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Anyone else beginning to understand your diy style and techniques? And thus looking back at your very first attempts and wanting to vomit? I ruined perfectly fine pieces of clothing. They spent their days hanging on racks in stores waiting to be loved, were bought for undoubtedly unreasonable prices, loved well and eventually donated to a thrift somewhere... only to be absolutely DEFILED by a chubby baby punk with a pair of scissors and a bag of safety pins. Yes, they were originally boring and basic, but my attempts to spice them were largely failures and one hundred percent lacked any vision or skill.

And yes, everyone starts somewhere! First DIYs were an important part of the process to mature us into our current skill level.

Anyways, I just threw away two shirts.

Is someone who overpacks a red or green flag? Cause on one hand they're taking up extra space, but on the other hand it shows that they're always prepared and think ahead, but then again they may be an over thinker too...

Comment your thoughts, this interests me.

Two random designs I did yesterday. Didn't even measure out the "WEIRD!" one. Just opened up a bottle of paint and started squirting it everywhere. We getting wild and I may or may not have an addiction to slapping splattered designs all over anything I can get my grubby fingers on. Or maybe I just have a crappy diy addiction in general. I spent 60$ on spikesandstuds.com last night. Haha.

Anyway, pretty satisfied with these.

I've started Season Two of Bungo Stray Dogs and can we all just take a moment to appreciate how masterfully written Dazai's backstory segment is? My mind is blown and I have cried many tears. The aspiring author in me is furiously scribbling down notes.

Also I've realized I aggressively kin Dazai. Which is probably not a good sign. Haha.

It is finished. Was it corny? Absolutely.

Do I have any regrets? None.

Rewatching some scenes from those movies and listening to the music has reminded me that Descendants was the first step in my "style journey" you could say. I remember seeing all the studs and black and leather of the characters and admiring how awesome it looked. I recall the very second it dawned on my pea brain "hey, you choose your clothes you goof bag, just do it." So I did and just never stopped. Kinda funny how things like that happen, isn't it?

I have also had the realization that these movies are partially where I got my love of EDM from. But the biggest realization of all is I now understand where my type in men came from. Two words: Harry Hook.

Seriously, Thomas Doherty had a GRIP on me in that film. Bro was literally going around fawning over this dominant woman, swaying when he walked, slurring in a Scottish accent and being generally rebellious all while in O-ring belts and aggressive eyeliner. Like DAMN. This is a corny kid's musical produced by DISNEY and I STILL want him.

Can we normalize listening to songs from TV shows and movies you watched as a kid? Cause you can't tell me the Descendants tracklist doesn't SLAP and I'm about to go through ALL OF IT.

Me too. Got em from her. It's apparently transferred through biting, so y'know, it was bound to happen eventually.

YOU HAVE RABIES?!????!!??!??

Emotionally yes.

I have problems with fear and anxiety and started really freaking out about the dark today because the dark is scary. I started praying and thought of you and how you were really shining your light in a community and platform that can mostly wants to be against us. But you were there shouting the love of Christ. You’re awesome man <3

You have no idea how much that means to me. I really appreciate it. Jesus is there for you, always. Even in the dark🖤🖤🖤

Truth is, I'm a fairly negative and very mentally ill person irl... But I don't want anyone else to live their lives that way. I'm tired of all the hatred in this world, swallowing us. We need more confidence in ourselves. We need more hope. Less shame. More love. Love is punk rawk as hell🤘

In life, I believe we are all just addicts struggling with our drug of choice.

For some, it may be actual drugs. Meth, cocaine, heroine, marijuana... whatever suits them. For others it is alcohol or cigarettes or other tobacco products.

It may be pornography. Or self harm.

I have wrestled with my drug of choice for about four years. Indulging daily or weekly. I'm accustomed to counting wins by the day.

...

Tomorrow, I'm going out with some friends to celebrate two months clean. Eventually I may relapse back into my old habits, but that's not the point. The point is proving to myself that I am able. Recovery is possible.

I WILL NOT BE A SLAVE TO MY DRUG.

And I'll encourage you to adopt the same mantra. These addictions and this society that fuels them? It can't hold us. We are free.

And just so you guys know, it was @purplebehittindifferent who decided she wanted to celebrate my milestone. She's been very helpful with my mental health the short years I've known her. One of my favorite people🖤🖤🖤

In life, I believe we are all just addicts struggling with our drug of choice.

For some, it may be actual drugs. Meth, cocaine, heroine, marijuana... whatever suits them. For others it is alcohol or cigarettes or other tobacco products.

It may be pornography. Or self harm.

I have wrestled with my drug of choice for about four years. Indulging daily or weekly. I'm accustomed to counting wins by the day.

...

Tomorrow, I'm going out with some friends to celebrate two months clean. Eventually I may relapse back into my old habits, but that's not the point. The point is proving to myself that I am able. Recovery is possible.

