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nobody does it better than depressed teenage girls

i wish i was dead

i wish i was dead

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i wish i was dead so badly...

like if i could take a pill and just die i would gulp that shit down in half a nanosecond

but i don't have access to poison...

god why does living have to be this hard

PLEASE JUST LET ME FUCKING DIE

WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THIS DIFFICULT???

i just. wish i wasn't useless. i want to die. i want to kill myself. i would be better as a corpse. but i fucking can't. i wish i could- but i can't! god im so fucking pathetic. why am i like this? why am i like this? why am i like this? i just wanna die. i wish i was never born. i would be better if i was never born. but i was. and now im here being a fucking burden on everyone i love. i hate myself so so much.

mmm nothing like graphically fantasising about suicide

ugh i wish i wasn't such a fucking pussy :(

"im actually gonna kill myself" proceeds to not kill myself

I don't want to kill myself because I hate myself. I just have no will to live..

yet another episode of existential crisis..

I've been telling my family i love them more often because i don't know when i might snap and actually kms..

"In the silence of my room, the emptiness echoes louder than any words, a reminder of the connections that never were."

Feeling stuck in a muted existence..

The more I interact with others, the more I am convinced that I don’t belong anywhere at all..

I used to sleep a lot because it was the closest I could get to peace of mind, but now I've lost that too..

౨ৎ 𝑰’𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑰’𝒍𝒍 𝒅𝒊𝒆 ౨ৎ

It's back...

I'm drowning in my depression once again...

Please god please, please please set me free from this hell let me just be happy for once please please please.

I saw this sideshow on TikTok and I want to share it here, these slides are not mine credit to the original creator ♡

For anyone thinking of falling asleep and never waking up again.

What if I d1ed in your arms? Bl00dy and cold?

Im sorry that I currwntly dont post a lot but rn im just in a really dificult space.

TW: VENT

In February I relapsed with my sh I had at that point been clean for 4 months.

I felt at that point that I could never forgive myself for how the way that I had betrayed myself.

That's probably the point in my life where I have the most physical scars from.

I was also this 🤏 close to doing another attempt but I thankfully worked through it, because I don't want to die.

I'm just tired.

I'm so tierd.

Almost a month ago I got asked out by the girl I have been in love with for 4 years now, yesterday I visited her house for the first time and I slept at her place.

Her parents are angels and they seem to thankfully really like me :)

Me and My (then) gf went upstairs to sleep and we cuddled AND we also made out.

I thought that the evening went amazing and according to my sleep tracker I have never slept that good in my life basically.

But earlier today I got a message from her telling me that she's not ready for a relationship and all that stuff (look at my post from earlier today to read the message) so I'm absolutely heart broken.

When I got home I went straight to my room so that I could ignore life and when I went downstairs for dinner this is what happened:

My ugly ass stinking annoying brother did not have the brain capacity to understand the word STOP and my other brother called me fat, which to some people would not be that big of a deal but that is my biggest complex and even though through my ed I have lost almost 25kgs in the last 8 months and it's obvious when you look at me he still calls me fat...

I just realized how little I have lost... it's been 8 fucking months...

Also, my parents were shouting at each other and it was the last week of year 8...

I dont want summer break just yet.

Not because I like school because I really don't.

I just feel like making it to summer is an accomplishment and something I look forward to.

I forget that if you keep walking, no matter how slowly, what's in the horizon will come closer and someday you will be at your destination...

I wish

I wish

I wish

I wish!

I wish I was a normal teen

Whos parents would not have to worry about me fucking killing myself

I wish I didnt have to call my mom because after 8.45 i cant use my phone.

I wish the real! Friend, I have that don't judge me for beaing upset, a nerd, my past whatever!

I wish she was in my class

I wish I could move out.

Move out and live on my own.

I won't have to worry about my family saying things that hurt my very fragile feelings every day.

I wish I could move out so I would not have to eat.

I wish I could live a normal teenage life filled whith friends, parties, family, the internet, decent grades,beaing liked...

Yk all that stuff.

I can not imagine a life without depression.

At this point I don't have any reason to keep going.

Why

Why me?

Please God I beg and plead take this pain away PLEASE i can't do this anymore!