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I miss feeling alone in a crowd full of people that i absolutely never saw before and probably never will see again. I could just camuflate myself and contemplate about my insignificant existance in this marvelous world

ALONE MEANS NOT LONELY

Alone and lonely are two different terms and has a different definition. Majority of the people are full of negativity at the time that they are going to hand a response to the question, what would be the word ALONE means? 

First, you can be alone without getting lonely, being alone doesn’t mean that you are out of control to everyone. It’s just that you can find peace in it. Second, loneliness is you can suffer for whatever reason it is, a harsh feeling that sometimes you can't get rid of it. It will us suffer more from pain, stress, anxiety that turns out into depression. Overflowing pessimism from loneliness, isn't it?

I think spending time with only yourself is a peculiar thing or feeling that you can’t find everywhere. Every part of you needs time to be silent sometimes. Sometimes, you can just cut a bond with certain, uncertain people to appreciate your own company. It has a lot of something to do with your development, productiveness, thoughts, etc. So give yourself the topmost priority. 

There’s nothing wrong with being alone. We don’t need to remain in a constant situation where’s everything is favorable to others, turned out to be as beneficial for them and not to you, actually messed up.

When you’re in a state of being alone, you are clearly observing and realizing what you really want in your life, you are embracing yourself, listening to your inner voices, and that is the reason why you are loving yourself so much more.

Always learn to be alone and contented, by that you aren’t able to experience the feeling of being lonely.

Note: Just decided to post this now, at this time because later... it is gonna be the first day of February. Yay!

Lights at the end of tunnels

From time to time I receive messages from survivors at various stages in the recovery process.  

First, I am honoured that you trust me with your stories (some of you telling someone for the first time!), and that you think I may have something of value to say to you.

Second, I’m sorry I don’t always respond promptly.  I can get overwhelmed easily and that slows my response time.  Sometimes by, like, months.

Third, if there is one thing I wish I could have convinced myself of earlier it would be that being alone is not the worst.  It takes practice, but it can be pretty great.

You are awesome (yes, I promise), and spending time nurturing your interests can be an amazing part of your healing.  Someone tried to erase my personality; I took it back, piece by piece, doing new things or re-discovering the old ones that make me happy.  

Being beholden to no one is freedom, and it was important for me to get to know, sort out, and trust my head again.

Alone there are so many possibilities that don’t exist in the vacuum of an abusive relationship.  So many possibilities for a content, peaceful existence. 

I hope you believe me.

Happy New Year.

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Hopeless romantic girlies ✨

But really what if? I'm tired.....

Creds to the artist!

I think I’m learning to become comfortable in my loneliness, which I guess I was going to have to learn to do sooner or later. I would complain about the lack of social interaction I can say that it feels better than overextending myself to talk to the people I consider friends when they take so long to respond or don’t respond at all and then rarely take the initiative to reach out to me and with me already feeling a sense of stress that I don’t even know why I’m feeling it just wasn’t sustainable and yes it does hurt but so did being ignored and disregarded.

sometimes I wonder, what if I was selfless and giving, at least then I wouldn't care about what people were taking from me

I love being alone because then nobody can make me feel unwanted.

What day could be a happy one

When you are just alone

Longing for that one

Too far away

Where is the road to the sun

Where is the road to happiness

I need to walk it even alone

And leave behind all my sadness

Even if i travel the world

Because you left my world

I will never find you

You left out of the blue

Leaving me torn

Among the thorns

But if i die, it all would be in vain

So i will live and stand up in pain

The moon is full tonight

When will i have the sight

Of your face near mine

Like olive in brine

In a soft romantic bed

We would have dived

In each other's internal world

Under the african moon's sky

If i was born with another blood

Would i have been able to be with you

Alas even if my love flows like a flood

I can't still change my blood for you

If we were in a shoujo manga

We would have been together

After a long story and a few aria

There would have been an ever after

Alas we are in real life

Among it a real knife

Cut down our relation

In the heart of the nation

I am not sure to be able

To let go,

And just turn the table

In one go.

Is it love or foolishness

In any case i am a mess

In front of my reality

I am in some very deep sheet

In this big bed of thorns

Can't even move to the backseat

Or choose to be unborn

Sunset kissed the sea

Just like you do to me

Frail sweet kiss of love

To a girl from a guy above

Nothing but kiss of eyes

Since we are parting ways