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happy mother's day to all mothers, caregivers, and older siblings. especially to insystem mothers/caregivers/older siblings. this includes parents/caregivers of syskids & littles and/or age regressors. these are critically important roles in people's lives. for internal caregivers, you bring an incredibly valuable role and service into the functions of your system and you cannot be replaced. the fact that it is done internally does not take away from the effort or energy you put into it and its impact. thank you for what you do.

Ok, I wanna check is this is “normal” or not:

I’ll answer first: yes. We did have that feeling. Specifically Blue. Blue had that feeling a lot where they would wake up and see something and wonder “did an alter do that?” Despite not being aware of the system at the time. Literally the wondered if someone else in the body did something. Like wtf??

How tf did they not know sooner???

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Another poll kinda related to the earlier one that is less specific.

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Important edit:

See fault as who should be held most accountable for the action.

Also, the responses that this has gotten so far have really helped because a lot of this was extremely related to our system’s past trauma from being emotionally abused (being given a bullshit definition of system responsibility, being “held accountable” wasn’t to make amends but to be held at fault and shamed/blamed no matter how much you tried to change and get better, and those internalized beliefs affecting my own view of myself through feeling as if I should feel guilty despite trying everything I could to make amends for what I did)

Thank you to everyone who responded to this already. Your responses have been truly helpful! :)

Would anyone be wanting to be friends on SimplyPlural?

If you send a friend request, just put in the description you're from Tumblr

For the comfort for people in system, only friend if CDD (traumagenic) please

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Hello y’all! Gonna info-dump about a disorder I have now! (There’s a specific mutual that this is for and if you see thing you’ll know it’s you :D)

So I have P-DID, aka Partial-DID, aka Partial-Dissociative Identity Disorder

Before I can go more in depth about P-DID, first I need to explain regular DID, so

What Is DID? (Btw I’m not a professional so this is may be worded wrong but I’m trying my best)

DID is a dissociative disorder that forms when a child, roughly between the ages of 2-8 but those can have some wiggle room, goes through extreme and/or repetitive trauma. Basically, this disorder causes a split of the base identity into at least 2 distinct identities, but there can be any number of identities, or alters as I will refer to them from now on. A person with multiple alters is referred to as a system.

With DID, but not required of every system (there are other disorders that can cause systems, like OSDD and UDD) there are memory walls. The effect of these memory walls is to, well, block off memories between alters. The strength of the amnesia differs from system to system, with some not remember anything unless they are in front (or driving the car that is the body), while others can remember what other alters do crystal clear. Not only does the strength change from system to system, it can also change from alter to alter. Meaning that the wall between alters A and B might be strong and A won’t remember anything B does and vice verse, the wall between alter C and D could be thin or nonexistent so they share memories.

That’s the basics of DID, if anyone wants a more in depth explanation of that, or anything else in this post either, let me know and I’ll happily do so.

Now, what is P-DID?

P-DID is exactly like it sounds, Partial-DID. This means that some of the effects of the disorder are not as pronounced as regular DID. What does this mean?

It can, but doesn’t have to, mean little to no memory walls. It can, but doesn’t have to, mean less alters/less defined alters. It can, but doesn’t have to, mean that there is less switching of front (when alter A takes control of the body after alter B was out and vice versa).

What does that mean for my experience?

In my system, there is significantly less switching. Instead, 95% of the time me, the host (meaning the alter who is in front the majority of the time) is in front while the other 5% of the time a different alter is in front. Instead, the majority of the time I am usually co-con with someone else (co-con means co-conscious, when 2 or more alters are in the brain seat at the same time, or it could be both in the driving seat, or one in the driver one in the passenger ect. It means we are both conscious of the out side world at that moment).

It also means that between me and Most (not all) alters, there is very little memory wall. I remember the majority of what the others do when in front and vice versa.

It Also means that while we have a large number of known alters (and a probably larger number of unknown ((to me)) alters) most of them are fragments, or not as defined alters.

What is my experience like?

Like I said earlier, I am usually co-con with someone else. About 60% of the time, I am not alone in the front and 35% of the time I am (5% left for when I am not in front at all).

More over, in that 60% when I am co-con, about 30% of it is when someone else is in the driver seat instead of me, so I am left to watch what they do but not do it myself. I can give feed back and talk to them and such, but ultimately they are in control until I am back in the drivers seat.

I also experience little memory wall, when it comes to the front at least. There are only about 2 alters who I remember little to nothing when they front. This made it a bit difficult for me to even figure out I had the disorder since I had very few memory gaps. Instead, the memory wall that is there between most of the alters an I is an emotional memory wall.

For example, this means when I think about a trauma that I did not experience/it’s not my job to hold, I can remember what happened, sometimes in excruciating detail, but I do not feel the emotions connected to it. I can remember that we were upset or hurt or whatever during the event, but I do not feel anything for or from that event myself.

I only figured it out because I remembered a short period of time where I wasn’t the host, and instead someone of a completely different gender than me was. This, for pretty obvious reasons, led to me being confused and questioning it until eventually someone reached out and told me that yes, I was in fact part of a system. This took many months of questioning and even talking to a different system and asking questions before they finally told me.

How does having P-DID affect my day to day life?

Honestly? Not very much. Sometimes I’ll feel random emotions and be confused before I remember that there are others in my brain and it’s probably them, or I’ll have occasional bad memory and suddenly someone will tell me the thing I need to remember (or more often than not hear someone laugh at me for forgetting, the bastards).

