beautiful rings of laughter instead of devouring silence,maybe inviting arms instead of arms that shove me down , maybe a lifetime of talks and laughter instead of my every memories is blurred by tears..maybe acceptance,maybe something else other than this,,something other than nothing..
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I am afraid I will never kick my issues. Right when I think I’ve got a grip, I slip. Again, and again, and again.
I’m so sick of this.
How many more mistakes do I need to make? What is it going to take for me to stop?
I don’t know what to do or think anymore. Ugh.
Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion -NF Holymoly! I really should edit more drawings like this one. Like it? I would be happy about a follow or a honest and appropriate comment! :) #skull #skulldrawing #skeletons #skeleton #art #myart #drawing #coaldrawing #pencildrawing #selflove #trusting #trustissue #mentalhealth #depression #deadbody #darkart #artist #youngartist #betrayal #broken #brokeninside #macabre #zombie #zombiegirl #bones #rotten #lonely #aloneinsidemyhead #emotiondrawing #friendship #lizzyeatsart #feelingdown #forsaken #pencilart #sadness #twoface #nf
Thinking about reasons to live and trying out the pink/purple aesthetics in drawing while listening to weird core
Yeah, my life is a definition of chaotic.
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