I WILL NOT BE A SLAVE TO MY DRUG.

And I'll encourage you to adopt the same mantra. These addictions and this society that fuels them? It can't hold us. We are free.

This reminds me... there was one time I met @purplebehittindifferent at a rock convention to hang out. I was wearing one of my spiked vests, obviously, because rock convention. Purple legit CRAWLS OUT HER CAR WINDOW to come see me AND ONCE SHE GETS TO ME stops dead in her tracks with a look of such sadness and disappointment. She was like "I-I can't hug you! You're pokey!"

I opened up my jacket so she wouldn't get spiked and she got SO excited and threw her arms around me. I still think about that sometimes, cutest thing🤣

Get you guys some lovely normie friends to complain about how pokey you are.

💜How am I supposed to hug her if she’s so spiky❤️

New spider friend joining soon!

(Ash belongs to @artofkhaos404 !)

My Spiderverse masterpost

Well this is not what I expected.

Since I listen to almost every genre listed above, I spent a whole ass day trying to decide. I'm most into folk punk right now, though, so we went with that.

If I HAD to name my top five it would be:

Folk Punk, Pop Punk, Emo, Heavy Metal, Punk Rawk.

My least favorite would have to be grunge. It's just waaaayyyy too soft and chill for me, lacks a lot of punch for my taste. But maybe I haven't heard the right grunge? Idk. My dad raised me on Creed/Scott Stapp and a friend of mine is a fan of No Name Faces. Which I enjoy Scott Stapp's album "Proof of Life" but I'm not even sure if that's grunge? Eh.

Point is, folk punk is amazing and if you haven't checked it you need to. Great background noise for panic attacks, long drives, parties and crying sessions- it covers all the bases!

LET'S GET CONTROVERSIAL.

What's an alternative band that is loved by the scene, but you despise, think is overhyped, etc? And why do you think that? This interests me.

Being a walking bucket of red flags and contradictions is all "haha they think I'm this, that or the other that's so hilarious."

...until you actually try and snag you a man💀

I'm Christian but alternative and anarchist. Straight but gay coded. Fat but proud of it. Mentally screwed yet strong willed. There's no hope, I send mixed signals by breathing. Anyone relate?

I am learning that boxes do not make you complete. Placing a title on your life does not prove that you deserve to live it. It will not prove that you belong. You do not belong. Few do. This world is not our home.

Boxes are prisons. Don't be their prisoner.

Defy their expectations. Break free.

There's nothing wrong with you.

They simply fear what they cannot label.

...

You do not have to prove that you deserve to exist. You can simply exist. You deserve life. Do not resent your own breath.

Bestie: Drink water! Take your meds!

Me: I SURVIVE ONLY ON ROCK AND ROLL, FANFICTION AND TWINKS LEAVE ME ALONE-

I'm convinced there's nothing more Christian Punk than praising God with some kick ass, deep as hell, genuine worship songs and yelling "F**K YEAH!" when it gets to that one deep part that always makes you tear up.

Hate to say it, but 61.9% of you guys are wrong... I'm a Black Parade FANATIC. That album is an unbridled masterpiece. There's nothing like it; revolutionary.

Not to say that TCfSW doesn't have some hits too, though. Thank You for the Venom gets me every time, and no one can deny I'm Not Okay and Helena.

But overall, my true affections certainly lie with the Black Parade 🫡

I'm convinced that folk punk is crack cocaine in disguise and I will not elaborate on this theory any further.

We are imperfect beings and God is just.

Therefore, He does not expect perfection out of us: only remorse for our sin and the willingness to get back up when we fail.

Repent and try again.

Remember not to compare your spiritual journey to those around you, either. Like in life, we all mature at different rates and none of us are better than the other.

Whether your sin of habit is as complex an issue as sexual immorality or as difficult to break as habitual lying... all sin is the same in the eyes of God. We each have our own struggle. What is thoughtless for you is a war for me. I may never understand why your battle is your own- hell, you may not comprehend it yourself! But what's amazing is God intimately knows each and every struggle you have and will ever face. Jesus is the gateway to eternal, pure empathy for the corrupted human heart.

He knows it's difficult for you...

He also knows you're trying.

Repent.

Try again.

I think I'm gonna speak for a lot of Anarchists when I say this... stop trying to shove us in political boxes. Anarchy, by definition, is the REJECTION of those political boxes.

Do I see the Republican general view on some issues? Yes. Do I agree with the liberal mindset on other issues? Yes.

That doesn't make me Democratic OR Republican. That doesn't make me left wing, right wing, liberal or conservative.

It makes me a person with a conscience, moral code, opinion and belief. It makes me human. For the love of Jesus Christ of Nazareth PLEASE stop trying to categorize it and categorize me. People are so much more than labels, stereotypes and titles.