Sometimes I’ll starts disassociating really hard and then suddenly someone else is moving our body and talking with our voice.

Another big way it affects me is that as it turns out I am a fictive. A fictive is an alter that is made based off of something that already exists, whether that’s a whole other person or a character from a book, game, movie, ect. This means that I Do Not match what the body looks like on the inside, this was another way I figured it out because everytime I looked in the mirror I would go “hey wait a minute, that’s not my face” before realizing that yes, it was in fact my face.

That’s the most of it for now, if anyone has any questions, or wants further explanation, you can either comment/reblog asking for that, or you can DM me directly :)

Thanks for reading, and for the one specific mutual I hope this helped in any way at all

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For anyone wondering, the terms OSDD-1b and OSDD-1a have roots in the DSM-IV but aren't considered an official diagnosis any more. By all means, keep using the terms if they help you to differentiate and find community, just know they're not official diagnoses.

Not an OSDD system, but as you (OP) said, a lot of it comes from back when OSDD was called DDNOS in the DSM IV.

DDNOS-1a and DDNOS-1b were legitimate psych diagnoses pre DSM-V, and a lot of information was updated to say OSDD, but didn't take into account the removal of 1, 1a, and 1b (I wouldn't be surprised if people used find and replace on website resources)

DDNOS 1 – DID but switching not observed by clinician, or amnesia for the significant past but not everyday life. DDNOS 1a – Like DID, but with less distinct parts/no alters. Alters may be emotional fragments or the same individual at different ages. Can experience emotional amnesia rather than physical amnesia. DDNOS 1b – Like DID, but no amnesia between alters.

Similar to how some chose to continue calling themselves MPD, those that were diagnosed using the DSM-IV or earlier just chose to continue using those clarifiers, or they find adding the clarifiers create a shortcut to explaining their symptom set; especially in system spaces.

P-DID isn't recognised in the DSM, however it is used in the ICD* *Chapter 6 of the ICD specifically covers mental, behavioural and neurodevelopmental disorders. Moreover, while the DSM is the most popular diagnostic system for mental disorders in the US, the ICD is used more widely in Europe and other parts of the world, giving it a far larger reach than the DSM. An international survey of psychiatrists in sixty-six countries compared the use of the ICD-10 and DSM-IV. It found the former was more often used for clinical diagnosis while the latter was more valued for research.[14] This may be because the DSM tends to put more emphasis on clear diagnostic criteria, while the ICD tends to put more emphasis on clinician judgement and avoiding diagnostic criteria unless they are independently validated. That is, the ICD descriptions of psychiatric disorders tend to be more qualitative information, such as general descriptions of what various disorders tend to look like. The DSM focuses more on quantitative and operationalized criteria; e.g., to be diagnosed with X disorder, one must fulfill 5 of 9 criteria for at least 6 months - wikipedia (DSM). Who does your diagnosis and what country you are in will influence whether you're able to get a P-DID diagnosis; the same goes for complex PSTD. C-PSTD (complex ptsd) is only recognised as a diagnosis by the ICD, however there is hope that with the DSM-VI (DSM-6) that they may add C-PTSD as a differing diagnosis from PTSD.

Question for OSDD-1a/1b systems: Why do you use 1a/1b?

I ask because 1a and 1b do not exist within OSDD. What you're thinking of is DDNOS-1a/1b which are outdated. Similar to how MPD is the outdated term for DID. To my knowledge, OSDD-1a/1b has never been a thing before. OSDD is just OSDD or P-DID, depending on where you live. So where did this idea come from in system communities? You can't be diagnosed with OSDD-1a/1b, so if you've done extensive research to self diagnose with this, where did you get the idea that OSDD-1a/1b is a thing instead of just OSDD or P-DID? *DISCLAIMER: This is not asked out of hate. I am genuinely curious. Genuine answers will not be met with arguments.*

“No One’s Ever Really Gone” is the Quote that comes to our mind when we think of fusion. If your a System you probably experienced this one, one way or another, and when that happens there’s a certain type of loss that happens not like oh that part is gone forever because their characteristic is sprinkled throughout different parts or one part, but they are not their own identity anymore. Either fusion happens voluntarily or involuntarily but We/I try to think this quote that Luke Skywalker said. “No One’s Ever Really Gone”

hey systems I would advise you to keep a certain number of things out of your bio because OSDDID inherently says a lot about your past and triggers so there are certain details only your close friends should know, and not just anyone perusing the internet

your age - predators are more than happy to fake their age to match yours. Being young and plural are unfortunately traits prone to manipulation

your headcount - aside from assholes fakeclaiming you, people can take it and use it against you.

who your trauma holders are, and, more generally, the roles of your alters. it's basically telling abusers who to target and who to avoid

any information about your littles whatsoever. For all the world knows, you have none. same with who age regresses.

any system descriptors beyond DID/OSDD1/PDID/etc. the internet does not need to know if you have complex DID or something like that; it's your trauma.

what your triggers are. people will try to trigger you on purpose. this includes front triggers

all your other disorders, particularly personality disorders - abusers can try to make you dependent, "favorite" them, avoid others, etc.

These aren't rules, and there are obviously different situations that call for different levels of privacy. Just use your judgment: who can see this? anyone who came across my blog or people I friended on simply plural? trusted friends on simply plural? Systems are very vulnerable to further abuse because of their fragmentation and trauma mindsets. Don't let anyone take advantage of that.

Kinger from The Amazing Digital Circus has OSDD 1A