Getting Better - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
I love the smell of hair dye. It has saved me so many times already.
So yeah, since autumn is starting I went red again :)
He make me happy :)
Getting reassurance before even having to ask for it >>>>
When he says he wants to see me again >>
Holy shit that is just awesome. Like, the kind of wanted I feel is insane.
I am so tired and I am so happy.
Thank you.
People, you won't belive it but I just woke up and it's 2 am and I still feel good.
Like, I dreamed about him staying over night and for some reason we were making cookies at night and he fell asleep on the dream.
I loved it. And yeah, I just woke up and am still happy. Hehe :)
I hope he got home safe and sleeps well
I'm crying how can he be so good? How can someone be so kind and loving towards me?
I don't get it? It feels so good.
He wants to come over even if I am sick and have to study?? What the fuck? I didn't know people could do that?
I'm actually crying, Noone ever did that for me. Noone ever cared like that??
What the actual fuck, I am feeling so much??
Be proud of me, I set a fucking boundary!!!!
His hands are so warm and comforting and his smile is so sweet and his eyes so pretty and his voice so calming and his overall presence just everything and and-
Honestly, even when if he leaves me I'm still so grateful to have met him.
Like, he showed me new music, motivated me to start being creative again, helped me accept my scars, went to concerts with me and showed me what I can have.
I was so down when I met him, and I'm really doing better now. Thanks to his influence.
So even if he leaves me, I'll still have a friend and a life.
When he says he's not good but he literally teaches me how to play guitar, kisses my scars, makes cute little Keychains, has a stuffie, kisses my nose and wore his hoodie so it would smell like him when he gave it to me.
I've been placed in the open ward, fuck yesssss
Not under surveillance 24/7 anymore, let's fucking gooooo!
Am I still in love with him or do I just love him now?
I don't know...
It still hurts to think of what we had and how it all ended.
But I still for sure love him, as a person, as a friend, as someone who I trust.
But am I still in love with him??
I don't know, I don't think so. Not like I was.
I am a little bit in love with everyone who I ever was in love with.
They stay a part of me, but I think that's all. I think I'm not in love with him anymore.
I want things to be normal between us again. To be friends, joke around, tell secrets, drink and laugh and cry and cuddle.
Just that.
I really really want him back, as a friend.
I actually didn't think about him today.
Which is funny and good I think.
But now that I do think about him again, I still miss him.
But it hurts less.
And I am less angry too.
Oh my fucking lord?
I just got asked about my special interest???
Holy fucking shit??
I am in love.
Someone I love tells me a story,
It reminds me of you,
Suddenly I am calling you good when you say you are bad.
Suddenly I am still in love with you.
And when I come back,
I am happy like it is now,
I see your name and smile,
My scars itch,
But I am getting better.
I am starting to heal.
