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Weird ed'd dinner #1
Mashed patotatoes (box made, cheese, milk, and butter) 210 cals
Kiwi 45 cals
Total 255.
I used to be a person who ate food after food, meal after meal. No one ever questioned if I'd eaten my mom sure as hell blamed me for every missing snack. But she's also my biggest motivation 🥰 love her for making me swear to myself I'll never be talked down on like the fat ass of the house. Yet she's the only one who ever tells me to eat, "you haven't eaten all day put, something on your stomach 🥺". She's so sweet right...
I don't know who I blame more her or me.
May or may not be dying 😀
Made some kimchi jjigae for dinner. Now my neck is stiff, my head hurts, My face feels hot but I also have chills, I can't get up because it feels like my head will explode. Don't know if I poisoned myself because I can't cook or is this some side effect from me restricting. Felt like I was going to pass out at work today but I don't know why either.
Kimchi jjigae 295 cals
half cup of rice 60 cals
Total: 375 cals
The possibly poisoned kimchi jjigae ☺️
Maybe I am just a dumb ass bitch.
Like why am I doing this to myself. If I have the self controle to eat 500 cals a day why can't I just do this healthily.
Is it because I want fast results, because I don't want to exersize. I'm such a loser if that's the case...
But I love the controle, I love that I'm taking back my power. How my stomach literally hurts if I over eat.
... but does that make me an attention speaker, fuck it I am. I want people to worry about me. Wtf does that make me then? A narrsasitic bitch?
But I'm so scared of being who I was, shoving food mindlessly down my throat. Being the ugly fat friend who always asked people if they were going to finish their food.... wow that was a visceral memory.
Maybe I will just starve till I die. Fuck it
Like why eat when you can slay?? 🤨
Aiming for 24+ hours but i’m a fat piggy so we’ll see
update (say oink)
I'm so proud of myself today
Look at it
It's my the best day ever !
"I think you've lost weight">>>>
⚠️TW ed⚠️
When you skip breakfast and go on testing your limits by moving the time line
"I'm hungry, but I'll wait to the end of the class"
"I can keep this up. How about wait to 10am?"
"I got 10...maybe will do 11?"
⚠️Tw ed and food in overall ⚠️
I hate that all the food I eat is because of the stress.... emotional eating in overall
The main reason I'm stressed and stuff is because of my "parents"
If only they died, I would be skinnier
And I'm not looking for an excuse, I'm just rational
I'm trying my best here, okay? I'm skipping meals whenever I'm out, I'm eating a minimum...and here they are, belittling me, stressing the shit out of me and more.... except from sh, which they're trying to make me stop, I have food...they don't let me skip meals at the house, they make me eat and even buy me snacks I love, and even though I'm trying, I can't say 'no' to them. That eases my stress as well, makes me calm, only for a moment tho...then I stress that I ate and I'm fat...and then I starve but only when I'm out...and the circle goes and goes again
whn you say "i already ate" and no one questions "what? / when" etc 😌
you know your fcked when "omg ur so skinni" "you look like ur dyeing" "you look sick" starts to sound like a compliment 😃
pov: we're doing a body check
i would k!ll to look like this. . .
this is exactly how i wanna look
My biggest thin$po is that my crush is skinnier than me.^^
bye i actually want to sob rn.
i asked my mom if we cld have chicken curry nd rice today (whis is like 300-400 cals) nd she said sure, i even went shopping with her so i could see if she bought the right things.
nd when she said that the food is ready she made some fucking bs. literally bs. its so high in calories and i dont want to eat anymore:(
this is the first time in a while i've actually had an appetite for a SPECIFIC thing, and she ruined it completely.
also this is what she made, im sorry if this made anyone feel uncomfortable or anything, but i just wanted to show what she made so anyone could understand:/
Same
I want need stick legsss
Guy friend
My guy friend and I are both 6’0. He’s been bulking and his goal weight is 90kg. He knows about my ed and has tried to coax me out of it in the past.
Yesterday over discord he suddenly realized that if both of us reached our goal weights (mine being 50kg), I would weigh nearly half as much as he would, despite being the same height.
He is very worried, and I feel really bad about worrying him. But not enough to stop…
Criminal 1996
Fiona Apple
ngl I use this for thinspo
When will this happen to meeeeee ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡
(Cannot find op anywhere, was screen recorded from a now deleted yt comp)