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I need to starve, for him.

Todays stats…

went up in weight a little… 53.3 kg

thought i looked kinda okay today but now as i look at the pictures im starting to look fatter and fatter…

him: “what are you hiding? why do you have so many secrets?”

me: looking at the n@kd pictures of myself to see if i gained any visible w8, also looking at half n@kd strangers bones to compare

That one guy i wrote abt... TEA + i need help lmao

So i dont post here a lot but when i do i usually post abt sh1ts with f00d OR the guy i have this huuuuuuuuge crush on. Well turns out the guy dont like me the same way back. Maybe he thinks i treat him like a boyfriend, but the sad truth is i treat him like any other guy i would want to be friends with. Like my boy bsf (this will most likely sound "pick me" but please, girls, we all have that one guyfriend that is lika a real brother to us and that we love like family) but anyways. This guy that i like, he treats me like a girlfriend sometimes. When we were at our friends house we ended up cuddled against each other UNDER A FILT and that guy starts rubbing his hand up and down my leg. Then he proceeds to hold my hand a couple of times LIKE WTF MAN and then now, when we are at school he sits one chair away from me (the classroom is empty and we went in togheter) please help wtf should i do????????????

Anyone Want to be Ana Buddies?

just drank half of a diet dr pepper, good luck trying to find my waist this year

anyone else just scroll through Pinterest and look at thinspo for hours at a time... because same

WORKOUTS THAT WILL MAKE YOU SKINNY FAST!

okay so I've been doin this and it works wonders!

WALK FOR AN HOUR EVERY DAY! and I mean speed walk, like really get into it girl. blast your favorite music and pretend you are cat walking!- according to my watch I burn 400 calories every time I walk for an hour!

NOW FOR THE GIRLIES WHO HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY AND DON'T WANNA LEAVE THEIR HOUSE TO WALK (because real asf)

JUMPING JACKS FOR 30 MINS!- you'll burn over 300 calories doing that!

WIEIAD- 7/12/24

Aight gang I am really REALLY embarrassed about this one. It wasn't a binge because I still had control over what was going into my body, I was just getting force fed food from my family 🥲

Meal of the Day- Burger with fries from chilis, a small ceaser salad, and cake w/ ice cream... (and these portions weren't small gang *sobs*)

Cal Intake (estimate)- 2000+

Positives! I am starting work tomorrow!!! So, I will finally be able to get away from my feeder family! I'll def let y'all know how that goes! I am not gonna beat myself over this just gonna see how far I can restrict without getting caught lol

QUESTION

Should I invest my money in a corset or a waist trainer?? Will it actually make my waist tiny? Or is it a fad.

my only motivation to restrict is to give my younger self the body she always wanted, skin and bones.

Love winter <33

୨winter th!nspo୧

all photos off 📌trest

✧* May 11th *̥˚

⚠️ TW ED CONTENT + FAKE BODY

today’s cw

some bodie chex

+ personal notes/motivation :3

DISCLAIMER:

I am and always will be pro-recovery

this post is for myself and to find like minded community which understands my struggle

e/ds are an extremely lonely thing to go through, so if you’re not in this community pls just block

this is my third blog so far, and I hate having to remake just to be reported again and again (it’s so much work on both our ends)

✧ weigh-in:

height - 5’3 (160 cm)

cw - 103.6 lbs (47.0 kgs)

bmi - 18.35

✧ b0die ch3x:

✧ misc:

note - I can feel the f4t growing back on my ribs and hips and it’s scaring the ever living shit out of me

reminder - I have to push myself harder, I have to remember not to eat/to refuse food/to portion control, I have to keep restricting until I reach my goal

p.s. - pls remember to take care of yourselves, even if you’re actively harming (whether it’s e/d or s/h), always practice damage control to minimize your long term suffering!

✧* May 12/13th *̥˚

⚠️ TW ED CONTENT + FAKE BODY

no cw today :(

some b0die ch3x

+ a few f4st1ng l0gs!

DISCLAIMER:

Pro-recovery, always

Please block, don’t report

Personal diary for my own journey with 4n0r3x1a

✧ b0die ch3x for May 12th:

✧ b0die ch3x for May 13th:

✧ f4st1ng l0gs from the last few days:

✧ notes:

didn’t have access to a scale today, which always makes me hella paranoid :((

also could’ve don’t better w f4st1ng these past few days…

BUT I gotta look on the bright side!

which is that I have a new THC-A vape AND enough nicotine to starve a small village :3

✧* May 18/19th *̥˚

⚠️ TW ED CONTENT + FAKE BODY

today’s cw

some b0die ch3x

+ last week’s f4st1ng l0g

DISCLAIMER:

Pro-recovery, always

Please block, don’t report

Personal dairy for my own journey with 4n0r3x1a

✧ weigh-in on May 19th:

height - 5’3 (160 cm)

cw - 102.8 lbs (? kgs)

bmi - 18.2

✧ May 18th b0die ch3x:

✧ May 19th b0die ch3x:

✧ f4st1ng l0g:

✧*My pride fit on Saturday *̥˚

Literally had so much fun dancing and being around my community!!! (♡ω♡*)

Only complaint is how much energy I expended and had to keep up…

I eventually had to eat and then lost a bit of control ughh Q_Q

Sorry for the poor pic quality!

✧*My specialty is taking the same pic in 20 slightly different angles and then only saving the ones that look identical*˚

⚠️ TW - ED CONTENT + FAKE B0DY

this morning’s bc

I’m sick + on my period pls excuse the crusty n dusty look

DISCLAIMER:

Pro-recovery, always

Please block, don’t report

Personal diary for my own journey with 4n0r3x1a

✧*Last update for a lil bit*˚

⚠️ TW - ED CONTENT + FAKE B0DIE

no cw update for now bc I won’t be home/have access to a sc4l3

some late night b0die ch3x

+ three songs that I want to be buried with ♡(‘∀’ )

DISCLAIMER:

Pro-recovery, always

Please block, don’t report

Personal diary for my own journey with 4n0r3x1a

✧ songs on my mind:

✧ b0die ch3x:

✧*I’m back!*˚

⚠️ TW: E/D CONTENT + FAKE BODIE + DRVG USE MENTIONS

my post-b1ng3 cw :/

some songs I’m listening to rn :P

a few morning b0di3 ch3x!!

more pics

+ notes (⚆ᗝ⚆)

DISCLAIMER:

Pro-recovery, always

Please block, don’t report

Personal diary for my own journey with 4n0r3x1a

✧ songs:

✧ w31gh-1n:

height - 5’3 (160 cm)

cw - 102.2 lbs (46.4 kg)

bm1 - 18.1

✧ b0die ch3x:

✧ + bonus style/fit checks!

✧ + notes:

I’ve become so addicted to nicotine it’s turned into cravings for rush

I just have a this sick, nagging feeling in the back of my head that I’m just naturally inclined to be an addict of something, at the end of the day (|||❛︵❛.)

aaanyways I’ve been doin good… besides the substance abuse, ofc (☍﹏⁰)

big thank you to whoever made it this far into the post lmaoo <3

(￣ε￣ʃƪ )

✧* My most recent attempt at getting more angles * ̥˚

⚠️ TW ED CONTENT + FAKE BODY

my post-going off the rails and getting my p*riod cw (⚆ᗝ⚆)

some b0die ch3x :]

+ vvv cute bonus pics!! ;3

DISCLAIMER:

Pro-recovery, always

Please block, don’t report

Personal dairy for my own journey with 4n0r3x1a

✧ this morning’s weigh-in:

height - 5’3 (160 cm)

cw - 104.4 lbs (47.36 kgs)

bmi - 18.49

✧ b0die ch3x:

✧ + bonus fit/style checks: